MY HUSBAND'S HEART IS NOT MINE

Am I Wrong?

Arumi was breastfeeding her daughter when Yudha came.

"Where does Rum call always get rejected?" arumi asked when she saw her husband coming.

"Yes, work" he answered.

"This is our child born" added Arumi.

"Udah knows you've seen it too" he replied. Then he went into the bathroom.

Arumi had no idea that Yudha would say that. She chose not to continue her words, chose silence and continued to breastfeed her daughter.

Arumi's thoughts were chaotic at the moment, could it be my husband? the question was back in his mind. But he kept trying to contain his anger.

Yudha came out of the bathroom in a casual dress. Directly take his phone, play it, without wanting to see the face of the princess. Confused Arumi what to say.

Arumi moved from her seat. Very carefully, walk to the crib and put the baby there. Then she approached her husband, sat down next to him and asked, "Are you tired?" ask Arumi carefully.

"What a crew!" answer Yudha ketus. Like sick of the woman who gave him these two children.

"Sorry" said Arumi. He chose to leave from his seat and leave Yudha. Not what, just avoiding the commotion.

"Rum, I want to say something" Yudha said.

Arumi stopped her steps. Then turn around and step back into place.

"What are you talking about?" ask Arumi as gently as possible.

"I'm sorry about Rum before, but I'm sure you're not stupid" said Yudha began to open the desire signals she had in her mind.

"Well, by the way!" reply Arumi waiting.

"I want to get rid of this Rum." I heard Yudha breathing deeply.

"What's the air, Mas?" tanya Arumi is still trying to dismiss the prejudice that some days haunt him.

"I'm sure you remember that I told you that I couldn't love you. You can only have my body, but not my heart. I married you just because my mom likes you. Now I'm tired of Rum pretending to be nice to you and I'm sick of my life" Yudha said. His eyes stared straight at the ceiling of their room.

Arumi glanced at the husband's face for a moment. He saw the tears of Yudha dripping a sign that she was saying what her heart was feeling. Arumi was seen taking a deep breath. As a sign that his heart is sick.

"Yes Mas, Rum remembers mas once said that. I'm sorry I thought I accepted our wedding. Remembering ... She was so nice to me and touched me. To perform my duties as a husband. Sorry if I was wrong all this time," replied Arumi trying as much as possible to hold tightness in her chest so as not to shed her naughty tears.

"I'm good to you because I realize I'm your husband Rum. I just wanted to do my duty as a husband and it was my mother's son who kept pushing me because he wanted a grandchild from me. Now that he has earned his happiness, and I'm tired of having to be a good, obedient boy, blame me if I want to choose?" asked Yudha with a hoarse voice. Like I've been enduring pain for a long time.

Arumi realized now how much tormented Yudha was living with her.

"Are you mad at me Rum?" ask Yudha again.

Arumi smile. Not showing the slightest bit of sadness. He wanted to show Yudha that she was a strong and strong woman. Arumi you can definitely, this inner ayu woman, encourage herself.

"Yes no Mas, why am I angry. After all, from the beginning, I told you that you can't love me. Our position is the same again. Rum wants to return the favor. I want to make her mom happy. Our relationship is not based on love. It is natural that it should be destroyed. I'm not pa-pa. It's just relaxing. What I want is always honest, whether it's me, my son or Mas himself" Arumi said. Smile again, God wants to until when you try hard.

"Rum, I'm tired" Yudha said again, beginning to complain.

"Rest me if you are tired. Do not force your body and mind to work. Let me and my baby sleep in my brother's room" said Arumi, soft as usual. If to be honest this is just an excuse it seems like he just wants to avoid Yudha and deny her the tightness of his chest.

Yudha also did not forbid the wife to leave their room. Not even seeing them come out and Arumi's pain realized that. Realized that Yudha really did not want it.

***

In the son's room, Arumi vented all the tightness that attacked his chest. Crying and contemplating everything that had happened to her all this time.

The shadow of his dark past flashed. How he watched his mother being beaten by his father. Expelled from home by carrying her. Arumi is afraid that the reality will happen to her and her children.

Arumi wiped away the tears, when she heard that the door to her room was opened by someone. Arumi tries to keep quiet because he knows that Yudha is the man who managed to hurt him.

"Why hasn't Rum slept?" ask Yudha.

Is your heart dead Mas, how can I sleep if my fate is on the edge of this horn, Arumi's mind is crowded.

"The need to change diapers is adek, Mas," replied Arum lying. This woman is seen trying to cover her face with her long hair.

"Did you give him a name?" asked Yudha, Arumi shook her head.

"Why?"

Oh God is my husband really blind, God. Had we never meant anything to her, Arumi screamed sadly.

"I think he still has abi, later if I'm of love, afraid of being wrong," replied Arumi. Slowly but the word really has such a meaning. If the person being spoken to has a sense of.

"If you would love me, give me Rum a thought" replied Yudha again.

"Yes later Rum love!" reply Arumi. Refusing to argue with someone who has closed his eyes. He then decided to move from his seat and continue his work. Tidied up her daughter's clothes and put them in a small bag she had brought from the main room.

Yudha kept watching what his wife was doing. Why in the corner of his heart, there was a hint of pity on the woman who these seven years had endured beside him. Arumi has never demanded anything from her. Whatever he commanded was always well done, but he also wanted to choose, he wanted to also live with his love.

Am I wrong? inner Yudha.

Seriate....