Second Destiny

37

“Sorry, Nayya can't-”

Afnan who heard Nayya's words immediately looked at the woman and immediately cut her speech, “Nay!” call her.

Nayya was silent and looked at Afnan, “We talked together first. Can?” permit Afnan.

Nayya also looked at the two old men who nodded. Finally, Nayya agreed to Afnan's request.

Well, here they are. In the front yard while staring at the flower garden that was there. Afnan looked straight at his lover with a domineering gaze on his interlocutor. Nayya remained with her gentle and lovable gaze. There was no firmness at all in his gaze. His usual gaze was not visible at all.

“What do you want to talk about?” asked Nayya still with continued staring into the flower garden.

Afnan took a deep breath before he let out his voice, “Do you want to reject me again?” ask Afnan back.

Nayya smiled then turned her head and looked at the man who had come seven years ago to propose. The man she once loved and she hoped would be her husband. But fate toyed with them until Nayya also met the husband who is currently very much missed his presence.

“Do I have the right to receive you? Don't you realize you're embarrassing yourself by proposing to me. You're a single man who has never been married at all while I'm. You know what status is attached to me. Don't you be ashamed to ask a widow of three children to be your wife. I don't want to reject you, but I don't want to embarrass you. I made enough mistakes and made you feel sad. Don't again. I hope you understand and stop this. I'm sure there's a lot out there a girl you can marry and can accept you for what's on.” said Nayya softly. There was no angry tone at all in his words.

Afnan who heard Nayya's words also took a deep breath again, “I forgot you are a very stubborn Nayya. I forgot you were Nayya who never wanted to share your sorrows with others just for the reason of not wanting to burden you. I thought you'd make an exception for me because you know me. But apparently you don't even consider me a stranger. It doesn't matter, Nay. I won't give up.” Afnan.

“Emang what's wrong I married you. What's wrong with me marrying a woman with three children. What's wrong with that. I don't think there's anything wrong. If we are only fixated and afraid to be the talk of others then believe that we will never go forward. People will never stop talking until they are bored. So why think about what others say if we have to suffer. Better let them keep talking the important thing we're happy. Anyway, I know that you're not the one who's gonna dispute those people's opinions. You are an open person.” Connect Afnan.

Nayya who heard that also smiled, “You like her know me very well, Nan. But don't you realize that everyone can change. I am the same. I'm no longer the Nayya you used to know who wouldn't care about other people's opinions. For now I'm a retreating person who always thinks about what people say. So please stop all this. I can't be your wife.” Nayya's voice quivered at the end of her sentence.

“Nay!” call Afnan when you feel that Nayya is trying to hold back her crying.

Nayya raised her face and stared fixedly at Afnan's face, “I don't deserve you. You can get better than me.” Nayya.

“But I only want you Nay. Seven years ago, today and in the future. It doesn't matter if you reject me today. I'll come again another time. I'll give you time to think.” Afnan.

“You're stubborn Nan.” Nayya.

Afnan smiled at Nayya's words, especially at Nayya's call to her. The call that she misses so much because it was the call that Nayya gave her during their relationship. A call he might have heard after all this time.

“We're both stubborn Nay. The first child does not have that nature. Just remember that I will not give up on this. I know that you loved and loved your late husband very much. I never intended to take his place in your heart. I just want to take my share that might be hidden in the corner of your heart.” Afnan.

“You're too confident. But thank you for your time and understanding. I'm not gonna promise you anything. I will not think about this because I believe that what I think will not change at all. My answer today will probably remain the same as my answer in the future. You just wasted your time waiting for me.” Nayya.

“No problem for me. How many years I want to wait for you.” Afnan.

“Basic stubbornness.” Said Nayya who was replied by Afnan with a smile.

“I bet on your word maybe Nay. The word may mean to me is an opportunity.” Inner Afnan.

After that the two went back into the residence and joined the parents there who were like her waiting for answers from both of them.

“Mih ... pih .. we go home.” said Afnan.

Everyone there was surprised by Afnan's remark, “What does he mean, son? Is the application not continued?” ask mami Rana.

“We'll try her another time mih. For now my luck is still in the bottom position so it is not able to conquer Nayya.” Said Afnan staring towards Nayya fixedly.

Nayya who heard that could only smile and then she looked at Rana's mother. Nayya approached Afnan's mother to apologize for the second time she rejected their proposal, “I'm sorry Nayya, Mih. Forgive this stubborn Nayya. Forgive Nayya who rejected your proposal again. Believe me you will definitely get a daughter-in-law who is ten times ah not many times better than Nayya. You can hate Nayya as you like.” Nayya said.

Mami Rana who heard that also smiled and hugged Nayya, “No problem son. Maybe it was us who came too hastily so this happened. We won't blame you. You have the right to refuse or accept this. This is my life anyway. You deserve a hundred percent for your life. No one can disturb that.” said Mami Rana.

Nayya smiled, “Thank you mih.” Her words.

After that, the two families separated immediately. Afnan's family soon returned and now lives to leave Nayya with his parents and his three children.

“Nayya!” call papa Imran.

“Ask what papa and mama want ask me.” Nayya to the point.

“Do you really not want to consider that proposal son?” ask papa Imran.

“Pah, you yourself told me that I am entitled to my own life. Then why are you asking me that now. Why do you seem to have moved parties from me.” Nayya.

“It's not like that, son. But look they've come to you a second time. Don't you have to think about them, too. Papa knows you are not a selfish person who would not think of others like that.”, said Imran.

Nayya smiled, “Give me time to think pah.” Reply Nayya. Then after that he immediately went to his room.

***

“Mother, did Uncle Afnan come to ask mother to be his wife?” ask Xander. For the first time her second child was curious about something so that Nayya who heard her also showed her a smile.

Well, those three boys tonight decided to sleep with her.

Nayya nodded, “Yeah, like that. What's up?” ask Nayya who wants to know her son's opinion.

Xander shook his head, “There's nothing really going on. Xander asked. Xander sleeps first yes bun.” Her speech. Then his son immediately laid his body on the bed and covered his face with a blanket. Even Nayya who saw that could only be confused.

After that Nayya switched to staring at her other child who is now staring at her too, “What's wrong? You guys have questions for mom too? Let's just say it. Mommy will answer it for you if indeed you have the answer.” said Nayya softly.

“Mother, we know you love dad very much. We are the same. We do not want to replace the father with another one just like the mother who does not want to have another husband besides the father. We don't want to force you to get married either. But don't you think that with married mother mother can there be a guard, protect just like what father did to mother. So you must know what Qalessa means, right?” qalessa the princess.

“Mother, who is said brother is right. Mother should not be lonely. Maybe you can live with us but you also need a husband. Do not be burdened because of our existence mother.” Xavier the son.

Nayya who heard that was silent thinking about what the children said.

“Son, you know you will never be lonely as long as you are with your mother. You are the light of mother. So what else do we need. Ohiya one more you are not a burden for the mother. Never think like that.” said Nayya.

“Remember son, mother's decision has nothing to do with you guys.” continued.

“Post lies!” the inner third of his heart was because indeed Xander heard it even though his body was covered with a thick blanket.

After that they immediately stopped their discussion and took their respective positions to rest their respective bodies.

***

Not long after the three children fell asleep, Nayya got up from her bed and headed to the table where there was her laptop. He opened his beloved laptop and there he began to write down his circumstances today. He also saw his novel that he had not updated for a long time so he got a lot of warnings to immediately renew his novel.

Nayya also with the remnants of imagination that she had she tried to pour her in the writing of her work. This was the thing he did when his mind branched out. He tries to turn her into his hobby. She did not want to get too late in her mind that and make her hinder what she had to do.

“Mas, look at those three little ones you left for me. They're still very small, aren't they? Well, they were still very small but who would have thought that they had such mature thoughts at their age. I didn't want to burden them with my circumstances but I knew they were thinking about me. I don't know what you ordered them so they wouldn't mind if I got remarried. I wonder what you ordered them before you went mas.” Nayya said staring at the picture of the husband on her table.

“Huh, now even my hobbies can not make me distracted from my current time. I was thinking about her.” muttered Nayya.

That night, Nayya could not sleep. No sleepiness at all. Finally she decided to open her bedroom window and see the moon there glowing surrounded by scattered stars. Very beautiful and bright night sky.

“Look at the mas. Have you been a star there and looked at me here. You also supported me to get married again. He has come. But I refused him again. What should I do too. I don't want to be a bully in his life.” murmured Nayya was still staring at his beautiful sky that night.

Just like Nayya who was staring at the moon, on the side of Afnan was also the same. The man stared at the same moon as Nayya. Strange indeed. The moon is not just one.

“Nay, you rejected me again.” His inner.

“I won't blame you. I don't know why you rejected me. I wanted to know but hesitated to ask. I'm sure the reason you rejected me wasn't because of people's opinions but because of something I couldn't imagine.” Afnan.

“Month, today you shine brightly accompanied by the stars around you. Do you want to say that you are happy right now. Hum, if you're happy then I just want to leave something to you. Just a missed sentence. Please tell her that I miss her. Make him feel my miss. I love her.”