Pressure From Ex Husband

PoV Dimas

POV Dimas 

It feels like there is no more passion to live my day.

The woman I have mentioned in each of her prayers in my long prostration, will marry another man.

I could only stand still and feel the pain of this reality.

She's the one I love

He's the one I've been waiting for

He who I want to accompany my day to fulfill half the longest worship in the journey in this world, turned out to be extinct with bitter reality.

The day I spent just sitting in the room, condemning myself with all my stupidity.

I should have told him my heart.

I should have dared to be honest about this heart to him.

Now it's all impossible.

He will belong to another man.

I can only try to hide it.

And carry this wound to go far away from him.

Because I'll never be able to see it with anyone else.

It will make me worse and weaker.

Right on her wedding day.

I left my hometown, to continue my S2 studies in the city of flowers.

As time went on, the wound began to dry up.

But the feelings for him are still neatly stored in the heart.

Rihana is Sabrina's daughter, the name I have always mentioned in my prayers to this day.

Would I be guilty of sin if I expected it?

Am I wrong if I still keep the taste to her?

Even I hope and believe that if it is my destiny to be with her, I don't know when that time will come.

All I know is I'll be faithful waiting for her.

Maybe I was mean and selfish, if I wished she was a widow, but I don't know why my heart believed so much.

After graduating from S2.

I got a job at one of the big companies in Jakarta.

Even though my dad actually asked me to go home.

Papa hopes his son can replace his position at the age of no longer young.

Yet I still don't have enough courage to set foot in the city to know it.

Papa understands that.

And no longer demanding.

Until finally papa accident in his business trip and required a complete break.

Inevitably, I must go home.

I don't want to be an ungodly, selfish kid who thinks only of myself.

I must prepare my heart and myself, so that the wound is no longer present when fate will bring me together with it.

I slightly changed my appearance, even I was willing to go to the salon so that the appearance of this self is no longer recognized.

A series of treatments I followed.

Let me be considered like a gay man.

I don't care how people's minds look at me.

I just want to, if one day we're found.

He doesn't recognize me.

My skin, which was previously mature, is now pure white.

The body that was once thin, is now more contained and athletic, because I formed it with regular exercise, of course accompanied by a healthy menu.

Perfectly as a man.

I also looked at myself in the mirror.

I'm sure he won't recognize me with my new look.

Tomorrow I will go to the office in place of Papah.

I should be the kid that makes my parents proud.

I don't want to disappoint papa.

I should be able to make the company pioneered by papa for years shine even more.

When I got to the office.

All the staff had gathered to greet their new leader.

And my eyes focused on one woman.

Yes, that's Rihana .

Rihana the woman I love, the woman I call in every prayer.

God, what plan are YOU preparing for me?

My eyes continued to be fixed on the woman who remained beautiful at her age who had already stepped on her thirties.

Graceful and gentle, that was what radiated from him.

The welcoming event is over and all employees return to their respective places.

I go into papa's room and from now on, this will be my room.

'Rihana, why do we have to meet in this office.

And that means, I'll see you every day.

Lord, strengthen this heart.'

"Excuse me sir, introduce me Reni secretary Pak Adi jaya.

And from now on it will be a secretary."

Beautiful and young woman.

He may be twenty-five years old.

introducing himself to the secretarial position.

Did I ask him about Rihana huha, at least I will know a little information from him.

"All right.....

Hmmmm...

I just want to ask you something."

"Yes sir, please." he replied politely.

"Is there an employee here named Rihana?"

"There sir!

Rihana Putri Sabrina, part HRD." she replied for sure.

"Hmmm, well thank you, please go back to your place, later if I need anything I'll call you again."

"So what's the question again sir?" he still keeps asking.

"No, please get back to work."

"Later if I need anything, I'll tell you."

"Okay sir, excuse me."

"please." I replied flatly.

I'll find out about you.

Somehow, I feel that if you are not okay, Rihana I am back.