Silu's Smile

Episode 39's

The first thing that Heaven felt when turning the vidio was pain, Pain saw Nara so much as suffering from a mistake that he never did, he said, If only the Sky in the position of Nara maybe the Sky would not be as strong as Nara who had lost a child added to the hatred of her husband and parents.

The sky could not resist the tears flowing like the swift river water, His body trembled his legs limp at what was happening in the vidio.

Flashbacks

One month after Kai left Nara's life suffered even more so he got hatred from the people who should be there for him to be his back and embrace him, especially, Nara felt that there was no place for her to tell her what she felt when she lost Kai.

Day after day she went to learn to accept the fate that God gave but did not succeed, Nara went to the navel Kai to visit her, In the pusara Kai also Nara never told him anything that was happening to him.

Nara exited the cemetery where she walked aimlessly until she stopped at a clinic with a sign that read Psychologist, What prompted Nara to enter the clinic, Nara felt like she needed someone to listen to her story.

"Excuse me Miss, there's something I can help you with" the receptionist asked as Nara just walked in.

"Who can I see doctor Lyly" replied Nara slowly, Doctor Lyly is a psychologist doctor written on the palng outside earlier.

"Can miss please fill out this form first" the receptionist handed over the registration form.

After completing the registration form Nara waited on the seat that had been provided, a few moments later Nara was invited in, Pulling her Breath briefly Nara entered the room.

Doctor Lyly was a little surprised to see the condition of his undead patient for the first time, Yes this is the first time Lyly's doctor met a patient like Nara who just from looking at her face alone already knows if her condition is very not okay.

That pity was the first thing Lyly's doctor felt when he saw his patient, Doctor Lyly was a little wondering what was the worst thing that made this patient so miserable.

"Please sit down Miss" Doctor Lyly said, letting Nara sit down.

Nara sat down without answering Lyly's doctor's greeting, "Naraya Jasmine Damara is a very good name" Lyly said after seeing Nara's name in her hand.

"What the...."

"Can I tell you something I can't tell anyone to the doctor" Sela Nara interrupted Lyly's speech.

Doctor Lyly smiled as he did not anger Nara cutting off her remark, "Of course Nara"

"You can tell me whatever you've been waiting for, consider me a friend you can trust" continued Dr. Lyly.

Nara's eyes are closed but she does not sleep and she can still be invited to talk, Doctor Lyly turned on the music therapy so that Nara feels calm and comfortable, After Nara's feelings calmed down Lyly's doctor just asked a question.

"How can you listen to me" asked Dr. Lyly patting Nara's hand gently.

"Yes I can hear the doctor" answered Nara.

"What do you want to tell Nara, a story you can't tell anyone's pepper?"

Nara's tears had already flowed, "I lost my only child right before my eyes, My son died before my eyes, When it happened that my life was completely ruined even it felt like I wanted to follow him right then and there, I don't know if that day was the last day my son lived, I didn't know, If I had known I would spend time with my son, if I had known that tragedy would have happened I would never have let go of my son's hand to help other people's children" Nara paused her speech, Her voice was drowned by her cries.

Doctor Lyly let Nara shed her tears until Nara could actually go back to continuing her story, Nara wept wailing that all this time she could not let out sounded very sad, Doctor Lyly was washed away in Nara's cries unconsciously her tears flowed along.

Nara let out her tears long enough that she could calm down a little, Doctor Lyly went out of the room to see the receptionist at her clinic, He asked to cancel his promise today for his other patients, he said, Because doctor Lyly felt Nara took a long time with her.

Doctor Lyly returned to his room and Nara had calmed down a little and was not crying just that the sound of sobbing was still heard clearly.

"How are you, Nara, is it calmer?" Ask Doctor Lyly who is now back sitting next to Nara

Nara just nodded her head, "Can you continue your story Nara?"

Nara took a breath before starting the story again, "I let go of my son's hand just to help another child, I'm a really bad mother as my husband and parents say, If only I hadn't let go of my son's hand then maybe my son was still with me now, it wouldn't have been if I hadn't taken my son to the park maybe none of this would have happened, It's my fault I should have died not my son, I'm the worst mother right said my mother I don't deserve to be a mother" Nara vented her emotions by beating her cheek many times.

Doctor Lyly lets Nara vent her emotions and when Nara is out of control, doctor Lyly holds Nara's hand," Calm Nara is calm" Doctor Lyly's voice whispers in Nara's ear.

Nara calmed down again, "What's wrong with my son doctor why the woman took my son away to see him, why did the woman hit my son what's wrong with him why the woman has the heart for me, He should have hit me and not my son, I shouldn't have died because my husband and family love my son so much, Everyone hates me so much because my mistakes, their favorite children and grandchildren, are gone"

"They're angry they hate me they berate me even they say I don't love my son and accuse me of being a murderer, They were too busy with the feeling of losing each one of them until they did not know that I was as devastated as they were, I am the Mother, I gave birth to my child bet my life because of the same person, he said, I took care of him day and night, How could they accuse me of being a murderer and not loving my son, When the tragedy happened because of someone's actions from my husband's time, But why am I being blamed for not even letting me see my son for the last time" Tight chest tightness Nara felt tight but also relieved because he had told what he had been pendam all this time.

Nara cries out howling her current state looks so devastated, Nara blames herself for what happened to Kai, Doctor Lyly can no longer stem her tears, Doctor Lyly stood up and carried Nara's body in his arms they cried together.

"Pardon Mother Kai forgive Mother, Please forgive Mother Kai" Racau Nara continued unceasingly, Doctor Lyly called one of the nurses and asked the nurse to inject a sedative for Nara.

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