Pressure From Ex Husband

love because it is accustomed

"Mom! Listen, I asked what? I'm hungry, but why isn't there any food at all on the table? Didn't you cook this morning?" Piana came to Bu Endang who was busy putting laundry soap into the mill, then closed it and set it with the button that already exists.

"You hungry?" sahut Bu Endang was flat and remained indifferent to the presence of Piana who ruffled her waist in the middle of the door connected to the kitchen.

"Yes, I'm hungry, where did you put the food?" sahut Piana haughty.

Ms. Endang looked down at her daughter-in-law and exhaled deeply. "Out" replied Ms. Endang coldly.

"What's? how cooking mom is it? I haven't eaten Mom yet." said Piana did not accept.

"And you can cook for yourself, my duty is only to my son, not my obligation to meet your needs." replied Miss Endang cynically and returned to step her feet into the house, passed Piana's body and slightly hit her.

Piana jerked her legs, her resentment becoming more and more so to her mother-in-law, Piana thought it would be easy to teach the in-laws a lesson, it turned out that she was wrong, she was wrong, it was Piana herself who was made furious with her firm attitude in-laws who had no fear in the least.

By force, Piana finally fried eggs and sausages for her breakfast menu. Piana continued to curse her stupid self until she lost her steps with the in-laws, what else because of her scolding last night, Piana forgot not to ask for money with her husband, her husband, though the plan he will go happy and treat his friend later in the afternoon. Let's guess Piana has a lot of money.

"Just look at you, because of your presence, Rudi mas so changed his attitude." Piana's mind was upset looking at the back of her in-laws who were sweeping.

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While in other places, Alim was chatting with his wife, today Alim decided not to go to work, want to take Safitri to see a doctor, because from last night Safitri continued to vomit and his body also looked very weak.

"Mas, am I pregnant? why is my body so limp, and my head is so dizzy, I'm gonna throw up all the time." Safitri revealed his heart to Alim who was busy making him milk.

"Bismillah yes, hopefully it is true, let Alma have a playmate, surely he will be very happy if you are really pregnant." said Alim eagerly and thrust a glass of milk on his wife.

"Out of the milk, let your stomach have its contents, we go to the doctor, at nine o'clock just open the clinic." Alim continued and saw his wife with a smile, the glass in his hand was empty, Safitri finished her milk without rest, but shortly after, Safitri regurgitated her, and so continued, until the body of Safitri limp and look pale.

"We go to the hospital, I don't want anything to happen to you, we leave now." Alim with a small run took the car keys and his wallet, then memapahkan his wife out of the house and enter the car that was parked in front.

Along the way Safitri just tendered his body on a chair, his body was very weak, not to mention his head was very dizzy, Alim had felt worried about the state of the wife.

After arriving at the hospital, Safitri was immediately led to the IGD and the doctor came to check on him.

"It looks like the mother is pregnant, to make sure more details, please register with the obstetrician yes Mom, let me make a letter of introduction."

the light of the doctor who examined him, made Alim's smile immediately expand, even with Safitri who looks glassy in her eyes, haru was also happy. Safitri hopes that her pregnancy can make her husband love her more and completely forget the woman of her past.

"Positive yes Mom, the gestational age of the mother is only two weeks, still vulnerable. Take good care of yourself. Let me prescribe vitamins to strengthen the uterus and fetus. But Bu Safitri was treated here until the infusion ran out, because the mother was still weak due to lack of fluids. Insha Allah the mother and the baby are fine." explained the doctor at length and assented by Alim and Safitri.

I don't know, there was a warm feeling in Alim's heart, when he heard of the pregnancy of his wife, a woman he did not fully love, but Alim always treated him well and fulfilled his obligations as a full husband.

Alim continued to try to put Safitri in his heart, foster a sense of love that might come because of habituation, and hopefully Safitri's pregnancy can open his heart to really feel the household life of love each other.

"Alhamdulillah, my dear." Said Safitri softly, there is a clear point that has fallen soaked his cheek, should also be happy now enveloped Safitri's heart.

"Yes, Alhamdulillah. From now on you do not get tired, take good care of your content, I really look forward to the presence of the little angel in your stomach, so that our house rame with tears and jokes of laughter." reply Alim happy, so that our house will be happy, gently rubbed his wife's cheek, and sat by the side of the bed waiting for the wife who was lying weakly until the infusion ran out.

"Why, Mas? are you sad?"

Safitri, looking at her husband in wonder, because suddenly Alim looks sad and moody, even his eyes glassy.

"I remember with Alma and Rihana, how I treated him back then. And now I don't want to repeat it as you are fit, I promise I will give the best for you and the baby in your womb. I'm sorry yes, the past always looms and presents endless regrets. I also beg you, please accept Alma, love her like your child, even though later the child in my womb is born, I beg your understanding, because between Alma and our future baby, I ask for your understanding, I won't tell them apart, I'll be fair to my son." Clearly Alim was long, and clearly looked sad in the look of his eyes that had appeared cloudy.

Safitri smiled, grabbed her husband's palm gently, grasped it tightly, wanted to make her sure, about her feelings that so understood her husband's circumstances.

"Mas! I also love Alma very much, sincerely. Even I hold awe to your little girl, Mbak Rihana a great woman, to be able to educate Alma to grow up to be a good and smart child. Believe me, I don't mind you doing your duty to Alma, she's your biological child, your daughter and my daughter, until whenever I won't change, let us live this household by caring for each other, loving and honest. God willing, everything will be fine. All I hope for is one now, you can accept me completely." sahut Safitri softly and in reply nod lightly by Alim who returned his wife's hand.

Silent...

'Sometimes, there was a desire to go back to greeting someone who had passed so far, yet, seeing how beautiful his smile was after I was gone, it felt more and more aware that my presence was never expected.

Only, there is hope, for him, there;

You know, when you step foot in and decide it's over, that's when I'm happy I'm over.

I was always filled with anxiety about your news, when I knew you were doing well with someone you chose after getting rid of me because of the wounds I had inflicted.

I always miss you, when I know, just thinking about me you're not.

I always pray for you, when I know, my prayer and your prayer do not boil down to the same amen; I want to be close to you, you want to be kept away from me.

How I realized that I was a foolish man; to be a candlelight sleep for someone who would rather sleep in the dark. I let myself burn, melt, even crumble. However, you extinguished me, then chose to close your eyes.

How I realized that I was a pathetic human being; to be an umbrella for someone who preferred raindrops. I stretch myself, I protect your body. However, you throw me far to the edge, and then choose to get wet with water that you do not know, can make you sick.

How I realized, that, I was a self-unknowing human being; to be a cloud to someone who preferred the sun. I'm thick with myself, I fuck you. However, you avoid, then choose to move to a hot place that without you knowing the warmth can scratch the softness of your skin.

But, I ignored about that. That is how hard my heart loves you.

To you, I leave my heart, though there is now another heart that wants to leave it to me, to take your place.

And you know;

Anyone who asks about what I am, I say “I sincere” I lied to them, I lied to myself. Truly, if that sincerity can be seen really by a pair of eyes, then, in my heart, no one can find it. Because, said “Ikhlas” it never existed. To this day, until now. Even though I know you've also classified me first.

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

The thousands of words that I assembled into sentences, the hundreds of sentences that I assembled into poems, were all just my wish to get to that point. In reality, I am not capable.

Forgive me, forgive me Safitri, if my heart still holds Rihana's name there. Because basically everything is not as easy as the word in passing it.'

Alim was fixated in the imagination in his mind, trying to melt the taste that was there, but he knew, it would be in vain. But Alim promised not to repeat the same mistake. Because loving doesn't have to be loving, right?