Play your guitar Sophie

The Secrets Revealed

Today after school, I asked Dede if she was the same. It has been about 2 weeks that my relationship with him has not been good at all. For reasons I didn't understand before, Dede slowly drifted away, like hiding something, like fearing that I knew something important.

“We have to talk,” I pull his hand to the corner of the parking lot after the school bell rings.

“I have to send my mama,”

“Acupuncture again?”

“He uh,”

“You are stupid or bego anyway De? Cook for two weeks you never make a better excuse than that?”

This time he was silent. The debater lost his fangs.

“Now you are talking to me. Why are you so far away from me like this? What's my fault? I thought you were my friend De.”

“You're my friend Sophie.”

“I am your friend right. Friends who always believe that every day you deliver your mom acupuncture.”

Dede. His face was red as if he was crying.

“Do not cry. I don't pity you!” i'm annoyed.

And again, Dede grabbed the small keychain. The keychain is shaped like a ball, squishy which he always squeezes – squeeze if again restless. He's crumpled, he's circling. If only the keychain was alive, he would have been angry with Dede.

Then I saw Dede's face change. The red is not like a red man crying. But red is angry. “What? Just talk about it!” at this point I'm right – is right boiling. “You know Soph. What is my business is none of your business. It's up to me to deliver my mama acupuncture or something. It's none of your business. Whatever I want to do, it's none of your business. And now I cry for what, it's none of your business either!”

I can't believe that a girl who puts out such sharp words is my best friend, Dede. We have been doing a lot of things both. Although I often heard him say harsh words, but never as sharp as he had just said. I started crying.

“Good De, then. Our friendship must break up, I accept. Its alright. I don't even know why. Maybe starting tomorrow I'll sit down with Jenny. At least he didn't talk rudely to me. With his prediction he can tell me who is a good friend who is not.” my tears are like can not be held back. I am usually the most skilled at holding back tears. Like before, after my mom died and Grandma told me firmly that my life was too beautiful for me to miss by crying. I turned my body back to my bike. I left Dede still sobbing. I don't care, he's no longer my best friend.

The parking lot has been deserted. There are only a few motorcycles including my bike. A loud noise filled the place as I started my bike strong. I'm going to get out of this place.

“You want to know the reason is not it?!” Dede yelling.

I just shut up.

“You want to know the reason is not it?!” he came to me, right next to my bike that was next to his bike.

“I guess we have no more business,” I said without looking at him.

“But you should know,” his voice is now softened. “I'm sorry Sophie. You should know how much I want to fight my heart, but I can't. You sahabtku Sophie, I don't want to lose you.”

“Yes, it's true I'm your best friend. Foolish friend so willingly I you're angry for no reason. Not just once. It's probably been a thousand times since I've been your best friend. I am stupid.”

“Don't talk like that Sophie. In this case I was wrong. You should read this,” Dede held out something. A folded paper like a boat. The paper was shabby no longer in white. Some of the edges have yellowed and have withered. Like a paper that has been stored for a long time. I remembered something so I quickly opened the paper. In it I read,

I'm leaving tomorrow

Nando

“Sunday we made. Ever since we met in Toebroek Sophie, she called me every day. The phone number he got from you,” he sobbed for a moment. Then I saw him trying to collect his voice again.

“I've tried to deny my feelings to him, but I can't. You like her. I can't like the guy my best friend likes. I don't want our relationship to be like this Sophie, you're my best friend.”

My tears are pouring down now. My heart was like it was chopped and then it was turned into chicken food.

“You lied to me De. Moreover, this is a men's problem. You know that all this time I wanted to get love from a guy who is not Frans. I thought that Nando was the one, but you're taking it now.”

“Sophie, she was my first love. First love with such memories cannot be lost at all as hard as you try to kill it. If I can choose Sophie, I don't want any of this to happen. You're my best friend, I think you can understand.”

“Not Dede, you're my best friend. I thought you could understand. You got Dede's full parents, two. And I don't even have one.”

“But you have Grandma and Brother Frans. Also Fernando. I don't have Fernando.”

“And you know Dede, what makes me feel stupid the most? I'm the one who paved the way for you two. I gave him your HP number. You are no longer my best friend Dede.” I'm running my bike now. And I heard from behind Dede also turned on his bike chasing me. Now he is beside me.

“Sophie, you should know that I don't want to hurt your heart at all. I still want to be your best friend.”

I don't want to hear him. I sang so loud that the dust of my way into my mouth.

I finally got to know him, on the grounds of knowing from a friend…

I immediately said I like, my friend's business later .(Mak Comblang by Melloy Goeslaw)

 “Sophie, I know you're mad at me. Sorry. All this is out of my control,” cried Dede riled.

The louder I sing, the louder I get,

….

Forgive me oh my friend is not me who is evil, out of your own fault tell me

….

My throat hurts and I cough – coughs. Mak Comblang has Melly Goeslaw that I sing is not at all beautiful. Dede was still beside me, talking to me every now and then she saw the road. The streets in Batu city at one noon are not too crowded. Only once did I see a tub car hauling farmers with their carrots or cabbages. Every day is a season without stopping.

We arrived at the crossroad. The traffic lights have turned red. We stopped.

“Sophie, please put yourself in my position. I believe you will understand. Maybe not today we have to solve the problem. We should both calm down.”

The traffic light now turned yellow, flickering. Dede was silent for a while, while watching the definite light soon turn green. When that happened, he took the left, went home and I turned right, towards Toebroek. Our house is in the opposite direction, maybe it is one sign that we will never be in line. Again, I was crying. My best friend is only Dede. I don't want to lose him.

But this is the first time I've fallen in love. This is also the first time I wish I wouldn't be single again. I'm going to be in a girl group with a boyfriend. But why, this is the first, I have to fall in love with a guy who turns out to like my best friend. I don't think this is fair at all. I came home, I cried. It is true, friendship is like a kedondong.

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