Pellucid

Chapter 17 - Why ?

Bening's father was increasingly stunned to read the diary of his biological daughter whose contents in the form of outpouring of hearts especially many say the word "why". The answer is only Irjen Pol's heart. Prasetyo Pambudi only knows.

Why doesn't Papa ever want a photo with me?

Is it because I am less beautiful? My beauty still lost far to Mama.

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Why didn't Papa ever come to school on Father's Day?

Maybe Papa is busy working in his unit.

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Why is it that every time you take a report card, Papa can never attend?

Until I graduated high school, Papa never attended once either. Only Bik Ningsih who always accompanied me took the report card.

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Why doesn't Papa love me like Papa my other friends who love and care for his son?

Because I'm a killer. Who killed Mama buried in a burrow. Leaving Papa forever.

And there are still many sentences with the word why written in the diary Bening book. In addition to writing his longing for his late mother.

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There are two last pages in the book Bening's diary containing :

Part 1's

Sorry Clear, Pah. Bening has promised Papa not to date any man. Because in the future, Papa has betrothed me to one of the sons of Papa's best friend. Maybe this is God's destiny. Bening does not deserve to be his match because Bening is no longer holy.

The clear is dirty and stained. Unintentionally, sorry. But Bening was sure the man who impregnated Bening didn't mean it that way either. Suddenly sleepy at that time. And when the man did it before Bening's consciousness was completely gone, I was sure he wasn't entirely at fault either. It seems like he ate or drank something wrong so bern@fsu saw Bening. Papa who has been an intelligence certainly understands what he means.

Bening decided not to abort this content. I'm sorry if it goes against Papa's wishes. This fetus is innocent. All is the destiny of God. So Bening sincerely live it all. The man also did not know she was pregnant.

Later if he wants to apologize, Bening asked Papa to forgive him. Listen explanation. Listen to Papa's heart. Hopefully Papa is not rash to make decisions that are emotional for a moment and only end up regretting.

Part 2

I know what your name is.

Handsome, handsome and honest.

Some things stuck on your shoulders.

All I know.

You were the first to take it. But I don't know if I'm the first woman you touch or not.

I won't take your responsibility.

I accept both of our destinies.

You yelled a woman's name when you did that to me.

You seem to love that woman very much.

May you two be a match.

Never take off the woman you love.

Honestly, I envy you for knowing what it's like to fall in love with the opposite sex. Especially having a lover. I was eighteen, never knowing what it was like to fall in love. Especially it feels heartbroken because of breaking up with a lover. Sorry if I was still childish.^^

May God be with you always. Success is always for your career and love.

Greetings

Clear "779"

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Irjen Pol's. Prasetyo closed the diary with a long and heavy breath. Regret still enveloped him. Suppose the time can be played back, it feels like he wants to have more happy moments with his daughter.

But what you want to say, rice has become porridge. All only regret remained in his heart now.

Although he was still plagued by curiosity about the man who impregnated his daughter, but the princess actually told him to forgive the man. How quaint.

But he only realized that his daughter was the incarnation of his late wife, Dewun. Who has an ocean-wide heart to forgive the mistakes of others including himself as the figure of his father who was so cruel so far.

Finally he put Bening's diary back in the drawer. Tonight he decided to sleep in the princess's room. Wishing everything that happened today was just a dream and tomorrow she woke up to see Bening sleeping beside her with a smile.

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