Roller Coasters

Episode 11

11. Confirmation

The sun has risen on the eastern horizon, the day has changed. Octia

put his foot in the morning dew is still left because it was college

starts at 7:00. Before arriving at the lecture hall, he saw the gate of the building

it was still locked and the campus guard had not yet arrived to open the gate. At

in front of the campus gates are Damar, Tiwi, Anti, and Nudi. They wait together.

Coincidentally Tiwi, Anti, and Nudi will be presenting the course in the morning.

So they leave earlier than usual. While waiting for the gate

open them up to talk together. Something was strange that day. Usually Damar wants to even

get ahead to talk to Octia. But not this time. Octia threw

questions are not answered. Damar instead switched the conversation and chose

to talk to the others. Once the gates are opened, they are still waiting

class doors to open. As they waited for the class to open, they were still talking

any more. However, Damar did not want to talk to Oktia, even though many times Octia

ask questions or statements to make Damar want to talk to him.

            Classes are open.

Oktia sat on the front bench, sitting next to Okti. This time it seems

there was something really strange about Damar. Usually in class, Damar

asking the lecture material to Oktia used to be new to other friends if Oktia

can't do. However, this morning he asked Okti for the lecture material.

            “This way

how to do ya?” damar said as he walked closer to Octia and

Octi.

            “This gini you Mar.”

Oktia said to Damar.

            “I asked the same

Okti.” says Damar.

            “I'm surprised you Mar.

Usually asked Oktia first.” comments Okti see the behavior of Damar

strange that morning.

            “The room is why

anyhow? I was didiemin. Not as usual. Is he mad at me? But

if he's mad at me, what am I wrong with Damar?” inner Octia wondered.

You never realize

Everything you have

You dumped me leave me

You ruined me

like I never existed

I will survive though

it can't be possible

Lunging up his story

though

            “Looks like I'm really upset.

Especially with Damar's attitude that makes me confused. Lately he's

shut me up, he seems to be mad at me. But, if he's angry what's my fault?

It used to be so close but lately he's been moving away. Damar why the hell?”

inner Octia wondered.

            Arriving at

home, Oktia opens her facebook. When he opened his Facebook home, he saw that Damar was liking a status. Oktia started tracking him. Hoping what Damar likes is a status that describes the contents of Damar's heart

because Damar is not a typical person whose hobby is giving a thumbs up on the status of people. Yep. Be met. What he likes is a status that contains a verse from

dust Granules Song.

            “Damar nge-like Dust Granules? What's up with him?

Not like he usually messed up.”

            Oktia tried

listen to the song and try to understand the heart of Damar.

My name is love

When we are together

Sharing feelings for forever

My name is love

When we are together

Sharing feelings throughout the age

My treacherous love

My love is betrayed

I fell down and could not get up again

I drowned in a sea of deep wounds

I was lost and didn't know the way home

I'm without you a speck of dust

Brim over...

Step over

Get far...

Everything that happens between us

“Damar why the hell? It used to be close, now it's away. If it was close

now getting away must be nothing. Does he really like me, though,

and he wants to fuck me? But, how's the Dust Granules? ‘My treacherous love, my betrayed’ what

what do you mean it's me? I'm betrayed? What kind of traitor? ‘bring aside, pull over away, everything that happened between us ’ what with

I'm getting away from her can relieve her feelings?” inner Octia wondered

while listening to the song Dust Granules sung Rumor.

Looks like Oktia is really upset. Wanted

forgot it. Yep. Forgetting it.

I'm the one who thinks

But I didn't expect much

You made my time

Confused with thoughts about you

Forget

But I can't

Why is this so

Oh, maybe I was dreaming

Wants you

To be here with me

Oh, could you be the one

My true lover

Hopefully not just hope for me

When you are mine

I won't regret falling in love

Oktia tried to get Damar better like before

any more. Oktia sat to the right of Damar. Suddenly Wulan came.

“I sit where this is?” wulan.

“Sini only.” said Damar while giving a place

sit on the left side of Octia. The right bench is empty.

Be ill. Ja. That's what Octia feels. “Why did you avoid me Mar? I

wrong sitting next to you?” inner Octia calmed her shrouded heart

disappointment over Damar's treatment of Octia. After some time,

the front row benches began to fill up. Except the right bench

Octia. Dayat came and sat on his right bench.

“Nothing Mar, you avoid me. Naw

anything anyway. But, someday there will be someone who will replace you

after you've gone away. And that guy must be better than you. Like moments

these. You avoided me, but you were replaced by Dayat. And somehow by

who are you going to replace.” Inner Octia.

College is almost starting. Just enough day

hotter. The air temperature is quite high. Before class, Oktia went to the bathroom.

Oktia leave the bag and leave the seat on Ana so that Octia is part

the choice seat. Arriving in class, he saw his bag placed in

the bench to the right of the bench where Damar sat.  Ana sits on the left of the bench in the name of the bag

Octia. Still stored a sense of disappointment yesterday when Damar

avoid it. Rather than be avoided again, Oktia chose to be self-conscious not to

sitting next to Damar.

“I

sit on your right side An. Seek the wind. It's near the door. Hot

so much today.” Oktia said to Ana while taking her bag and putting it down

on the right side of Ana.