She She She's Perfect
The Part 70
Back to the wedding.
"Well" came one word from the marriage licensee shortly after Deni said the marriage contract.
One word that means a lot to Deni, Oliv and gw. One sentence signifies that Oliv is rightfully his companion, One word which means he is only a memory for me.
Back I remember the events of 2 weeks ago before I was present at his wedding, when I still can not forget the events in February that changed all my wishes, he said, when oliv prefers Deni over gw.
"There's no package for you" said OB kantor Iw while giving an envelope of chocolate to me
"Thank you" I replied and received the package.
I open the package, there are 2 invitations in it, Hard cover wedding invitations light blue, in front of which there is a second name embossed bride-to-be with gold ink - Oliv & Deni-, and, to be honest at that time I had mixed feelings, there was a little bit of fun and there was also a sense of jealousy. "It's her choice" inner gw on the heart whenever oliv's face appears on the head gw.
And one more invitation was addressed to Andi.
In the afternoon I received a phone call, I saw on the screen hp gw - Oliv-, I,
"well hello" lift me up
"hello den" he sounded on the other end of the phone
"yes liv, knapa" replied I as usual as possible, even though my heart was very missed by the sound of her voice
"you have received my package" he said
"already live, one for me one for andi" said gw
"you came, huh?" oliv
"yes, I will do it" replied I
"pliss den, dateng ya" force oliv
"later I set the schedule" said I
"you take mom with sister2 also yes" said oliv
"if they're not busy liv" Iw said
"plis den, I don't want to end gini den" he said
"it ends how liv, it's your decision" Iw said
"Well, but not necessarily gini, even though our relationship is not in accordance with what we expect at least we can still be a family den" he said
"iya liv, your family has become my family, I have known you since the beginning" said I
He was silent for a moment, then he again persuaded me to come, then he was clear about the plan to pick up my family later in Jogja.
I called my mom right away after that, I told her about Oliv's invitation
"how come, we did not come" said Iw
"well it's up to you, klo advises mom anyway come son, all friends.
"Yaudah mak, later deni find the ticket first" said Iw, after I finished immediately tell andi about the invitation oliv
"Lo come back?" andi said (gw already told about the incident oliv preferred Deni)
"it looks like it's coming in" said gw
"sure you want to come, you are sincere" said Andi
"sure ndi, insha allah sincerely ndi, how else will this be his decision" said gw
"OK, klo lo go I leave, but I take siska ya" said Andi
"well, it's up to you" said I
after continuing the same light conversation andi I hang up the phone.
February 2012
Gw again in Jakarta, there happens to be a task from the office, after telling oliv if I am again in Jakarta he is very excited to meet me. We meet the dinner malem, "want to eat where" asked me not long after he came to the place I nginep
"the deket deket here aja yuk, again males bring a car, jammed" he said, I agree.
"have you talked to Mom?" kta oliv
"already" I replied briefly
"keep going" continued oliv
"there was never a problem" I said
"continue when the mother wants to go home" continued Oliv
"well as soon as liv, klo not 3 months yes 4 months, adik2 can not be left" said gw
"ooo, sip that" he said
again cool to eat hp oliv sounds, oliv see who the phone then in reject, then the sound again, continue to direct again, Oliv see who the phone is then in reject, then again,
"who?" gw
"nothing" said oliv
"Deni" asked gw
He nodded, "that's why he still likes to call" I asked
"it's a lot" said Oliv
"you lift up" said I
"no, males" said oliv
"i can ask you liv" said I
"by dong" said oliv
"how long have you been dating her" I asked
"can't don't talk about him" Oliv said
"i need to know liv" I asked, she was on the brakes for a moment
"5 Years" he answered briefly
"from when" said I
"SMA class 3" replied Oliv
"keep your alesan disbanded why" asked gw
"Well, because he doesn't want me to work here" Oliv said
"you're sure that's all, you've been dating for 5 years because of this just to break up" asked I'm a bit suspicious, he was just on his head
"you're honest right liv" said Iw while looking into his eyes, he looked into my eyes, inexplicably the feeling I said that he had not been honest with me.
"iya yank, ah don't discuss him anymore" said Oliv, he immediately tried to change the topic, I just diem at that time.
I don't know how long we're the same diem, until finally Oliv said "ok I'll be honest, but you won't be angry right?" said oliv,
"kalo you still don't want the story nor papa" said gw
"i'll be honest, actually we did have a storm when he knew I would work in Jakarta, but not until breaking up" said oliv
"then" continued I.w,
"well, I'm really good with him, alesan he doesn't want me to work in Jakarta for fear of me why - napa, I'm an adult, he always treats me like a child, like a child, I don't like it" Oliv said "i'm angry, I made a single relationship on fb, I didn't pick up the phone" he continued
"continue, break?" I said, he's a bell
"sampe at that time" he said, I looked into his eyes, he did not want to see me
"sampe you meet again with me" guess I, he's a mangosteen.
"sampe when I see you again malem, I can actually break him" said Oliv
"you're so bad liv" said Iw
"sorry I yank" said oliv
"you should apologize to her, not to me" I replied
"your 5 years of dating, you keep leaving her just because of me" I said rather loudly
"but that's because I really love you" Oliv said
I just diem, I break up to go back, all the way we just diem, until in the room I think, what should I do I really feel guilty about him, I take hp gw, what should I feel guilty about him, I have a deni number, I play the number, not long lifted.
"hello" he said at the end
"hello den, this is gw deni" said Iw, he diem for a while
"uh what's up? ask her
"lo where?" ask gw
"gw djakarta" he answered
"said oliv lo is still in jogja" asked gw
"i've been here for a month" he replied
"when can?" ask him, I see the watch is still at 10 malems
"now you can, you can go to my place, I nginep in the hotel santika" replied Iw, he agreed.
About 30 minutes I waited for him, and finally hp I rang, I picked up
"gw's in the lobby" he said
"okay, I'm down" said Iw, I went straight down he was sitting in the lobby, after I shook his hand
"can you talk out there" said I as I pointed at the parking lot, he was mangosteen, we walk in that direction.
"what's wrong" he said seriously
"gw just want to ask your feelings to oliv" said I
"denger yes, until whenever the feeling of gw to oliv tetep will be the same" he said
"weeiis, be patient, bro, I'm just good2" I said
"it's all your fault, why you have to show up now, when everything is ripe" he continued
"lo voice can be small no, I want to say good, klo lo can not be invited to talk really mendingan lo back sono" said Iw, he was a bit embarrassed after I said that
"i swear I don't know if you were still in touch at that time, when I met him, he said he had broken up with you" said Iw
"Lo don't need a lot of reasons, I know you do like him from the beginning you know, you want to call him right" he said nyolot
"relax the shucks, do not have to snapped snapped" said me hard, he did not accept, as a result of one blow I landed on his forehead, automatically he immediately shook and sprawled.
"lo the meaning I am" said Iw, "need you know yes, I have been affectionate with him for a long time, but I have no intention of calling him from lo" said Iw, said, he was diem at that time, either because the ears were able to grasp what I was able to or his brain was still shaking due to a blow Iw.
"gw really - really dear to him" he said arrived - arrived a little stammered, his voice sounded like a cry, but I can not be sure at that time, the condition was dark and he was downcast.
"plis den, don't grab him, I really love him" he continued
"gw you know his first love, he told me all about lo, but I'm not willing if he left me" he said
"and I also know if he really loves me too, when our relationship has started well, suddenly you appear" he said
"gw do not accept den, I do not accept you take him" he said
"denger den, I have no intention to grab him, I really2 do not know if you are still related" said Iw
"Honestly I also will not let him go to lo so aja den" said Iw
"gw loves him too" said Gw
"continue you want how, want the same duel, I'm ready den, I'm willing to die for him" he said
"lo don't*** den, there are many other women" said Iw
"no den, make him I'm willing to anything, because he pantes for diprejuangin" he said standing up.
"it is not necessary den, I already know the feeling of lo to him, but I can not escape it so den" said Iw
"It means we really have to duel here" he said with a step that is still limp
"no need den, okay I will give you the opportunity to talk to oliv, he will be erratic, but whatever decision you have to accept" said Iw, he thought for a moment
"he won't pick me fucking, I know he must choose lo" he said
"gw know oliv den, he certainly can mutusin which is best for him" said Iw, he diem at the time, like busy thinking
"this is your last chance to den, I can not help more" said Iw, although in my heart actually hurt.
He was taken for a while, and then he agreed with my advice
"okay if you agree, tomorrow I ask oliv to come here at 7 o'clock" said I
"okay" he said and left.
Tomorrow I will make the same appointment to meet at 7, he does not know if I ngajak deni.
At 7 o'clock less he was in the hotel lobby, I invite him out to find a good place to eat which I certainlyin.
After arriving, he immediately pesen ate
"i'm a really good laper" he said
"liv, someone wants to see you" Iw said
"plis, you don't get angry, and you have to meet" continued Iw, oliv looked confused when deni was standing next to him
"we're here" said Oliv
"denger liv, I asked him here, I've heard all the stories he told, honestly I can't continue our relationship if you don't settle first your problem with him" I said
"okay den, you sit here" point me to the empty chair beside gw, he sits, he looks oliv, oliv does not want to look at him
"okay, please you guys talk, I wait there" he said while pointing at a corner, it seems oliv does not agree with the idea Iw, he mgeliatin gw, I just smile.
I don't know what they are talking about, I can only see from a distance, most deni who talk, I saw several times oliv smile, there is a sense of worry in my heart, I, I'm afraid that Oliv is more willing to deni than gw, but that's my decision, whatever oliv decided I have to accept. From the talk I had to deni the night before I knew he really loved oliv, then somehow these few months I feel there is something different with oliv, oliv is not like the oliv I used to know first.or maybe a few months this oliv also can not escape deni so his attitude has changed.
Still from the corner I saw Deni holding oliv's hand, I also saw oliv responding to the movement, they were laughing together, deni squirming towards gw, a sign they were done. I walked towards them.
"so you have already cut out liv" asked me while looking into his eyes, he looked down, I don't know why he was crying, I already know the answer, he cried sobbing until he couldn't speak.
I squirm, he smiles
"thank you den, you've given me a chance" he said, I just bales a brief smile
For some reason, although honestly I'm sincere but my breath is really tight, my legs vibrate.
"sorry I yank" he said
"no need to liv, for several months I also feel you are different liv, after hearing the story deni semalem I realize that you are not as dear to me first" said gw, he nduk.
"yeah, you guys continue here, I want to go back to the hotel" I said briefly, without any horror from them I immediately left. Arriving at the hotel I saw hp there were several times misscall, and there were several sms, I took a look at one sms
"Yank, pick up" sms oliv
I don't want to read, there is a sense of hatred to oliv, but this is wrong Iw, why I give time to deni.
Until a week later I re-open inbox hp gw, there are some pesen from the work team, and there may be 40sms from oliv, I try to open one by one content only
"lift the plis" or "sorry me" or "plis sorryin me" to the last text that is different, he said long.
"Maybe this is my last message to you, I'm not sure if I want to apologize to you, I'm actually selfish sorry, you came when I was unstable, you came when I was unstable, you came by bringing back our memories, you made me blind, blind to the affection I had received from him, sorry. Honestly I love you, and you also know how big my love is to you, my dear to you is greater than my dear to him, to him, but I can't waste someone much more dear to me, 5 years we dated maybe just the last year that I lived with him without thinking he was you, and he knew it, and he accepted it. I'm sorry I can't choose you, I'll love you forever"
I read the message several times, finally I press the call button
not long lifted
"you want to talk to me" Oliv said
"sorry I am yank" he said
"no need to liv, I'm wrong" I said
"no yank, I was wrong, from the start I was wrong, I can not keep my promise to you 2 times even, maybe if I don't open my heart to other people it doesn't seem like it" he said
"already live, all the gods are sure, man can only plan" said Iw
"i'm really grateful to know you, just as you I can know what it means baby, just as you I can know the meaning of sacrifice" Oliv said
"i'm also liv" said I
"i'll keep your darling yank" said Oliv "You?" tannya
"i keep my promise to you in the airport when you want to move, I will always love you, no matter what" said I, he diem, heard sobbing from the other end of the phone.
"you don't have to cry, you can get better than me" said I
"thank you yank, thanks for filling my life" he said still stamped - brick
"i thank you too" said Gw
Back to June 2012
When we queue to say congratulations, I lined up behind my mother and sister behind me followed by andi and siska.
Mom shakes hands with Oliv's parents, when I shake papa oliv's hand she hugs me tightly
"you're great son, papa is proud of you" he whispered in the ear gw (papa oliv does not want to be called om again, although I failed to be his son-in-law, but he has done gw own child)
"thank you pa" said I
"Den, you're missing ya" said mama oliv
"do'ain ma" I said, smiling
Pas I shake hands with him because he's curling gw
"Still den, for all your reform" he said
"lo pantes dapet oliv" said gw "and sorry" continued Iw while pointing towards the jaw he smiled
When I went to Oliv's place, he immediately hugged me, his tears could not be held, dibener really sucked, can not talk.
"Have not been crying, tar make up faded, ugly photo" said, he tried to smile, hit my hand
After the reception, as promised, I take my sister on the road.
Somehow after this my heart is not sad but very relieved, like there is a heavy burden on my shoulders that comes off, while I look at the ring of oliv giving, as promised Iw, as I promised, I'm not going to get away.
