My Story Elfiza Anestasia's

Dusk Together with Grief Pangandaran (Refisi)

Weekend arrives and when the weekend like this is the coolest to watch favorite cartoons for Elfiza, Elfiza has been faithful in front of the television with some snacks in her arms.

"Sweet shift" Judis's pinta came from the side making Elfiza snort because it had to shift.

"Sister Judis did not bother me" Elfiza shuffled to move positions.

"This Sunday you feel at home at the deck" chirped Yudis who made Elfiza's eyebrows linked with a sign of not understanding the meaning of Judis' speech.

"Why is there a problem?" Yanya Elfiza relax

"Ga too, just usually that girl likes the name hang out" replied Judis.

"I'm not interested in that "reply Elfiza.

"Eh deck do you think Leo is handsome?" ask fishing Elfiza.

" B, aja" said Elfiza casually

"Csss..B aja - B aja ... all the guys you say are ordinary just continue what you consider special is rich?" Inquired.

"Ga tau .. already do not mate - mate I mulu" said Elfiza toilet because she knew the direction of the conversation Judis her brother was not far from the matchmaker for her.

"Ihhhh .. You are not a familiar seneng ama temen - temen brother who is upset" chirped Yudis who made a line of cynical smiles from Elfiza.

"What pieces? ugly yes" replied Elfiza casually.

"Aisssss... ni child continues to want to jomlo aja ampe when the deck?" Judis asked, only Elfiza answered with silence.

"What the hell Dis are you harepin from our little sister this one there is no "clear Yudha who came out of nowhere but immediately upset Elfiza.

"What a terrible thing about Yudha" said Elfiza.

"Dek .. if you absrud rich so let alone the Yudis who said you are ugly that the big sister campus cat will not be the same you deck " ledek Yudha.

"Opaan deh .. usually judit aja "sumpul Elfiza.

"Change the deck so that there is a decetin "add Judis more tempting.

"Power rangger kali ahhhh changed .. udahaa disturb aja deh" said Elfiza.

'Again on why it's my two brothers are very rich end - the end of this my soul mate... rich I don't do aja issss.

"The essence of my sister" jahil Yudha spoke as he poked Elfiza's chin

"Ihhhhh .. Don't bother me. From last week I was bullied mulu same brother until I could not focus on my spectacle" protested Elfiza.

"Dihhh.. the most important spectacle is just a cartoon" replied Yudis.

"Ihhh .. it is important for me..ah ahhhhh if you just want to disturb mending go away deh you" Elfiza pushed on her two brothers.

"Dih, it has started to behave the same as his two brothers who played throw away" said Yudha

"There is also a brother of Yudha and a brother of Yudis who is disobedient as well as disturbing the arts of his brother mulu" obviously Elfiza made Yudha and Yudis gawk just spelled as bad as hell and a line of semyum carved on both lips of the young man.

"Because, you don't like Leo, he's a handsome guy?" Judis asked about Leo to his brother.

"Emang brother thinks love is just about handsome, not brother. because the handsome is not necessarily not giving sorrow." explained Elfiza a little softly his last sentence made Yudha and Judis so silent.

"Magian wonder how his sister's sister still in high school gini want to be betrothed - soul mate mulu" said Elfiza confused.

"The color of your style that is as good as we fear you do not practice the deck, and even worse if you are thought to be a man "wicked Yudha.

"Apaaaaaa.. isss apan deh ngeselin really" cried Elfiza who successfully made bi Mina who tangah cleaning the living room until caught - gopoh approached them.

"Aunty think neng El why - why" said bi Mina hawatir.which made the three men crygengesan and apologized.

***

Pangandaran beach is still the same as before, different hail the arrival of Elfiza to that place alone without her, if in the past Elfiza was always with her whenever she wanted to see the sunsat on the beach pangandaran.

Today is still a weekend for Elfiza because it is a holiday after class yesterday, so Elfiza decided to take a vacation in the field.

"Hemmmmmm... it's been a long time jam taste" muttered Elfiza quietly.

"Beautiful not the sunsat?"

"God willing" said Elfiza surprised because she remembered only alone here, who was the voice just now?

"Shock ya sory deh" replied the knight who managed to make him shocked, suddenly Elfiza turned her head and she was really made shocked by the knight.

'Why should I see you again anyway' Inner Elfiza says.

"Well?" Elfiza asked finally after she could regain control of herself.

"Ga thought I could meet you here, I think I haven't been able to see you since that day" said Nano slightly trembling.

Elfiza remained silent not answering any of Nano's words, she was forcing her heart to no longer tremble.

"Where is Loe now? I mean where do you live now? Why did you move my bill? Am I not important to you? I miss Loe El, what's my miss?" A series of questions were thrown from Nano's mouth from reasonable to unreasonable according to Elfiza.

The tightness that narrowed his chest felt when Nano asked him if he was no longer important to Elfiza? Does Elfiza miss him? All felt slicing his heart back into this accidental meeting also opened up again the old heart scratches that were not yet closed perfectly.

"Wherever I am now I am obviously happy, without loe!" tanda Elfiza.

"Loe's happy without me that means you've missed me?" Tanya Nano said there was pain in her heart and hoped it was all a lie if the idol would not forget her until anytime, she said, now Nano knows his love for Elfiza and Nadin is just a mistake for him, but unfortunately the mistake was fatal.

"Did you love me again El?" tanya Nano who successfully turned the view of Elfiza towards him, looking at the man who does not know himself, talking about his love.

'Screaming El, I slap I bent I, I snapped I, I should be relieved El don't torture yourself like this just because of me. I love you El, I love you the same loe but I realize my mistakes are too big to accept, I just want to loe lebuapin emotions loe El because since that day you are not the loe you used to be, and now I do not know the existence of loe where' Inner Nano ngoceh.

"Loe ask my love for you? ask that to yourself Nan! you ask me to miss you? Ask yourself Lo Nan!" obviously Elfiza, Nano just silently looked at the girl who meant so much to him who had once been present in his life, but was destroyed instantly because of his ego.

"Gue is happy without loe, I am happy without love loe and without miss loe, love loe miss loe and everything about loe for me is just Nan's dream" Elfiza paused her speech to let out her chest tightness.

"The beautiful dream that I have to swallow when morning comes!" Added.

"It's beautiful whatever it is if the form is only a dream can never be realized Nan, and I am aware of it so I've forgotten that dream every step of my way " the Elfiza toilet came back as it passed away from before Nano.

It is difficult to be close to people who still have a meaningful place in their lives, Nano did not approach but did not move away for him he was the widest in the life of Elfiza makes Elfiza as if helpless and tormented continue every step in his life.

'Why Nan why is it so painful for lupain loe? Why is it so hard to throw this taste out, you ask me to miss you yes I am a hypocrite and a loser who can't talk out loud that I still have that longing for you and still keep the love for loe' inner elfiza screaming.

He wanted to feel like he was screaming and spilling everything but he realized it was no longer useless because everything had happened and could not be changed again nor can it be repaired again that there is only the past just to be remembered.

After that afternoon Elfiza decided to go home to Lembangnya night because she did not want to meet Nano even her friends were murmuring as if they were not willing Elfiza to go even those who initially would visit and stay at Elfiza's house while she's here, it's just a plan.

"Loe seriously want to turn this tea over again El time?"Ask Yunia who never thought the same all the strange behavior of her best friend.

"Yes I'm serious" answered Elfiza briefly

"Crazy ya loe, I've called bang Tigor first deh let anter loe go home" said Sri.

"Do I can myself this is already malem kasian bang Tigor later he turned it again how?" Ask Elfiza.

"Well that's you know it's too late, why maksa go home anyway? thinking of my brother behind it how while loe ga think of yourself loe behind the mallem - malem loe kan women El ..Aging" Sri asserted who began to emotion.

"Look on I can take care of myself" replied Elfiza reassuring her friends not to worry.

"Loe's sure? This problem is too bad for El women" explained Zia trying to persuade Elfiza .

"Gue sure" said Elfiza steady.

"Ga exclaiming loe mah I defend coming home from Jakarta despite my college break that three days later but for the sake of loe I was willing to miss class but loenya even unplugged" said Yunia disappointed.

"Sory deh ka dory but this is really urgent" said Elfiza felt bad for her best friend, but he could not if he had to linger - long in this place if he still could not make peace with his heart.

"Is mom or dad sick?" Ask Zia because Elfiza did not tell the reason for her sudden return.

"It's not about that father is a good mother" replied Elfiza.

"Well why hunt back?" Ask Sri.

"There's a problem that I have to go yesterday and it's not possible to hunt if I come back tomorrow morning and sory I can't tell the problem whether I hope you guys understand ya" pinta Elfiza lied, not entirely lying because for him the feeling of the heart that is not over is also the problem.

"Ok if that is but inget yes we are for you whenever you need "sri said while hugging Elfiza and followed by Zia and Yunia

"Thank gust and sory, I can't help you guys" Elfiza said.

"No problem say. we know ko whenever you are ready to make our story always stay ko" replied Yunia, who was taken by her two friends.

"Loe heart - heart in our news - we if we have arrived, this is the last bus to Lembang and do not fall asleep on the road" explained Zia

Zi is indeed the best for any business like a second mother for them but it does not matter to them, what else Elfiza has experience not wearing when daik public transportation, the more chatty she is.

"Ready boss .. I left first ya see you "part Elfiza while waving and getting on the bus. Although there was fear in his heart for returning to public transportation and this time he was only alone, but how else he still had to go home tonight.

"See you" said her three best friends doing the same thing Elfiza did.

Yunia, Zia and Sri knew that night something was going on between Elfiza and Nano because they knew that Elfiza told her that she was on the beach before returning home.

It must have something to do but they chose to be silent and did not want to ask if Elfiza herself was not ready to tell a story, if Elfiza was ready she would tell her own story.

'Gue did not expect that if my return to pangandaran even delivered my sorrow into a wound so sweet back open, it still feels the same Nan sick' Inner Elfiza

TBC...