She She She's Perfect
The Part 44
The next day I went down the road seemed more beautiful, maybe because here I met sekampung together, so I did not live too mgebosenin. Andi often ngajakain gw way, sometimes both, sometimes the same foursome siska and santi.
While my relationship with Santi also runs cool, he has been more open in everything, sometimes we talk seriously, sometimes joking, this condition that makes me more comfortable in Jakarta, Jakarta, the feeling I was saying that he also had the same feeling as me, but somehow I was not able to talk to him. I'm afraid to say look for opportunities.
One day I went the same way andi, he asked a serious thing to me.
"Den, you want to see when you're like gini" asked Andi seriously
"this is what ndi is" I replied
"Well gini, sorry before den, lo den work, until when you want to work kayak gini, heavy work" said andi, I diem long enough, try to digest andi questions
"hmmm, don't know Ndi, I'm also confused, this is all I can do" said I lethargic
"want until when den, sekrang is ok, we are young, tar klo age we add how" asked andi
"continue I have to how Ndi, I have no skills what what" said I resigned
"yes, you might be able to go to college, pretty den, what you can now be more if you go to college" said Andi
"alah ndi, there are also many scholars who are unemployed" said Iw
"gini den, scholars aja nganggur especially just high school graduates" said andi, I immediately fell silent, in fact said andi, klo sarja aja still nganggur let alone just sma.
"beneer klo lo assume now the SMA is better, but you see the majority of their work what, the most hard work, there are also successful, but not until 10% den" said Andi
I contemplate the words of Andi, the talk is real, I have been wrong all this time.
"Ok ndi I agree with you, but the cost of college is expensive ndi, continue to pay what? a leaf?" ask gw
"as long as you have the intention everything can be den, you can go to college while working" said Andi
"There's no way you know what I'm doing, there's never time for that" I said
"well, you look for another job, which is flexible time" said Andi
"what job?" gw
"gini den, klo saran gw, mendingan lo back to Palembang, happened to be there Univ. Private, which is quite good, the cost is also not too high" said Andi
"o there's just a ndi, klo I'm back what's the job?" ask gw
"quietly, it was I thought, it happened papa there are acquaintances who have a restaurant, klo lo want you can work there, his work time will not collide with college, klo lo can work there, his work time will not collide with college, The schedule is not from the morning, but the schedule shift, you can ask for a second shift, entry at 4 pm to 12 malls, klo lo lecture morning you can work malem" said andi
I think Andi's remark, interesting also Andi's offer, I can be more deket family gw.
"but you do not ngarep big salary den, but I think enough for the cost of college lo" said Andi, it seems he was horrified my mind, I just grinned
"okay ndi thanks, I thought first yes, I think I'm interested in the same advice lo" said Iw
"don't be long, my advice, at the end of this year you return, because the new school year is June, you can work first about 6 Monthly, hefty salary for registration fees, you can work, all of you adapt in a new place" said Andi
"end of year? 2 BUlan again dong" said gw
"yes, that's my advice, but you don't want no problem, you can go back next year also no problem" said Andi
"Yes, I thought yes, thanks to your advice, my mind is more open now" I said
"that's what temen is for" said andi "eh by the way2 lo sama how?" ask andi
"what is it" ask gw pura2 ****
"ah you pura****, lo den relationship, how far" said Andi
"it's normal" said gw
"ah lo, I know you like him den, honestly just why" said andi
"hmmm, really yes, but I'm confused ndi, I don't want to be stamped nyari nyari nyari chance" said Iw
"hmm, my advice anyway, you break up now, you do not want the same oca incident oliv to repeat in santi right, do not play too often the feelings of den girls" said andi
"hehehe, lo ndi song, like a poet" said I nyengir
"yeee, I'm serious****" replied andi
"that's it, tar I think it's too" I said
"lo mostly think, klo I so lo, I've been embat, less what he bro, beautiful, good, sexy again, gw type really" said andi
"brain lo perverted mulu anyway" said gw
"yeee, a normal guy would be like that" Andi said
"it's up" said gw.
We continue a lighter chat, do not feel the time is too lazy, I was ushered back.
Almost every day I think about what you were talking about at that time, finally the decision I have made was bullet back, there is nothing I can do long here, I have been, in my brain there is only one sentence "For a Better Life" I thought.
I've talked to Mr. Tofik about this, he seems to accept my decision, I,
"If I really agree, as long as you can be better, that's your right" said Mr. Tofik, when I revealed my plan to stop
"yes sir, thank you for your help so far, maybe if there is no father, I've become what now" said I
"ah, this kmu, the meeting and separation of the arranged gods, maybe next time we can mate again" said Mr. Tofik
"yes sir, once again accept the box" said Iw
"oh yes, the plan is when you want to return to Palembang" asked Mr. Tofik
"maybe it will be at the end of the year sir" I said
"well then, you're good2 right there" said Mr. Tofik, as he said,
After that conversation, I don't think I know when I'll talk to Santi, I don't know what he'll respond to later.
Last week I was in Jakrta, I tried to talk to Santi, I said,
"why den, what the hell is not to do" he said with a smile
"ah you make me float" said I smile "this san, this weekend I plan to return to Palembag" said Iw
"oooo, finally you go back too, want new years there yes, keep going back" asked santi, it seems like she did not know what I meant
"sorry san, I don't think back anymore" said Iw, I saw the expression of santi seemed shocked, long enough he diem, suddenly he smiles, he smiles,
"oooo, indeed you want to do there" asked Santi, with a face that I know pura2 seneng
"as said lo san, I want to go to college, I dapet information there is a pretty good private univ there, I will also have a job there" said I
"ooo that, yaudah klo that, you're good there ya" said Santi, he continued to look back on his computer monitor, I feel guilty really, but want how again "for a better life" said gw dalem hati.
Arrive on the last day in Jakarta, I have asked cecep to find a bus ticket to return to Palembang before I spoke to Santi the other day. Tickets are in hand now it's time to pay to all who are here, mornin2 really I've paid the same fare in the warehouse, Meilan and Pak Agus regret Iw back, but they understand too.
Pas I went to the store I saw Mr. Tofik already in the store, I samperin him
"For the sir, I want to say goodbye sir" I said
"hmmm yes you heart yes, can take care of yourself, all what you harepin can be granted" said mr tofik
"yes sir, once again thank you very much for your help so far to me" said I
"yes, no problem, anyways you have my own family den" said mr. tofik smile
"Where are you sir" asked me, I also want to say goodbye to him.
"get in the car, I ask him to anter you to the terminal" said Mr. Tofik
"oooo that, sorry to take care of sir, thank you" said Iw, mr. tofik just ngagguk, after shaking hands directly at the car santi. Iw open the door, I see him smile to gw, I see him smile to gw, puffy eyes.
"it's ready" he said
"it's already there" replied I.
Santi went straight, "Den, what time is the bus" asked santi
"Jam 2 san" replied Iw
"now only at 8, we go back to yuk" invite santi, I can not refuse too, because I do not want to waste the last chance I have with santi. Maybe my last chance is today, I don't know when to see him again.
"by san" said gw
santi drove her car to the ancol beach area, after parking her down, I follow her, I walk beside her. Along the way he just kept quiet, I dare to embrace his shoulder from the side, he has no response.
"I'm sorry, I know you can't accept my decision" said Iw
he was just silent, all he heard was his sobbing.
He's curling his waist gw. "lo evil den" said santi
I just diem "lo have the heart, you must know my feelings to you right, I know you do not*** den" said santi half-cried.
"sorry san, I know your feelings to me, because I also have the same feeling to you, but this decision I have to make" said Iw
He just diem, he approached me tightly, the separation did feel heavy.
"gw dear lo den" said santi.
"gw also love lo san, from the beginning I met you" said Iw
"but why do you never talk den, I've been waiting a long time you tell me to gw" said santi
"gw don't want people to value differently san" said Iw
"gw no matter what people say den, fuck them, I just want you" said santi
"maafin gw san" said gw "Lo still want kata2 gw time at the top" asked gw
"which one?" said
"quite we know each other if we love each other is enough for me" said I "now I know your feelings to me, it's already quite san" said Iw
"but not for gw den, I want to lo completely, not just the feeling of lo" said santi
"sorry san, I can't" said Iw, he cried added kenceng, I'm waiting for him calm.
"alright if it's a decision lo den, I can't ngehalangin lo, but I'm still going to wait lo den, I'm waiting for you to come back here again, keep you married gw" said santi, said, santi thought too far, I thought.
"gw can not promise san, I can not guess the direction of my life in the future" said I
"gw don't care, I'll wait for you" he said
I'm just diem, though,.
"den, yuk the road is almost noon, afraid of jammed hejalan" arrived2 anyway, because long enough we diem each other. I just nod
on the way he just diem, I also do not know what to say, once he terminal nganterin gw to the counter, his bus happened to have come, I went straight in, please follow gw kedalem
"lo don't papa if you wait for you to leave for a new tour" said Santi
"gw even want to ask you here longer san" said I smile
"while waiting for the other passengers to board, we chatted everything, from small hal2, sometimes I saw the eyes of the 2-glazed santi, it seemed like she was holding her back.
Finally all passengers have boarded, the bus is not too full, maybe they will raise passengers at another terminal I think I, before the bus leaves, santi bring her lips to the lips gw, feel warm, feel warm, a long enough kiss makes my brain melt.
"This is so you always want gw den, and let you mop back here" whisi santi, I can't say apa2, I just diem and look into his eyes, tears dripping from his eyes, I can't say what 2, then he rushed down.
I could only stare at him from the window of the bus, he walked quickly to his car, without looking at me. before the bus left, I still had time to see his car drove to the terminal.
Very painful separation, I thought.
Along the way I can only think about santi, whether this decision is right, god must have a way of thinking Iw.
