
“What the fuck is this…? Why cherry flowers fall beautifully. The shadow of them that had walked with me why did I not see him again? Aaah... Have I really been in another realm? Am I dead? Why did my shirt turn white like this? Didn't I just wear a t-shirt and training pants under my knees? Aah... What is this place? Why is it so beautiful? Why do I feel the wind slapping all over my skin?” i wondered.
I look around. This is not the garden I went through while with Mi-Yun and the others earlier. It was like I was on a hill. I faintly heard the sound of waves rhythmically beating each other. The occasional sound of seagulls squealing seemed to make it clear that I was on a hill with a beach below.
I walked down the path to the left right in orange grass flowers. I walked according to my instincts carrying my footsteps. I approached the cliff face, I was just convincing you what this place is. I have never seen such a beautiful place before either in Indonesia or Korea. Is this really called heaven?
Warm sunlight hits my cheeks. I faintly saw a man standing facing the open sea. Her clothes are white like mine. From behind I know that back. Aaah... Am I currently dreaming of meeting a blurry-faced prince? Why is my heart beating in rhythm but much faster than before? This is the moment I've been waiting for. Why is my brain working normally? Why do I remember everything that ever happened. It seems like my heart says I know this man very well. I slowly moved my feet closer to him.
I steadied my heart to ascertain whether I could really or did not see his face at this moment. I have to make sure and not forget it when I wake up from this dream. When the distance from the back was not too far away, I saw the back move around. This time my heart stopped beating. Ah... that face... Why did that face become so clear? Now I really see that face.
“Ricka-ya.. You came?” the sound really went into both of my ear holes.
He walked his feet closer to me. I was surprised when he hugged me tightly.
Ah... What is this feeling? Why do I like this hug so much?
Like the hug I've been getting in my dreams with the blurry-faced prince before. I listened to the same heartbeat as I did. Rhythmic but feels faster than usual. Her breath that was cold between my unraveled hair.
“I miss you..” said the figure.
“What are you... all this time that came in my dreams?” tanyaku.
I felt a soft caress over my head.
“Yaa... What's wrong with you? Why are you suddenly asking that? Didn't we always play to this place from when we were kids?” the figure looked at me with a piercing look inside.
“Who are you?” I scrunched my forehead.
“You don't know me?” he asked and slowly took off his hand which from earlier was holding my upper arm.
“How can you not know me? Though almost every day I come to your dreams.” asked the figure and turned his body back towards the open ocean.
“Iya... I've been with you for years..” He still hasn't seen me.
“Aah. So all this time..You're the man I've always dreamed of?”
“Ya.. can I make sure you never dream of another man other than me and your father.” said the person claiming Yoon-Jin.
“How can…? We have never met before, but why have we met in a dream?”
“That's destiny that binds me with you..”.
I took a few steps back from where I was standing. “Ah...what the hell is this? Is this just a hallucination? So... My feelings for Andra that I thought had always been in my dreams turned out not to be him…? Aah...why did I suddenly get dizzy.” I held my head. A flash of pieces after pieces of shadow from those dreams appeared. I saw myself who was only a dozen years old at the time and the man I thought Andra had changed face with Yoon-Jin who still looked very young.
Aah.real right. Why do I remember it now? Why after waking up from my dream all changed as if Andra was the one in my dream? All this time I considered my feelings towards Andra to be a feeling of love because Andra was the one who always appeared in my dreams. And it turns out it wasn't him! What kind of destiny is this? Why is it that with just a fleeting dream, destiny is so changeable? God is truly Almighty.
He turned his body and grabbed my hand. Her warm hand was holding me in the opposite direction from the edge of the cliff. We're headed to a place I know very well. Under a big tree. The place I used to meet my dream lover who I thought was Andra and now it turns out to be Yoon-Jin.
“Ricka-ya.. This is our last meeting here..” said the voice. Instantly I looked at his face. I don't know why my tears are still flowing.
“Why? Have we not been together for years? Why do you call this our last meeting?” I held the back of his hand. I don't know here I feel free to hold that figure. I'm sure this can't happen when it's real.
“Be assured, we will be reunited at a wonderful time..,” Yoon-Jin said as she hugged me from the side. Ah. I remember this hug. Like a hug while riding the elevator in Namsan Tower.
“But... I don't want to part with you right now. I don't know why, I don't want to get out of my sleep. Aah... Did I fall asleep earlier? Didn't I remember being bitten by a snake in the garden for protecting Yoon-Jin? Ah... Am I dead? Then why is Yoon-Jin here? Where could he have fallen asleep too?” my whiskey.
“Isssh... You must return immediately..,” said the figure.
“Andwee. I want to be here with you!” I hugged him tightly.
“I will always be with you. but not here, we will be reunited in a more beautiful place.” He looked at me deeply. Why is that look so different when I see it in real life? I really like Yoon-Jin here. Warm and friendly, not in cold and creepy real life.