NOT SITI NURBAYA

Small Family

Reza stopped his steps, crouching in front of his beloved wife.

"Why stop Pap?" ask Tasya

"Mami promise, will you meet Vano not cry?" ask Reza

"Why indeed?" tanyanya curious

"Dear, mmm..." Reza lost the word

"What?" Tasya curious

"Our son is premature." Reza was finally honest

"Premature? Why can?" Tasya was in shock

"Mommy was an accident. So Vano must be saved immediately." Reza held his wife's hand

"For me, our son.." One grain of clear water escaped falling on his cheek

"Not because of Mommy. But the will of God, Mam. Must remember that"

Her tears are unstoppable now.

"Std.. When Mami cries, Papi turns back. We don't have to look at Vano first" Reza threatened while wiping the tears of his wife.

"Yes. I want to see Vano"

"No cry promise?"

"Yes"

"Promise not to blame yourself?"

Tasya was silent

"I.. "

"We're in the room again. Mommy's not ready yet"

"Why not say it from the beginning? Why is it all covering up?" Tasya was crying again

"Yep, we're going to the room. Shame on seeing people. Later Papi uluin" said Reza

Tasya looked around. Some people look towards them.

"Go to the room first." Reza was about to spin the wheelchair but was held back by Tasya

"Let's just look at Vano. I won't cry" he said

Reza continued his steps. Inevitably, this bitter reality they had to swallow. Reza could not keep it for long, for fear of boomerang for himself.

Reza took Tasya into the NICU. The nurse opened the door for them.

The three nurses who were standing guard whispered to each other.

"Hallo aunty sister Vano, this is Mami Vano" said Reza was friendly because he had known them.

Tasya smiled even though sadness still emanated on his face.

"Hallo Mami Vano. It's beautiful" said one of the nurses.

"Can you see Vano? Pity is longing" said Reza

"Can. Please" they said.

Reza pushed her wheelchair closer to the incubator.

"Yes Allah.. Vano.." Tasya holds the incubator. Her tears are hanging

"Promise not crying, right?" said Reza. Soon Tasya blinked her eyes.

The nurses looked at both.

"Vano, forgive Mami yaa. "he said lirih.

Reza held the wife's hand.

"Vano is not crying. Mami Masa cengengeng" said Reza

"Pap, is he that small?" ask Tasya

"Yes, he's BBLR. Baby with low weight. Her mom is less greedy to eat" Reza quipped

"Keep how?" ask Tasya

"Yes, Vano can't go home if it's not 1.8 kilograms" Reza said

"I want to take care of Vano, Pap" Tasya whined

"Can't. Vano is already there to take care of" said Reza

"Keep later how? I'm just here" asked Tasya

"Let's talk about it again. Embarrassed to see the aunt sister" Reza looked at them, while the nurses wavered.

"You're in the room again." take Reza

"Still missing" said Tasya

Both silent. Care about their child.

"Vano Motion Pap" Tasya enthusiastically

"It's Mommy, Elvano." she said later. Tasya swallowed his saliva heavily

"Yes dear" Reza smiled gently as she embraced the wife.

One nurse squeezed his friend's hand.

Reza exited the room as her phone vibrated.

Tasya only gave it a glance. Shortly, Reza reentered.

"Yuk Mam's. Papi awaited by Mr. Bambang. We'll be here again after Maghrib" asked Reza

Reza pushed the wheelchair and thanked the nurses.

"So sweet really. I wonder if Vano will be as handsome as to see his parents fit as well as Tuhaaan" one nurse seemed unable to hold his mouth. They were very enthusiastic about talking about them.

"Mam, Papi to the office for a while, as usual, Papi will come here again if the business is done" said Reza

"Yes" he said briefly. His heart and mind were still filled with Elvano

***

"Mom, why is everything covered up if Vano is premature?" ask Tasya to Mom

"Yes, you just realized we immediately said yes" said Mother

"You and Vano are safe, I feel so grateful. Thank God that God still loves us" said Mother

"Mom didn't mean to cover anything. It's just that we picked the right time" Mother said

"You don't think of Neng. Just focus on your recovery first" said Rasya

"Yes A." Tasya seemed to receive everything. His family's support is so great.

After Maghrib, Tasya and Rasya return to the NICU room to meet Vano. They spend time looking at the tiny baby in the incubator.

***

"Sorry, " said Reza as they lived together in the room. Reza's coming in at nine o'clock. Mom and Rasya have come home.

"It's okay A. I understand." said Taysa

"It is, if so. No need to promise." said Tasya flatly

"Yes. Sorry dear." said Reza again

"Yes, just sleep. Aa must be tired, right?" tasya

"Mommy's angry?"

"No"

"But it seems very angry" he said later

"I'm not angry, just disappointed. At least busy to keep you informed. So that I don't worry. And I don't like Aa promising that she can't keep it" Tasya said

"Yes dear. Later any bus, Papi told Mami" he said

"Yes, he's sleeping" Tasya said

Reza obeyed because she was tired.

***

Early in the morning Reza had packed their things before the doctor visited for the last time. Mom and Rasya also arrived early. They were eager to go home except Tasya. He looked gloomy because he could not bear to leave Vano alone.

"Mam, I'm meeting Vano" Reza said

Tasya nodded in agreement. They say goodbye to Mom and Rash.

"But I don't want to go home. I can't bear to leave Vano here alone" Tasya said

"Mommy focus on healing first. Vano's son is strong Mam" Reza comforts him

"Vano pity Pap alone"

"Vano mah is happy like Mam. Accompanied by beautiful sisters"

"His father was happy!"

Reza laughs.

They arrived at the NICU.

"Hallo aunt sister. Mami Vano is coming again" Reza said

"Please" he said kindly.

"May, the mom who replaced sus?" ask Reza

"Of course Sir. Come here, ma'am" said the nurse

"Seplace what?" ask Tasya wonderfully

"Later Mami knew for herself"

The nurses deftly helped Tasya do skin to skin with Baby Vano.

They feel bad the first time they touch the skin.

"Oh Allah Elvano, dear, this is Mami. Sorry Mami just touched you. Vano, Mami's son" Tasya said in tears

"Don't be sad Mami, Vano will be sad" comforted the nurse when fixing her sling.

Tasya immediately wiped away her tears.

The feeling was jumbled between happy and sad while holding a very tiny Elvano.

"Vano dear" Reza mentowel the cheeks of her beloved son while crouched beside Tasya.

"Mommy's Papi's here now. There's Mami ya Vano ya" Reza spoke to her son

"Vano drinks a lot of milk huh. Sorry Mami can not love Vano" said Tasya held back his sadness.

"It's okay Vano, Vano is not fussy Mam. The hero Papi mah sholeh" Reza chimed in

The nurses felt they needed to see their little family.