Roller Coasters

Episode 12's

12. I Have Who

Morning college. Classes are not open yet. Oktia is waiting for classes to open in

front porch of class. This morning it seems that Damar is starting to do well again in Octia. Him

ask Octia about the book used for the theoretical basis of the report

practicums.

This morning, Wulan brought a laptop. Octia

out of stock movies to watch. It just so happens that Wulan has a lot of movies and he

carrying laptop. Before college began, Oktia asked Wulan to be copied for the film.

“What romantic movie is Wul?”

“What yes? What is this one?”

“Emm...How huh? Waiting for Forever is what Wul is?”

“That tells me there were two little kids

guys and girls. The guy likes his girl from small. However, friends

the girl doesn't know. The guy can't express his feelings until he grows up.

The guy always goes where the girl goes. Until one day

the guy can express his feelings. Eh. it turns out the girl also likes.”

“Kok I really ya.” Inner Oktia. Intuitionally

get down to work.

“Eh. I'm ngopy dong.”

The college changed. Move to another building.

The classes they use for college are still used by other classes. Octia sat in

front of class. Damar comes to Octia to borrow Octia's book

use it for the theoretical basis of the practicum report. Suddenly Dayat came. Oktia feels something strange

the Damar and Dayat. Whether it's just his feelings or not. Octia only

damar and Dayat are fighting for his attention. After that Dayat sang

song lyric piece

“If he

your love, beyond my love for you, I would be willing to let you go, even if I

know I'm hurt.” sing Dayat.

After college, Dayat invited Oktia to

library to study together.

“Okti, briefly to perbus yuh. Learn together.”

dayat said to Octia on the front balcony of the classroom. Octia saw Damar coming out

class with other friends.

 “Iya,

can.”

“But Ti, Okti and I could not join.”

risma said to Octia.

“Yaudah deh not be aja.” said Dayat last

leaving them.

“That sentence, do not want to go to the bus only

both.” says Risma.

“Which doesn't want to go to the bus is just me.

When you want to test Thermodynamics alone that keep the distance when only two

with Dayat instead I.” Inner Octia refuted Risma's statement.

When we got to the store and the sun started

drowned. Oktia took the time to watch the movie she just copied. According to him, the film is enough

uninspiring. The guy was ****. Why don't you want to reveal

his feelings even follow the girl he likes wherever he goes. Wiggling

guys like girls but can't say it makes them gemes.

After watching the movie Waiting for Forever, Oktia chose to sleep off tired. Within

oktia dreams of strange things.

Octia dreams of being in a room

with three people he didn't know. They sat next to Octia

the formation of two men and women whose age was almost half

the middle one sits next to each other. The woman was wearing a kebaya and had her hair curled

old Javanese women. Behind the man and woman

a young man about the same age as him was wearing a jacket

black with face down. Oktia did not see clearly the face of the man

the same age as him. He just sat quietly not seeing Oktia. Female

the middle-aged man said that the man behind him loved

Oktia has been a long time. However, unable to express it. After women

earlier said that to Oktia, there was an airplane accident

around where Octia lives. Oktia saw the young man meet her.

He embraces Octia with his hands, guarding and protecting the Octia

fear of seeing a plane crash. In the dream it was over time Oktiapun

I felt the same way as the young man. After men

just calmed Oktia down, she said goodbye to go somewhere. Oktiapu

shaking his hand allowed him to leave. The man started walking away.

Oktia's awake. Realizing the event just

dreamlike. The dream was clear. Like reality. Dreaming of a movie just now

being watched with the main cast of Oktia herself was quite a strange thing for her.

Oktia begins to wonder who the young men are

her dream.

　

Modem

Oktia just filled in. Time to use the facilities. He opened his facebook. He saw Damar update status “longan cool ^^” in

under the status of Damar there is a link from Youtube that contains a song sung one

contestant singing competition on one of the private television. The song is called Me

This Has Who. Oktia doesn't know the song. Coincidentally, the day has already

almost morning, Oktia had not had time to googling the lyrics of the song that Damar meant. Time to campus is just a few minutes away.

Cusss went to college.

            Classes are not open yet.

Oktia waited for the class to open with Okti. They sat on the terrace of the building

lecture. Oktia remembered last night's dream. Still wondering who the men are

in dreams.

            “That's it, Damar's already

come.” Okti said on Octia. Damar was walking towards class. Him

wearing a blue jacket with a somewhat bulging jacket model, while men

in a dream Octia wore a black jacket and the model of the jacket did not bulge.

            “Means no

            After the class door

opened by the campus guards, Oktia and Okti enter the classroom. Oktia is still guarding

distance from Damar. Still marahan, maybe yes. Octia sat at a distance

away from her. Unlike the previous semester where they sometimes sat

adjoining. The class seats are still disheveled. Oktia went to the toilet to wash

hands after putting her bag on the class chair and leave it to Okti.

Arriving in the class the chairs that had been messy were neatly arranged.

Oktia's seat is so close to Damar's seat. Just one interjected

empty seats. Oktia who realized that was a little shocked. It is still traumatic if

Damar will avoid it again.

“Astep

glad of my heart, if I get close to you.” sing Anti who happens to be sitting in

back row.

Even though their seats are close to each other,

Oktia didn't ask him to talk. They don't greet each other. Damar too

don't talk like they did before the cold war. Seems

Damar is still angry at Octia for reasons that Octia does not know.

“It looks like he has started to self-conscious you know.”

dayat said from behind the class. Oktia immediately turned towards the back of the classroom.

It turned out that Dayat was chatting with his close friends.

“He's self-conscious? Who the hell is he

intent. Do not-don't who have realized that we are starting to be far apart. What

emang referred to ‘modus’ because I often sit near Damar. Mean

all this time Dayat wanted us to stay away.” Inner Octia after hearing the words from

Dayats.

 Subsequent to

after the lecture, Oktia returned to the boarding house and prepared to return to the village

beloved page. Before getting ready he took the time to googling the lyrics of the song I Belong to Who Damar used to make the status.

It's also hard to turn out

I have a wild-eyed boyfriend

Often embarrassing

It made me worthless

Be angry for free

Most just gulped

Than blood

I just broke her love rope

Fortunately, my whole self

I can keep it whole

Ever since I loved her

Until now separated

Oh thank goodness it's untarnished

Oh well, it can go crazy

I have a two-hearted girlfriend

Who I have

I just broke her love rope

Angrier. Ja. Mournfully. Ja. Irritated. Ja. Sebel. Ja. Cobbled. Ja.

Dissipated. Moreover. After knowing Damar made such a status.

“What not-don't because I started close to

Dayat until Damar is like this to me? Is it because I was invited to Dayat's same perpus?

The first day is not me. Dayat and I are just friends. Anyway

even though I'm with Damar close, I'm not his girlfriend yet. Woeful? Who is

ambiguous? From the beginning I just wanted to be with him but he was the only one

stay away. When I went to the bus before the thermodynamic test, I knew I was just

together with Dayat, I chose to keep my distance. Because I can't afford it

when I was close to Damar suddenly alone with Dayat. I don't

what Damar meant. If the song describes his heart and mine

it is considered that his girlfriend who dues him to make him rise in blood and choose

to break the rope of love, fine. I accept if he decides that. I

he would pull over if it made him happy. Take it off if that's what it wants. But, uh,

I'll prove that I'm not the wild-eyed or hearted type

a two. Erwin, a classmate of mine in high school, once said I had a boyfriend

I will be loyal but possessive.”

Dissipated. That's what Octia feels. Exceedingly

with Damar behavior that is much different than in the previous semester.

“The room is actually why the hell? Is he away from me because it's close

with another woman? But who? In class, there were no women

close to Damar besides me. Is it possible a pupil? It's this semester

often sit near Damar. But, if Puput really tastes strange. At the time of

pencil Escape Damar does not take. But, there used to be everything that was mine

who fell swiftly Damar took it for me. Actually what the hell is with

The damar? If he stays away and wins, that's his choice. I'm the only one

go away. You don't have to avoid me Mar. I'll pull over, stay away like

your door through the song you like a long time ago.” Inner Oktia with tears that almost dripped.

Damar's treatment that leaves him injured makes Oktia have to

welcomes all. Let go of anything that becomes uneg-uneg. Zuhur Prayer

while slowly releasing and mengikhlaskan destiny that he is living. Subsequent to

pray Zuhur, Oktia feels her heart serene and peaceful. I don't know why Octia

think of something and write down what he thinks. Think about

something that made her heart feel calm. Until Oktiaun wrote it to

in a book.

Let go of what you have lost from your hands. God does not want

makes you sad or grieved. Except what was lost it will be

replaced with something better. Be patient when the pain

come whack. Let the ship sail at His command. When

still forced the ship won't reach its destination. Even if it will

it takes a long time. Let go, and he will be replaced with

something better and unexpected. Just accept the path

chosen by Him. God has chosen the best path. That pain

just temporarily. And to Allah is your place. #Bada prayers

Zuhr