Regrets! When My Wife Gone

Sick Yourself, Comforting Yourself

After waiting bored for almost a few hours, Pe was finally called by the Doctor who had taken his blood for a lab check.

The doctor was sitting quietly in his chair, but his face was full of pity staring at the rainbow that was sitting uninspired in front of him.

"Pe, every time you come here, you're alone. Where's your husband? We need a discussion here?"

Pe who had received an unpleasant signal from the word said the doctor who asked her husband, so suspicious that he was not okay.

"Should there be a husband, Doc? If you want to talk, talk about it. I still have a pretty good sense of hearing. After all, my husband is a policeman, personal matters must be put aside for the sake of his service to our country."

The learned doctor also understood Pe, so decided to convey the matter of the lab report that was in his hands right now was just the two of them.

" Pe earlier, I'm sorry yes, because you are suspicious of the condition of your body that is often weak."

The doctor paused, then took a deep breath. Making Pe who saw it so cold sweat because the face of the Doctor was very serious from the day of the previous meeting.

" Am I so sick that Doctor's mom was as serious as that staring at my lab report?" ask Pe. The Doctor nodded. 'I have guessed.' his mind with his heart he prepared to hear a reality that must be bad for him.

"Pe, you have leukemia!"

Degs...

In fact, the preparation had no effect. That invisible rough slap Pe had received a round round in his life.

It seemed like his God was again a pity to him for always getting countless bitter pills.

"Pe, this is a serious matter, we must treat your illness," the Doctor told him with a heart.

The rainbow is still riveted. Swallowing his saliva this time was like poison to him.

"Is my pain bad, Doc?"

"Final stadium. And it's already a low percent chance you're cured. But as long as we don't try, then the results go further, right? So let's try!"

Pe smiled wryly, hearing that alone he no longer dared to dream beautifully. Imagine playing with his son he is not able to.

"Is it dangerous to my fetus, Doctor?" ask her with trembling lips.

"It can be, and it can't be. That is, Although leukemia during pregnancy does not affect the fetus, the treatment undertaken by pregnant women has the potential to interfere with its growth and development. In chemotherapy treatment, your fetus will be threatened with birth defects, or direct miscarriage. But if you decide not to do any chemotherapy, God willing your fetus will be fine. But sorry, you're going to __"

The doctor paused, feeling not strong to say that Pe's life would be at stake.

"Dok, a real mother is the protector of her child. Surely you understand what I mean, because you're also a Mother." Pe's tears are breaking. "I will not sacrifice my son just because of my sorrow. So of course I'll refuse to chemotherapy. Stupe... This one time is not. And it seems, this is indeed the best for me. "

The doctor was so confused by the words said Pe who was impressed not to fight. Okey... She understood that a mother would die for her child, but the ambiguous word Rainbow astonished her.

" Pe, you can still recover by chemotherapy, consider it well and mature. You're young, you can still get pregnant after you're cured."

"Alright, Pe, but if you want, come and get your brother for a spinal cord transplant, but soon enough." The doctor relented while giving safe drugs for consumption.

With a shaky step, Pe brought the lab results letter. Outside the room, he stared at the paper nanar, squeezed it and threw it into the trash can.

What hope will he dream of? There ain't! except waiting for the rest of his life.

Unknowingly stepping, he had passed through Kiara's room. His legs went back three steps, as the corner of his eye saw the back of a police uniformed man inside. He knew that his actions were very presumptuous at this time who was peering in between the half-opened door.

His tears that he had cleaned, now fell again. When her husband was at work, she was still in Kiara's room. Is that special about that woman?

'This world is too cruel for me. I'm trying to change my figure into a woman who looks stronger. But again I was disappointed that his name was alive. I buried the taste and dreams of my broken heart. These tears... It was my last tears.'

After settling in, Pe lifted his foot from the front of that door. He promised not to cry, though there were sharp thorns that would stab him in the heart.

His determination is unanimous, that is, for the rest of his life that has been sentenced 3-6 months of his life will be used to paint good memories with Family, friends, friends, of course to her husband as well although Dibi never considered her as a wife.

"Where should I complain and tend my head? Old folks?

A brother? A pal? Or a husband who doesn't care? Ck... It must be the same solution as Doctor Mori."

Pe decided not to take a headache. Yep... He will be dizzy because it will make a fuss if his disease is umbar. In addition to wanting to protect his prospective children, he also did not want to make the closest people sad and got the word pity from people.

"You're strong, Pe.." The monologue drove his car at above-average speed. But suddenly turn on the lights and stop at a park that is crowded visitors.

His eyes sparkled, he wanted to entertain himself in a simple way like eating a bright pink gulali in front of him.

"Sir, I bought one that's pink huh, and just take the change."

After pulling out a pack of the gulali, Pe sat down on a park bench and enjoyed the roll. His lips arrived moody when he saw many children passing by with his parents.

" Daughter, if your Mama's hand is not there to guide you, then you must keep the promise of being a good child. Trust me, Mama loves you."

Again muttering sadly as he stroked his stomach, Pe was interrupted by a big-headed doll clown who stood in front while giving a red rose to Pe reach.

" For me?" ask Pe. The clown nodded with the hands of one clown on parole telling Pe to smile.

"Thank you!" Pe accepts the clown's good will. "You gulali?" go to the clown. But the clown shook his head and ended up dancing funny in front of the rainbow.

At first Pe was just mesem mesem mesem, but long ago he chuckled amused and loose when the clown fell and caused difficulty standing because of his great costume.

"We are equally pregnant... But the difference is, I'm gonna have a kid and you're just a costume. Hehe... Let's help."

The clown received a helping hand Pe heard happily.

And all afternoon, Pe was comforted by the clown. Pe even did not hesitate to berselfi ria with his style kocaknya.