Second Destiny

24

Now Nayya is accompanying her two children to study in the lounge that is in the residence of her parents.

“Mother!” call Xavier but there's no answer from Nayya. Nayya dissolved in her own thoughts.

Xander and Qalessa looked at their mother who looked dreamy, “Mother!” call Qalessa trying to call her mother that. But again there was no answer from Lila.

“Mother!” call Xander by touching the mother's fingers. Only then did Nayya also realized from his daydream and looked at the three children.

“What's up, son? Do you guys need anything?” tanya Nayya looked at her three carefully.

Triplets shook in unison. They put their books on their study tables and approached Nayya and held her hand tightly.

“Mother, we don't need anything. Mother who why? What did mom think? Why daydream?” ask Xavier.

Nayya also smiled at the question asked by her youngest son, “Mother is okay boy. Buna didn't think of anything.” Answer Nayya.

“Huh, mother lied again. Why do you hide your problems from us? Do you not believe in us?” tanya Qalessa looked at Nayya fixedly.

Nayya finally took a breath too and looked at the princess fixedly, “This is a matter of mother son. You don't have to think about it. Mother promises to finish by herself. You don't have to worry about anything.” Nayya.

“Mother always be so.” Xander.

Nayya smiled and preferred to hug her three children tightly, “You do not need to know what you think son. This is your own mother's problem. Mother alone can not find the answer why feel this way let alone you who are still small must think about it. Mother will not burden you with things you should not think about. You guys just focus on learning.” Inner Nayya.

***

On Afnan's side, he was in his room looking at the clothes he would wear for his engagement day with Ayu in three days.

“What am I doing this right? Please God please give me a path that is not this complicated? I don't want to play with the feelings of your other creation. But what can I do if they insist on dragging me to a destiny I don't want. How could I marry a girl I don't love. How I betrayed my own feelings as I kept his name in the deepest corner of my heart. Were you not the one who created this taste for me then could not realize my desire to be her protector as requested by her late husband.” Afnan muttered looking at the picture frame of Nayya in his room.

“I love her O Allah. I know without me saying you already know it you know it. Please don't torture me with my race anymore. It doesn't matter if I'm second in life. It doesn't matter if I have to be the shadow of her late husband. I will not demand that my love be returned. I just want to protect her.” Connect Afnan.

***

While on Ayu's side, he is also as perky as Afnan. She also looked at the clothes she was going to wear for her engagement.

“Why do I feel this is not true? Why do I have to be his hindrance to reach the woman he loves. Why am I this selfish.” Ask Ayu to herself.

“Don't I know how he feels when we are forced to accept others when we don't want him.” Ayu said softly and sat on her bed feeling sad.

If I'm honest, he doesn't want this. But again he could only obey because he did not want to make his mother sick. Her mother had a history of hypertension and Ayu kept her mother's blood pressure from rising due to many thoughts. But not knowing her it becomes a weapon for her parents forcing her in this matchmaking.

Do not know why his parents became blind just because Afnan was more established than the lover he had. Somehow the treasure can be a benchmark for both parents. To sell happily for treasure.

Ayu looked at her embroidered cell phone. It is seen that her lover is calling. Ayu grabbed her phone slowly and then pressed the green icon there.

“Halo!” said Ayu.

“Sayang. Can't you refuse that engagement. I will never be willing to see you engaged let alone married to another man.” Said a man from across the street. Call him King.

Ayu also breathed that. It's always the same topic when her lover was contacting her and of course the answer that Ayu gave was still the same, “Then I have to what Ja?” ask Ayu.

“Come on baby. Reject the wishes of your parents. Didn't you see I was struggling to be accepted by your parents. I'll come propose to you and marry me. We'll elope if both your parents disagree with me. Only then do we struggle to get blessing from them.”

“Don't rush to reject what I offer this. I know what I'm saying is this crazy thing I've done and heard of. But I no longer know what I can do to let your parents down and accept me. Am I that bad to be your husband.” King Saying.

“Ck, Yes. Don't say such a thing. You also know how I don't really feel. I love you too. I don't want to lose you either.” Ayu said sadly.

“I love you too dear. Let's fight together to have each other. I promise I'll be responsible for all of it. But I would never be willing if you belonged to someone else. Never will be willing. If you keep marrying that guy. Believe that your wedding day will be the last day of my life in this world. I'm not messing with my words.” King Saying.

“Don't be crazy Ja. You can't do what you say. I'm not letting you do his.” Ayu said in a slightly loud voice.

“For that do not marry or get engaged with her. Let's elope.” Bring King.

“I need to think about her again Ja. Give me time for that.” said Ayu.

“Who is talking to you?” ask Luvia's mother to investigate.

Ayu shook her head, “Nobody bu.” Answer Ayu.

Luvia's mother looked at Ayu and then she nodded, “Don't think of running away from all this. Especially if you're thinking of eloping with your lover. You should forget your lover. He doesn't deserve you. Orphans do not deserve to be with my daughter who is a teacher.” Said Luvia's mother in her arrogant tone.

Ayu who heard her mother's words could only hiss annoyed while tightly gripping her fingers.

“King is an orphan ma'am. But he had no job and did nothing low to get a bite of rice. Why do you see and judge someone by his possessions. The king loves me sincerely ma'am. I love him sincerely too. Can't you see that I don't want this match. I can't let you get my happiness with the people I love. Can't you see that me and Brother Afnan are forced to continue this matchmaking?”

“We don't have any feelings for each other. She loves Nayya. Do you let me live with a man who loves another woman in his heart. Can you let me suffer?” ayu said expressing her frustration.

“You know the reason mom did this. You don't have to think about a lot of things. As long as you forget the King and try to love Afnan with all your heart then I'm sure slowly land he will love you too. Don't forget that love can grow because it's used to it. You don't have to burden your mind with anything less than reasonable. Especially if you have to burden your mind by thinking about the King. Believe me, I will not allow you to marry the King if you have the mind to elope with him. All you need to think about is trying on your clothes. Don't just look at her.” Said Luvia's mother loudly and immediately left her daughter in her room.

“Selfo mom!” yell Ayu. Really, she did not expect that her mother had a heart as hard as a rock so she did not think about her happiness at all.

“I won't trade for my happiness in the name of self-esteem anymore. That's enough, I've always followed your wishes all this time. I will never marry a man who does not love me. I want to live with the man I love. I won't let my life fall apart just because of filial piety. For what is filial if not appreciated even once. No problem risking important self-esteem we can live happily.” Ayu muttered, then she grabbed her phone and sent a message to her lover. Just let him be a bad boy this time.

***

Two days passed very quickly, now it does not feel like Afnan and Ayu's engagement day will indeed be done at the Ayu residence. Ayu's residence is already beautifully decorated.

Afnan was again in his room and stared at his clothes once again. Really, this all feels heavy to her. He looked at the photo of Nayya once again then slowly grabbed the clothes on his bed and put them on.

“Kaak!” call Ivana who suddenly just entered and saw Afnan who was buttoning his shirt.

Ivana approached her elder sister and helped Afnan put on her shirt, “Kak, are you sure you're continuing this engagement? You can back off and cancel her sister.” Ivana.

Afnan also smiled at his sister's words, “Tenaknya. There's no deck. Big brother couldn't possibly embarrass our family by canceling the engagement.” Afnan.

“Ck, fuck your pride. We can bear it for that. Happiness is number one. Self-esteem can lose out on that. I'm not willing if brother is forced to do this and only on behalf of the family.” Ivana.

“Already, it's okay deck. You don't think too far.” Afnan.

“Why can't I think too far. I'm worried about you. Can't I worry about my own brother when my own brother is forced to undergo his engagement when there is a photo of sister Nayya here who always accompanies your loneliness. Look how deep you feel about Brother Nayya. You won't be able to forget it, will you?” ivana stared at Nayya's picture frame.

“You know what big brother's heart wants deck. But this still has to be done. Brother doesn't want our family's pride to be humiliated. Enough during this brother became a disgrace because he did not go to get married too even though it was past the limit of the age deserved to marry.” Afnan.

“Kakak bu--”

“You are not a burden, son. Mami may have said that but believe me mami and papi never feel burdened by you because of it. You are our son.” Said Rana's mother who suddenly came to her son's room.

“Mih, please persuade sister so that she does not continue this matchmaking.” Ivana stared at Rana's mother.

“Nak-” mami Rana did not continue her words as soon as she saw the son raised his hand and shook his head.

“This is my decision. You promised to respect what I decided. This time, believe the decision I made. I'm sure that all of her will be fine.” Afnan.

“You're stubborn brother.” Ivana said annoyed that only in response to a smile by Afnan.

“Good. If that's what you want. Mommy will do what you want. May all her be the best for us.” Mami Rana.

Afnan just nodded then mami Rana and Ivana soon passed from there leaving Afnan himself prepared.

Afnan also tidied up his clothes and took a deep breath. He again looked at Nayya's picture frame.

“Are you okay?” tanya Afnan spoke to Nayya's photo.

Somehow he felt that Nayya was not doing well. Nayya has looked pale in the past few days. He who followed Nayya to Risam's tomb noticed that.

“Do not hurt Nayya. Your husband must be sad to see you're sick. Believe me I really want to get close to you but what can I do. You uphold the rules of religion. You live your iddah with all your heart. I can't possibly ruin it by approaching you.”

“I hope you're okay. Pray for me that everything goes well.” Afnan said then touched the frame of Nayya's photo.