Not Ex?

Missing, Similar to Him

I hugged her beautiful body from behind.

"Kangen, huh?"

I nodded, hugging. I don't know who really misses. Because in reality, it was Mas Bima who came to follow me.

"Udah dong is hitting it! seen by the crowd, hehehe ...."

I let go of the embrace and sat down next to him.

"Why come here?"

When looking at each other, a very fast movement I could not avoid. Suddenly Mas Bima kissed my lips, then smiled mockingly.

Reflexes, my eyes are round, both palms close their mouths. Then I spread my eyes, some people who accidentally saw the incident also seemed giggling.

"What the hell?" my protest to Mas Bima.

"I miss you, can't I?"

Bima Putra Pratama, not only his name, his face was almost similar to Tama. A shitty boy who went missing to torment me with longing.

The presence of Mas Bima has treated my longing for Tama a little, but not my guilt.

As a senior in another department, it would be unnatural for him to be my discussion companion, modus. Almost every day he came to see me on campus, even though we were different buildings.

Where there is Risma there must be Bima, that is the impression we present.

All the activities outside the department that I attended, he also followed. Sometimes we linger in the courtyard of the mosque after the prayer of the dhuhur just to listen to each babble.

Together with Mas Bima my arrogant and stubborn nature vanished. I prefer to be spoiled, cheerful, and arguably more religious than ever.

Until one day, Bayu's major friend gave me a comic book.

"What is this comic? I have no interest!"

"Take it, there's something in it."

The young man who was so full-bodied just passed by after forcing me to accept his comic book.

Jesus, there's an envelope in the comic I just received.

"For**Adek at the study table....

Sorry for writing this letter to you.

We know that every day we meet, every day we talk to each other.

However, mas can not if you have to say directly, nervous, and there are concerns if Adek angry.

Deck, actually from the first we met in the mosque, mas fell in love with Adek.

Over time, the feeling strengthened and grew to become affectionate.

Finally, the mas no longer able to withstand the feelings of the mas to Adek.

Dek, mas love and affection to Adek.

Will Adek be a lover, ma'am?

Mas promise will love and always take care of Adek.

However, mas will not force the will, dash sincerely with any answer Adek.

Mas message, if Adek is not pleased with this feeling, please Adek remain friends with mas.

And take care of yourself Adek, wear graduation clothes before the wedding dress.

Greetings from Mas Bima**."

It was not believed, our closeness turned out because Mas Bima put his heart to me.

Actually it was already emanating from his eyes, but I was afraid to interpret it. He was also very friendly to touch me, holding my hand when crossing the street, fixing my collar that sometimes messy, and tidying my hair when blown by the wind.

There was no rejection from me, I accepted it and became accustomed to its so gentle treatment. Oh, my God, that was love....

Since the reply letter from me was received by him, then our status is not senior and junior anymore. We are lovers, at first we did not show it to the public.

Given that there were many students from various majors who approached me. There are even those who use rude ways, anyone who is close to me comes and does not hesitate to commit acts of violence.

No exception to Mas Bima, according to the stories of friends, when after driving me home, Mas Bima had to chase with the man who brought his friends.

The threat to stay away from me was often accepted by Mas Bima, even though at that time I and Mas Bima had not established a special relationship. Only senior and junior members are often seen together.

Apparently Mas Bima was undaunted, finally she expressed her feelings for me. He is ready to accept all risks, yes ... It was Bima who finally won my heart.

Not because of the face and name that resembles Tama, but something different that I felt when with Mas Bima.

From that moment on, I locked up the hopes of Tama, far away. I don't know why I still don't intend to forget.

I buried it in my heart and memory. Still hoping that if one day I meet her, I'll show her that I still keep and remember everything about her, Tama.

After Mas Bima and I combined our feelings, apparently our relationship was not as smooth as it seemed. The men did not give up, almost every day become bullies.

Mas Bima, which is very easily triggered by people's speech, made me repeatedly have to convince him to always believe in me.

One day, Mas Bima took me to an empty classroom. Class, but there was no student in the room except me and Mas Bima.

He told me to sit on the third bench from the front. While he stood in front, holding a black marker and writing a male name on the white board.

"Adi Hariyanto"

A name that is very foreign to me, my reason guess what do Mas Bima mean to write that name? Was this the reason for his cold attitude for a few days?

"Who is that guy?"

I stared in astonishment, how could he ask me something I didn't know.

"I don't know."

"Don't lie, answer honestly!"

"Don't know, Mommy."

"Didn't Adek have a relationship with that guy before? And it's not over until now?"

"For God's sake, I don't understand the question, Mom. Who is that guy anyway?"

"He's a kid here too, a level with a mas too. He took a leave of absence some time ago and only this week actively returned to campus, he admitted that he was Adek's girlfriend, who then lived just like that without explanation. Then know-know Adek is the same mas."

"Keep Mas Bima believe?"

The man turned his face away, I got up from my seat and came closer to him. I rubbed both of her cheeks to see me.

"Mas, why is it so easy to believe in people, show Adek which person it is! Maybe you've met him but don't know what his name is, maybe there's something wrong with him so he can slander adek."

Mas Bima looked devastated, the look of his eyes that were originally full of anger, finally returned friendly as usual. It even emanated full of regret and novelty.

"Mas believe in Adek, I'm sorry, Dek!"

After a few days our relationship was very cold, we finally managed to warm our relationship back.

For the first time, I received a warm kiss from a man I loved. Not an ordinary kiss, but something that happens when the two lips meet. Yes ... It happened for the first time in my life.

It's not like the crash kiss I got from Tama.