Please, Be Mine

PBM 18th

The longer Fita regretted her choice, the more she had no way of contacting Ijal, nor did she know where Ijal lived and all her friends kept quiet about it.

Fita meets with Ipan, he tries to find out where Ijal's home address is.

“Pan, do you know where Ijal's home is? I have a need for.” Said Fita with hasty breath.

“I don't know Fita where she lives.” Ipan.

“You don't lie Pan, yes you don't know, you were his friend from the past would know.” Fita Say.

“I swear I don't know Fita.” Ipan.

“Then you can call Ijal for me ? really please Ipan.” Say Fita with a clear face.

“Sorry Fita, Ijal says he doesn't want to be with you anymore, now he's never been to my house again.” Ipan answered while looking at the phone.

“Ya already thanks ya Ipan.” Fita said and left.

Meanwhile, Arib is further away, I don't know what he is doing at the moment Fita also does not know for sure he ignored Fita.

Fita knows she is always online, even she is still able to make status but to reply to messages she cannot do, Fita tries to slowly say what is in her heart when meeting Arib.

“You changed!!” Shouted Fita with a look of annoyance.

“I'm busy, I don't have time for you.” Arib replied with a clear tone of voice.

“How are our relationships? You want us to be like this ? I want clarity! If you don't want to survive already say the same I let me know myself.” Said Fita with a look of annoyance.

“Fita, gini yes, I am not yet established how I want to be serious as you with my circumstances like this.” Arib replied with a firm tone of voice.

“Even you said! when will I wait for you to get established! established in what sense? got a house, a car? that's what you mean!” Say Fita with a high tone of voice.

“I still want fun Fita.” Arib answered.

“You are not a child anymore! we are both adults! look I've survived you this late, know so I'll never choose you and love you the chance so many times, I'm stupid!!!” Fita said tears running down her cheeks.

“Dear to hear first, okay I will think about how the future we believe in me, I promise.” Arib answered.

“Really?” Fita said hesitantly.

“Iya I promise, I will try hard for you, but you are patient yes.” Arib answered.

“Iya okay.” Fita Say.

Arib wiped away Fita's tears at that time, which Fita felt was still not calm, not as calm as he used to be when he was with Ijal.

Time goes on and Fita's relationship with Arib has not changed, it is still the same as yesterday, until one day Arib resigned to Fita on the grounds that he wanted to take care of the letters and driving license to be a driver in solo.

“I say yes tomorrow morning I leave home, just a moment, I'm back, I promise.” Arib.

“How many days did it go?” Ask Fita.

“Not long darling only 4 days.” Arib answered.

“Not more?” Ask Fita.

“No dear, I'm fast back, I promise.” Arib answered.

The next day Arib leaves and Fita can only say a word of caution and return, as long as Arib leaves Fita filled his time with David, and then Fita will return, working like he used to sell plastic bags at the market and during the day he guarded the parking lot in the mall.

“How about Arib Fita?” Ask David.

“He again returned home, Only 4 days want to take care of the driving license he said.” Fita replied.

“If Ijal? long time I didn't see it was a kid.” Ask David.

“I've broken up contact with him.” Fita replied with a lethargic look.

“Why?” Ask David.

“The story is long.” Fita replied.

“News only, I'm a loyal listener.” David Said.

Fita then told David everything from A to Z and David listened well, yes Fita and David are ex-lovers but David can be a good friend and best friend for him.

“Why are you so stupid!!” David said with a shocked face.

“Means?” Ask Fita.

“You are stupid and too blind Fita! You let go of the person who obviously cares more about you just for someone who just wants to get more from you, don't you feel Ijal loves you?” David answered.

“What is it so David?” Ask Fita.

“Stupidly you are Fita, I am a man I know which people only want to take advantage and sincere people, I ask you, who can sacrifice and can understand you more? who is there when you need it? It's not Arib!! Fita aware dong you, yes Allah !!!” David answered while shaking his head.

Slowly Fita began to digest David's words, he was completely wrong to take the path and the choice at that time.

“I let you go at that time with the intention that you get a much better one than I Fita, not even like this!” David said with an angry face.

“I'm stupid huh?” Ask Fita.

“Yes, you are so stupid !! Ijal who accompanies you Fita is not Arib, Ijal from zero with you, Ijal who always accompanies you Fita.” David answered.

“But I've had years with Arib!” Fita Say.

“You don't understand yet?” Ask David.

“I understand, but I have chosen and now Ijal has disappeared.” Fita replied.

“She disappeared because you asked.” David Said.

“I didn't ask for !!” Fita replied.

“You don't understand it yet Fita, one day you will know what I mean!!” David said then left Fita who was still silent in his position at that time.

****

4 Days passed, but Arib did not return, Fita began to inquire about his whereabouts.

“It's been 4 days, when did you go to Jakarta?” Fita sent a message.

“Iya dear sorry yes, I am here a week, later I will go to Jakarta with my uncle I take a car to save more.” Arib replied to a message.

“True yes.” Fita replied to a message.

“Yes, this is also me while changing the identity card and have not come down, you are patient yes.” Arib replied to a message.

“I wait for you.” Fita replied to a message.

Fita continuously waited for him to return while filling the time as usual.

A week passed and Arib still did not return while his Uncle was already in Jakarta.

“It's been a week why don't you come back too?” Fita sent a message.

“Iya sorry dear identity I have not yet so but later I am there, while we are long distance relationship first yes, it's okay.” Arib replied to a message.

“But you promised you back.” Fita replied to a message.

“Iya I'm back.” Arib replied to a message.

From here Fita began to understand the meaning of David and Eka first, he really felt Arib trying to leave his life.

For weeks Fita's message was not answered by Arib, where he was in his heart.

“Where are you? no news, are you good ?” Fita sent a message.

“I'm good, sorry here the signal is hard so I have trouble contacting you.” Arib replied to a message.

It was the last message from Arib and he started to disappear, Fita always sent him a message, tried to call but there was no response when the phone was active.

Until one time Fita saw her status on Facebook, she updated a new photo with her friends, but to reply to the message alone can not, she also did not try to contact Fita, Fita began to get hurt at that time, Fita began to get hurt, he began to remember his life yesterday where he still had Ijal, he could only try to strengthen his heart and accept everything no matter how his choice was and he had to accept his reality even though his heart was very broken at that time.

A few days later, today Fita was completely destroyed, Arib suddenly deleted everything from the number on the block, Whatsapp on the block, Arib on the block, when he wanted to try to contact her and make sure she why through Facebok but it turns out he made a status that hurt his heart (Single/self) was very broken at that time, he meant what like this, he said, there was never any news, disappeared and suddenly he treated Fita like garbage, he threw it away suddenly at will without giving an explanation to her, what was wrong Fita, he was very very sorry with his choice.

Fita could only strip away at that moment, she was willing to share with whom, her life was instantly destroyed, collapsed, her heart was deeply hurt.

I love you sincerely, I choose you but this is your treatment of me, you are evil, you have no heart. Fita sat down with tears flowing.

Fita was like a madman, stressed, tangent, it felt like he wanted to end his life, he had no one else on his mind at that time.

Fita took a sedative to end his life but failed, maybe God still wants him alive.

Fita returned to her past, a time she had long left, she returned to smoking, drinking hard, her life was very chaotic.

Until finally Fita decided to go far from Jakarta to the city of his birth, that afternoon he departed from the bus terminal and got there early in the morning at 02.00 wib he was picked up with his cousin. Fita calmed down in his hometown for 2 months or less. At least there Fita can still entertain himself by seeing the natural beauty of his homeland and many that he can chat and share.

She is Fita's female cousin, the distance they were born is only 3 months different, her name is Melisa, Fita always shares her grievances with her.

“Why you? you can tell me the same!” Melisa.

“My life is ruined, she left me Mel.” Fita replied.

Fita told Melisa everything.

“Yes your god who is patient yes, who is strong, god must have another way for you.” Melisa said while hugging Fita, Fita can only strip off.

That night Fita daydreamed to herself in front of the house and there was a man approaching her, her name Seful she was a distant cousin, Fita did not understand how the villagers there called her who obviously they still counted brothers.

“Ngapain you are alone outside?” Ask Seful while walking towards Fita.

“Only daydream no more.” Fita replied.

“You daydreamed Mas?” Ask Seful while laughing.

“Huge confidence you are a person.” Fita replied.

“I tell you this is the same city child as you who used to live in a big city, not good outside the nights alone daydream later kesambet.” Said Seful while laughing.

“Yes great if you tambet, so I can pounce on you and choke your neck Mas!!” Fita replied with a sharp look then laughed.

“Don't dong, I haven't got married yet know, don't pity you as well as aunt I haven't had time to give you grandchildren eh I'm dead.” Say Seful with a soft face.

“Sama Mas ya make it.” Said Seful while continuing to laugh.

“Enak only, don't want me to males.” Fita replied with a small smile.

“Dik, Mas said yes you are sweet if you smile, many will fall in love with you, believe the same Mas.” Say Seful while teasing.

Fita while looking towards Mas Seful while stripping.

“But not with him Mas, ade wrong, very wrong Mas.” Said Fita while continuing to strip off.

“Dik, you are not wrong, but fate has not given you time to be with him (Jal).” Seful replied while wiping her tears Fita.

“What are all men like Arib Mas?” Ask Fita.

“Yes, not all men are jerks, perverts, strange, but not all men are like Arib, sometimes as much as men but he loves women so much and vice versa, as good as any man is not necessarily he can love his woman, all different Dik the same is just his gender.” Seful replied.

Much has been told to Mas Seful from beginning to end, all he knows, every night he always spent time chatting with him.

“Believe the same Mas, there will be a man who loves you very much, maybe now is not the time but later when it is time he will come by himself, the spirit again yes Dikalain life.” Said Seful while wiping off her tears Fita.

“Iya Mas.” Fita replied with a smile.

*)

Every afternoon Fita plays with her cousin Melisa.

“Where are we going Mel?” Ask Fita.

“See Ebeg (Horse lumping).” Melissa answered.

“Ebeg what is it?” Ask Fita with a big face.

“If in Jakarta is usually called lumping horse if here the name is Ebeg.” Melissa answered.

“Oh I'm coming yes.” Fita Say.

“Ayo.” Melissa answered.

Fita saw the Ebeg show for the first time, it was exciting and many people were watching. After the completion of Fita snack food favorite with Melisa is baso, he likes the baso here.

“What do you eat? baso?” Ask Melisa.

“Pastya.” Fita replied.

While eating baso occasionally they tell stories.

“I see lately your condition is getting better, what because Seful yes.” Said Melisa while teasing.

“Not Mel, he only gave me a little advice.” Fita replied.

“You like the same Mas Seful ?” Ask Melisa.

“Slight.” Fita replied with a small laugh.

“Be careful Seful is a girl a lot, later you are only in the love of false hope.” Melisa said with a laugh and continued to tease Fita.

“Lisa I want to ask dong,si Al is her sister Seful ya?” Ask Fita.

“Iya why?” Melissa answered.

“I just knew ya.” Fita Say.

“It's natural, because Al is the head of the organization, his activities are mostly in the si hut, so rarely do you see the two of them together.” Melissa answered.

“Oh so yes, pantes I just know.” Fita Say.

Tomorrow is the month of fasting, Fita's first fast in the village.

“Show here if you want to buy ice where?” Ask Fita.

“At the top, we go up there there selling ice, but if you want others ya out of his hometown, quite far.” Melissa answered.

Understandably, his birth land right under the mountain, still the original village, the air is still original, every time Maghrib no more children come out because it is dark outside, the distance from one house to another is also quite far, the left right side of the house Fita coconut tree garden, bamboo trees and salak trees, it feels scary if the nights at home alone.

*)

the last 3 days of fasting, Fita was invited to open together by Melisa.

“Melisa would like to join iftar not in mosque.” Inas.

“When Nas?” Ask Melisa.

“A day before the last day of fasting.” Inas answered.

“Lusa?” Ask Melisa.

“Yes, would you like to come without ? 10,000 thousand only, already dapet rice box and ice fruit.” Inas answered.

“I'm coming, Fita want to come?” Ask Melisa.

“Bby.” Fita replied.

***

Open as it arrived, that afternoon Fita approached Melisa.

“Melisa, come so open together no?” Ask Fita.

“I'm again getting ready.” Melissa answered.

“I wait here.” Said Fita while sitting in the living room.

“I have this, we approach Wati at her house come on, while waiting for another.” Melissa answered.

“Oke.” Fita Say.

“Wati, assalamualaikum.” Melisa.

“Iya dear patient, I again wear a veil.” Wati.

“I'm the same Fita wait under ya.” Melisa.

“Oke.” Wati.

Not long after that Wati came down and approached those who were self-sufficient.

“Waduh selfi not on rhyme, follow dong.” Melisa.

“Come here.” Fita replied.

Several times they took pictures.

“Eh already this hour let's go to the mosque.” Melisa.

Fita and the others were on their way to the mosque, quite far away but not so far away, arriving at the mosque Fita directly into a special place for women while waiting for the adhan maghrib as they listen to tausiah from his uncle Fita.

Adhan Maghripun reverberated at 17.30 wib, Fita took 1 aqua glass and drank it after that he immediately took ablution water for congregational maghrib prayer, and he took it, finished praying his heart slowly calmed down and they ate with the rice box that Inas had shared earlier.

It contained grilled chicken and sambel, Fita ate with other girls, while joking.

“Es fruit you don't you eat Fit?” Ask Melisa.

“Let's just do her mouth wash.” Fita replied with a smile.

Finished breaking the fast Fita took a picture first with the others after that he went home with his sister cousin precisely the elder sister of Melisa, Melisa was 4 brothers, and she was the first one, the first is married Fita used to call him (Yayu) if in Java it means Ma'am or brother, the second is Romli he used to call him (Tuwing) and the third is Kak Sahli, they are like siblings even though they are born to different parents.

Arriving at home, Fita sees Mas Seful, Al, and uncle playing playing playing cards with his father Fita.

“Mas did not break their fast together?” Ask Fita.

“Ikut, why?” Seful replied.

“Adik don't see Mas?” Ask Fita.

“You are busy other same photos si.” Seful replied.

“Fita, make coffee for Uncle yes milk coffee.” Uncle Say.

“Each Uncle.” Fita replied.

“I also dong 1, use milk yes.” Al.

“Susu goat?” Ask Fita.

“Ih people's milk if any.” Al answered while laughing.

Fita feels her life is new today, she feels happy and slowly forgets her past, although Ijal is still in her heart very neatly. Fita hopes fate finds us at different times, he can only hope and pray that Ijal is okay wherever it is.

Again cool daydreaming suddenly the voice of Seful surprised him.

“Eh why even daydream si, coffee has not? already thirsty this.” Ask Seful.

“Eh sorry Mas, already this.” Fita replied.

“Why you? still confused?” Ask Seful.

“No Mas, yes already this please bring it to the front yes.” Fita replied.

Fita has started to sleep soundly, began to be able to smile and live a normal life as before, but to establish a relationship may be a little different, I don't know we will see how the next love story…

 

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