Rasidha Bidadari Clear-eyed

Chapter 9 - Forgiveness to each other

Along the way, Rasidha continued to pray to the creator of all nature, not forgetting to recite the name of the one God with all his soul and body. Tears continued to flow, praying for the recovery of the father. As a child he was very sorry to treat a bad thing, even he felt useless.

Ayna clasped her cousin's hand to give her strength, that everything would go very well. 

Doni increased the speed of his car, he was very worried about the very fragile Saints. But he forgot he was carrying a niece, a son, and a wife. "So, take the car slowly." Said Aisha warning her husband. 

"Sorry, Mi. But I'm very worried about Zaid and Saints."

"We will always pray to God for Zaid's healing." 

"Yes Umi." Doni nodded his head, reducing his speed and preferring the safety of his family. 

Arriving at the hospital, Rasidha ran and scattered her arms at a woman who was still beautiful at her age. A very wonderful woman, a mother who is very good at educating her children, a mother who looks strong. But all of that is inversely proportional. Saints were very fragile and cried in his daughter's arms.

"I'm sorry, Mom. There was nothing to hurt my father's feelings and get into the hospital. Punish me guilty, as a child who doesn't know is lucky like me." Rasidha drowned her face, tears that kept dripping down her shoulders. 

"No dear, the condition of the father dropped, when feeling sorry for his cruelty first. Don't connect that to you." Suci tried to comfort her son, not wanting Rasidha to also suffer the same fate as her husband.

"Don't try to cheer me up, Mom. I'm twenty-two years old and I understand everything."

Azzam was very sad about his father's condition and ran to hug Doni. "Is my dad okay, Uncle?" 

"Of course, God is always looking after his servant. We leave it to Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala." Reply Doni who embraced his nephew, giving strength to his sister's family who was stricken by disaster. 

Everyone is very anxious about Zaid's condition which is still being examined by doctors, they expect if the condition of the blue-eyed man is fine. 

Rasidha immediately said goodbye to everyone, to the mosque which was not far from the ward of the father who was treated. "I'll go first, call me if you're conscious." 

"Sister, I'm coming." Ayna soon chases after Rasidha who is just a few steps away, while Azzam and Doni decide to sit in the waiting chair of the patient's family. Suci is assisted by Aisyah and gives her spirit is also interspersed with the prayer of the husband's salvation from her sister-in-law. 

This time Rasyida brought only two rakaat, signifying the hand and pleading to the Almighty God. Giving a place like Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala to his biological parents, and also both adoptive parents, especially his father who was on top of the hospital gurney being handled by the doctor. With the protection of tears that accumulate in the eye fertilizers drip by itself without being prevented, guilt as a child and also dominated by a high ego. "O God, my Lord, give my father healing and give me an opportunity to apologize. Forgive all my sins, intentional or unintentional. Rabbana atina fiddunya hasanah wa fil endoti hasanah waqina ‘adzabannar." Speak in the heart, and also mean it while wiping away tears.

Ayna immediately hugged Rasidha's body which seemed unable to support the body. "Sister, control yourself. Trust all to God, surrender to what is destined in life."

"I'm trying to do it now, lest I become a child filled with regret." Lirih Rasidha who went on to mention the names of God and also dhikr. 

"Ayna..Rasidha, let's hurry!" said someone who made the two girls run before opening the door, the news given by Aisyah that made the atmosphere more tense. 

Rasidha approached the holy with such great hope of only hearing good news and not being able to hear bad news. "Are you dead, Mom?" 

"Alhamdulillah, the doctor says if you have regained consciousness and calls you to come inside." Answer the Sacred who smiled happily, at least nothing severe and allegedly because of too much burden of the mind to make it drop."

"I'll go inside, and make sure you're okay." Rasidha tried to strengthen himself, against all the selfishness in the heart. The steps were so slow, and entered looking at a man with the exact same blue eyes as the man who killed both of his biological parents right before his eyes when he was five years old. The tears that could not be dammed back dripped, making his eyes swollen. 

Zaid also cried out of guilt for his adopted daughter, as well as past wrongs that killed so many innocent people. His once untouchable heart and also notorious, so easily melted when he met Rasidha who is now his daughter. "Close to Daddy!" she shrieked in a hoarse voice as the cry that made her so fragile looked into the eyes of the girl who approached her. 

Rasidha approached his father, and wept at the pale and helpless face. The first time he saw the so weak Zaid lying on top of the hospital gurney, and still had a smile at him.

"The face that I covered using a turban and kept a secret for a dozen years, a fear that so became a reality. You know, when you suddenly decided to go to the boarding school, I was a little suspicious about why you decided to leave even though you had only been a few days back from Cairo. Dad tried to find out the truth because he knew something was wrong with his son, and it was true that CCTV proved everything and at that time you were listening to father and mother talk." Clearly Zaid who revealed everything, it made Rasidha more bowed in shame because of his presumptuous actions.

"I'm sorry, Dad. If only I had not passed in front of Father's and Mother's rooms, I might not have listened to such a bitter truth, and so our relationship would still be as harmonious as it used to be." 

"Sooner or later you'll find out the truth, and for that I apologize profusely, for the past that traumatized you so much." Zaid put his hands together so sincerely in apologizing. 

"What did Dad say? I've forgiven Dad. But, at that time my position was still unable to accept his circumstances, let alone hatred. There is nothing to think about that hate. How could I do that? For a dozen years you have cared for me so well and so full of love." 

Finally the father and son smiled and forgave each other, although the truth was revealed improperly, but everything has gone very well.