NOT AS BEAUTIFUL AS ALYZA'S WORLD

Responsibilities

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"Sister, I want to sleep here!"

Lyza was seen at the door with her pillows, bolsters and blankets.

His face showed great fear. I knew soon, there must be something.

At 3 am, I just fell asleep because the little guy was a little fussy hot.

My room was never locked, the reason Anto so that Lyza did not feel afraid to sleep in her own room.

So Lyza knows that when she's scared, she can come anytime to our room.

At first it was difficult to accept, but after seeing how Lyza was often frightened and even shouted hysterically in the middle of the night in her room, I also did not have the heart.

"Why doesn't Lyza sleep in her own room?" My toot. Even though I know the answer.

"Randy, Brother. Randy! He's gonna rape me!" He answered with a trembling voice.

"No Lyza, nothing. You slept there again."

"No, sister, don't want to! Randy's hiding upstairs!"

"There's no Lyza. Come with brother!"

Yes, I have to calm Lyza down, lest Anto wake up.

Withstanding the overwhelming sleepiness, I took Lyza up to the second floor, I opened the doors of the rooms one by one. Look under the bed. Even the doors of the closet I left open.

"Tu .. look! There is no. Lyza is sleeping again!"

"There, sis. Randy's hiding on the ceiling!"

"Lyza, can't, Randy can't get to the ceiling. Brother closed it all down, where he's going."

"Maybe in the sapling, the one behind the house." Lyza remained insistent with her opinion.

Yeah, Randy's name was always present in Lyza's days. I don't really know exactly what the story is, but Randy said Lyza's college girlfriend.

Then Randy left Lyza just like that, maybe after seeing Lyza more and more days showing strangeness.

Lyza is a smart child, so although disturbed still he can complete his education to graduate.

Of course it wasn't as bad as it is now.

"The tree's been cut down by Lyza. Remember when you called a treekeeper for a tree?"

Yes, I was forced to call a treecutter, to finish the big tree in the backyard, because Lyza often thought Randy was hiding there.

Or robbers!

It's exhausting to do things that are unnatural, but most importantly to me, how we all stay sane with the unstable Lyza.

"Udah yukk sleeps again, soon in the morning. You should wake up soon."

Lyza fell silent and followed me.

"I slept here, brother." Lyza has rolled out a folding mattress, in the corner of my room.

I always had a folding mattress in my room, for Lyza just in case she had to sleep in my room.

Ahhh!

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"Na .. please take Mama to Kedoya, have not seen Tiara for a long time."

My mother-in-law's voice broke my concentration.

Tiara is the younger sister of a mother who lives with her husband and children in Kedoya.

In our own home, we often have family gatherings.

Indeed, the big family has great respect for the Anto family and papa mama.

No wonder, because he said the deceased papa who helped many other families.

"Yes, Ma. What time do you want to leave?"

I paused for a moment in front of the computer, tidied up the files and immediately got ready.

Mama is indeed her hobby of sightseeing, alone or accompanied.

Visiting family here, family there, a walk to the mall, or even just to the market near the house.

I don't know, I'm not surprised that Anto doesn't feel close to his mother.

"To, mama's asking for more money." Mom said one day to Anto.

"Well, what else did you do? I just got two million!"

"Once To, only two million could be what!" Mama answered with comfort.

Finally Anto gave again some money.

I kept quiet, because Anto's right to give money to his mother.

But I slowly reminded Anto to arrange a gift to mama.

"Something can change" I said at the time.

"Now mama needs money how much we love, later if our finances are difficult how. Not always good money. Mama should be used to manage financial use."

Of course good actually, but do not let us trouble because of the nature of the mother.

That's what I'm emphasizing!

Finally Anto was slowly arranging a gift to my mother-in-law. It's hard to change habits but it can.

"Come ... Na's. Go out to noon."

"Yes, Ma."

Rushing I took the bag, the car keys and of course my children should come too.

Arriving at Aunt Tiara's house, I left my mother. She said she wanted to stay, so I just went home.

The next day, it was not yet noon. My phone rang, even I was reluctant to pick it up.

"Na ... This is Aunt Ita, Bandung!"

Across the phone came the voice of Aunt Ita, the papa's sister who lives in Bandung.

"O aunty, how are you!"

"Good, Na. Na, this mama is here, aunt shocked come not ngabarin first. This aunt just happens to be going out of town too. How about Na?"

"What aunty take to Travel alone yes back to Jakarta. There's no one at home."

"Say still want to go for a walk, but if there is no nemanin how? My mom is sick too!"

Aunt Ita sounded very worried.

Yeah, that's how mom is. Whatever he wants to go to. Apparently early in the morning from the house of Aunt Tiara he went straight to Bandung.

I gave him a lot of money that day.

That's what often makes Anto upset, his nature is all he wants. There is so much to do at home, but I prefer to walk.

"Tante, leave your mama for a second. This is me now also going to Bandung."

At that time I also drove the car, with the children and Tina, to pick up mom to Bandung.

Mama's answer was simple when I asked why mama to Bandung did not say anything.

"Just to Bandung, close by. Mama can be alone!"

Ahh mama never thought that we were worried about her situation.

Yes, I spent a lot of days taking care of Anto's family. On the sidelines of my own work, of course.

I never complained.

Even I am grateful, I have a lot of skills. There is so much work I can do from home.

"Don't think of that at home," so I often said.

"Just work, if you have to think about the affairs at home, the work will be disrupted. At home my business."

That's what I say so often.

"Can you?"

"It can be calm!"

Anto doesn't need to know how troublesome I am. Anto should be comfortable at home.

His work taking care of the project had been very mind-blowing.

Anto is emotional, especially when dealing with Alyza and mama.

Anto still often blames his papa for everything that happened to Alyza.

He does notice Lyza but he is also very hard on Lyza's treatment.

Behind his harsh nature, Anto is a weak man who only tries to adjust his baktinya to the elderly.

And also be a protector to us, me and my children.

Anto who every month makes damaged cars because they can't wait to drive.

Or with his temperament that is difficult to tolerate.

He's just a man who lacks the affection of his mother's father.

Should I be angry? With its hard nature.

Should I leave him because he can't give up responsibility for his family.

No, I've always believed, a beautiful pearl in the deep sea.

Anto, my man, who if his emotions are not restrained in our debate.

She's more willing to slam tens of millions worth of things than hit me.

Yes, behind all his stubbornness, never even the tip of his index finger dropped by my cheek violently.

Behind his mighty body, his heart held many wounds.

He didn't ask for much, just wanted me to love him without asking.

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