SOMETHING IS MISSING

A Handsome Boy

"if one day something happens to me, promise me, you'll have to keep stepping, don't look back."

" what do you mean ?" Jessy was shocked to hear it. So far Alfin has never said as he just slid.the sentence is really strange. "you say what the hell? kayak wants to go far away and .... will never come back".

jessy's mouth closed as her palms immediately pressed on the lips that carelessly spoke. Her face wrinkled, she regretted her last sentence just now.

alfin's lips clenched like there was a key to seal him tightly. Alfin pulls and wriggles the lips so many times that it can move again.it also needs a little hard effort to push up and open it again.

"i am indeed going to go jessy, I must go" Alfin held his breath for a moment before speaking again slowly and carefully. "and, this time I am being serious. it's not kidding if you think or expect that."

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lightning exploded inside jessy's head. What the fuck? both his eyes were wide.

"what are you talking about, Fin? I really don't understand".

Jessy turned her body from facing the moon into a sideways position while facing Alfin. The pale moon that moved higher and higher to the top of the sky was no longer noticed. occasionally a large round object that shines in the dark of the night plays hide and seek with the stars among the mosquito nets of the clouds.Dark fog begins to roll near the dim light, which gradually dims, leaving the two people busy in their respective speculations.

Alfin stared blankly at the helpless grass beneath his feet.The grass broke down on a pair of sturdy sandals from his synthetic leather.

" you must understand what I mean, Niken." Alfin's voice sounded heavy.not one bit his eyes looked at the lover who for eight years filled his days a lot. gathered all his energy to remain firm and convincing. "our relationship must end".

jessy was stunned, she was glued to the spot for a few minutes.In fact, Jessy was not sure she still heard her heart beating or not. her attention was only in one direction, namely to Alfin who moves restlessly.high eyes also hit on the man who grasped the key of the motorcycle tightly as if the gloves did not protect his palm from the piercing taste.

sure, Alfin had already sworn that he would never leave Jessy no matter what, the night Alfin said it.

"i will love you forever, and will never leave you no matter what.the full moon bears witness to my vow." Then, what did the sentence mean just now?

"sorry Jessy." Like hearing Jessy's scream, a short sentence slid with a great shiver from Alfin's chest. "forget my promise on that full moon night, Jessy. consider it just meaningless nonsense."

"uh huh?! what the hell are you? you're kidding, aren't you, Fin?" for a moment Jessy seemed to wake up, even though her lips were too trembling so it was almost unclear what the new sentence was saying.

the girl still glared in disbelief.he laughed crazily but sounded pitiful.Alfin's statement was funny and unreasonable. Alfin who is full of love, cheer and ...he can not continue anymore, pressed against the pain that afflicted him. a moment later silent.

"that's not funny Alfin!" sumpul Jessy floating.

" i mean it, jes.you didn't hear me wrong," Alfin's voice pierced through the recesses of his interlocutor's heart.

"ta-but why? what's wrong?!" jessy's tone rose.he began to shake Alfin's words.