One Big Dipper Two Love

Chapter 62

“I'm serious, Mas,” sahut Harum sure.

He looked at the face of the man he loved. The choice he made this afternoon had been thought about this week, since the dawn that ravaged his heart.

“I am aware of my current position. I am not the wife that Mas Hanges wants. So, why do I survive if my position actually makes it difficult to even hurt the three of us.” Harum said calmly. The intonation of his speech was directly proportional to his countenance which also seemed so calm.

Though at the beginning he thought of resigning from his position as the wife of Hangga, his heart felt so deep sadness and pain. Smelling to tears while remembering the kindness of his father and mother-in-law.

Harum realized he did not get love from Hanges. However, he got so much love from both parents. Ms. Mirna and Mr. Hendra loved her so much and treated her so well.

Then, if she is no longer the wife of Hangga, will Miss Mirna and Mr Hendra still love her? So sad in the heart of Harum.

“My mistake from the start was being so confident in accepting Mom and Dad's proposal. Without thinking or asking first to Mas Hangga is it true that Mas Hangga also wants the marriage? Is it true that Mas Hangga wants me to be his wife?"

“That time I was too happy. To be honest, I have loved Mas Hangga for a long time. But, if only I knew Mas Hangga did not love me and already had a lover, I would definitely reject the proposal,” Harum said.

The mango swallows its saliva hearing fragrant speech. Women who are usually obedient seem to have more strength. Hanges could see that from the radiance of fragrant eyes. There is not the least bit of doubt from the look of the eyes and the words spoken by Harum. The first wife of Hangga really wanted to step down as a wife.

“Do not, Rum. Don't think about separating. Stay my wife,” said Hangga full of requests.

“Why, Mas? This is not the will of the past. The time at the beginning of marriage Mas always said, if I do not accept the same treatment Mas, please sue for divorce."

"I'm sorry, Rum. But now I don't want us to separate."

"Why don't you want to separate, Mom? This decision is good for the three of us. No one will feel hurt again later.”

“I don't want us to separate. I want you to be my wife. Because ... I feel like I'm starting to love you, Harum.”

If only the sentence was said by Hangga long ago, the heart of Harum would surely be happy to make. His cheeks will surely blush to hear the love speech of the Arjuna of his dreams.

Unfortunately, at this time the spirit of Harum to get the love of Hangga has dimmed, maybe even die.

Twice hearing with his own ears that Hangga did not love him, even the sentence was pronounced by himself by Hangga, making Harum not complacent when hearing the sweet words from the lips of Hangga tonight.

“I'm serious, Rum.”

Smiling little fragrance. “Then say so in front of Mbak Nata, does Mas Hangga dare?” his challenge.

Hanges quiet with his head down. He went up and down because he was nervous. He did not dare to express love for Harum in front of Nata. But what he said was the truth.

He began to feel the seeds of love for Fragrance. Though his heart still totally loves Nata.

“I've heard it all, Mom. And it hurts so much. I have heard Mas Hangga say in front of Mbak Nata that Mas never loved me and only loved Mbak Nata. If the first maybe I can still understand, Mas Hangga did marry me because of mother. The second one, however, felt very painful. I think early in the day, what Mas did was about love starting to grow, but ...”

“I'm sorry about that,” cut Hangga fast.

“I didn't mean to say that. I had to say that because I didn't want to hurt Nata.”

“Not want to hurt Sister Nata, but hurt me.”

“I'm sorry.”

“I've forgiven everything. Including forgiving myself. Mom once said, if I'm not strong, I can back off. And I'm not strong, Mom. Not strong because they are constantly hurt. But, I can't see so many mistakes that Mas Hangga made.

Do Mas know, that there is a hadith that sounds like this ‘it's who has two wives then he is more inclined to one of them, between the two, he will come on the Day of Resurrection with his body tilted. So I better just back off. So that I no longer hurt, Mbak Nata no longer hurt. And most importantly, Mas Hangga is not constantly sinning through this polygamous marriage.”

“Give me one more chance, Rum. I promise I'll fix it. But I beg you to understand Nata. I know Nata well. He is jealous and tends to be possessive. Moreover, Nata is a convert who does not understand how polygamous marriage is. I promise slowly to give understanding to Nata. Sooner or later, Nata will also understand and understand.

I'll try to be fair, though for the time being we have to hide first. I believe you have a broad enough heart to live this.”

The fragrance fluttered without a sound to hear the long sentence from the lips of Hangga.

“Rum, I beg you. Give it a month. Be patient in a month. If this month, I let you down again and you decide to leave, I promise I won't hold you back." Hanges grabbed Harum's hand and then clasped it tightly. “I beg you, Rum. Want ya?” please be full of seriousness.