My Doctor My soul mate
My brother's hatred
This morning I arrived in India. My desire is growing to meet my mother soon. I was going to see my mother at the hospital, but Jevan forced me to pick me up and drive me there, and I agreed. Jevan was waiting for me at the airport before I got there, and he took his car. It is not enough just to walk pretty and slow for me, at this time my feet must step quickly and swiftly. Whether because of the rush or indeed I was careless, I stumbled and fell to the floor. Everyone sees me, but let me not care. Instead of helping, instead of looking carefully, it has cultivated once huh. Fortunately, my suitcase was light and easy to carry, so I was able to hurry. In front of the airport, I saw Jevan there. He was pacing around indistinctly, but I became more and more worried about it. I went to Jevan and took him to the hospital.
“Jev, sorry yes I lama.” Suddenly sapaku.
“Yuri? Already come.” Answer Jevan.
“Ayo departing, fast yes Jev.” I said as I got into Jevan's car.
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Without answering my request, Jevan got into the car to drive it. He's very sensitive to the people around him, which is what makes me comfortable around Jevan. When we got in the car, I just told Jevan to drive at high speed. My feelings were mixed, anxiety and worry were always on my mind. Jevan, knowing I was so anxious, tried to calm me down and his face looked very serious. During the journey I just prayed, prayed, and prayed. Jevan was focused on driving his car.
“Jev, my mom must be fine right?” Ask suddenly.
“Yuri, that's for sure.”
“I'm sorry, because it's all my fault. I let your mother take another cab, not the same one. I'm so sorry, Yuri.” Jevan.
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“At that time, your mother said she would go straight to your sister without going back home first. He said his son was the most important, and I couldn't do anything about it. I can't force your mother to come with me.” And Jevan again.
“Iya, Jev. It's okay, it's not your fault kok.” I said slowly.
“That time I saw your mother talking to the taxi driver, like I wanted to hurry. What is it why?” Ask Jevan.
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After 30 trips to the hospital, Jevan and I finally got there.
“Come, Jev. Hurry along! Where's the room?” My toot.
“Say your mother is still in ER.” Jevan.
“Not moved from yesterday?” My toot.
“But.”
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Right now I'm in the dean of the ER room, in the room standing my father and my brother as well. I went to those who were crying hysterically. I wonder what really happened. I felt worse seeing my father and my brother crying, it felt like my heart was tearing him apart. My father was standing next to my mother, and so was my brother. They clasped my mother's hand tightly, crying.
“Daddy...kakak.. mother.... why?” My toot.
“Yuri!!!!....” Shouted my father.
My brother doesn't care about my whereabouts.
“Your mother, son...your mother..” My father's words with tears.
“Iya, dad.. yes...” I said while shedding tears.
“Your mother has left us..” My father said sad.
Whahuh? What does my father mean? Gone off? No, it's impossible!
“What do you mean dad?” My toot.
“Your mother is gone, son.” Java my father.
My knees were weak, and I immediately approached my mother and hugged her tightly. Is this the answer to everything that happened in me before? I'm devastated, I'm sorry, I'm no longer a child in my life, why would I let my mother go home alone? I'm stupid! I'm weak! I am a useless child! !!!!!!!! I'm sorry!!!!!!
“Ibuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” I screamed hysterically.
“Yuri, release my mother!” Shouted brother.
“Kakak..”.
“You are not a mother's child! It's all because of you! Get you out of here! I'm so sick of seeing your face!” Brother said.
“Kak, don't.. I want to be next to mom.” My answer.
“You caused all this mess, so why are you here! You see all this? This is what you do, you fucking bearer!!” Shouted my brother again.
“Calvin, already son! It's not good to fight in front of your mother! It's silent!” My father's upset.
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My brother's anger stopped after my father got angry and there was a hospital attendant coming. They're gonna take my mom home, for a night out. I didn't expect any of this to happen, but it was only five days that I was still with my mother, joking with my mother, and driving her to the airport with Mina. It turned out that all the messages he had told me before were the last words of my mother, it was fitting that she was behaving like never before, that day she was different, that she seemed to talk a lot and that was very detailed to me. I'm so sorry I haven't had the time to give something to boast about for my mother, I'm still so dependent on her and spoiled. I still want to meet him and live with him, my God. I haven't had time to thank him because all this time always makes my mother hassles take care of me, take care of me, and treat me everywhere.
These tears continued to flow profusely, flowing, without knowing the purpose. We are now on our way to my house. I was with Jevan, because if I went with my father and brother, it would make a scene again. God, I don't believe in any of this! Help me!
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My mother's funeral is over, but right now it seems like I still want to be here, near my mother. Everyone has left me, my father, and my brother. I was so hard to let go of my mother, so heavy. I can't imagine if every day I live without a mother, very empty for sure. Usually he prepares me breakfast, gives me medicine, tidies my room, prepares my clothes, and much more. My eyes are puffy, because I cry continuously. My brother just recently I saw him cry, usually never, it turns out he loved mother very much even though all this time he likes to fight.
“In a minute, yeah? Yuri still wants to be here.” Reply slowly.
“You don't care about mom, Yuri. Are you happy with all this?” Ask my sister upset.
“Kak, not like that. Yuri loves mom very much, Yuri really wants to continue to be near mom.” I said.
“Halah! It's bullshit! You always make mommy a problem. See what the consequences are now?” Brother said.
“Already done, Yuri, Calvin. Let's go home, let your mom settle down in nature there huh?” Ask dad.
“Iya father.”
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Standing in front of my mom's big picture is what I do right now. The house that was usually very warm and a lot of touch from my mother is now on the contrary, very quiet and empty. My father was probably calming himself in the room, and so was my brother. Today I am very tired, it feels like my energy will soon run out. Not long after I sat on the sofa in front of the television, Jevan came to my house. He tried to calm me down again, he was very attentive. Because Jevan was near me, I tried to tell him what I was feeling, about everything I was going through right now. Right now I really need a good listener, who can listen to me with all the bitter things that I experience. Maybe Jevan is the right person right now, because I already consider him my brother.
“Jev, thank you for being near me and accompanying me. You are the best.” I said.
“Iya, Yuri. I'm happy to help you, especially if you're near.” Jevan said with a smile.
“Now I've lost one person who loved me so much, I'm sad Jev.” I said slowly.
“Yes, I understand how you feel right now. But you should pay attention to your health yes, Yuri.” Jevan.
“I'm fine, Jev. I just miss, miss my mom. Though she just left me, but I miss her so much.” My answer.
“Iya. Have you eaten?” Ask Jevan.
“Let's go, Jev.”
“Eat first huh? You will be sick.” Said Jevan again.
“No, Jev. I have no lust at all.” Answer's short.
“I know you are grieving, but at least eat a little, yes even if only a mouthful. I'll get it, okay? Would you like a glass of milk and bread?” Ask Jevan.
“Not bother, Jev. Later on, yeah?” My toot.
“Ya. If you want to eat, just call me?” Ask Jevan.
“Iya.”
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“Make what, Jev? Why care about this kid?” Appoint my brother who came suddenly.
“Kakak?” My toot.
“You don't get close to him, Jev. That's better! He's just an unlucky carrier, wants to be close to him.” Brother said.
“Kak, I know calvin's brother is angry with Yuri. But he's not wrong, brother. He was also very hit with this incident.” Jevan clear.
“You want to defend Yuri. Jevan... Jevan..” Sahut.
“What is this storm? Calvin, don't blame Yuri. He has nothing to do with all this.” Father said.
“Dad too. From the beginning I told you that Yuri can only trouble father and mother, but defended her.” Sahut.
“Kak, what exactly is my fault with you? I don't think I ever made you angry because of me, but why did this happen? Brother knows no? I came back to Indonesia because of my sister. So mom came home in a hurry for brother, at that time brother was in trouble. It's all for brother's sake, mom cares about you a lot brother. Martial mother takes a taxi in a hurry and in the end accidents.” I'm upset.
My brother fell silent and thought, then he went to his room.
“Yuri, have you? Don't mind your brother. And Jevan, sorry about that. Please accompany Yuri huh?” Ask dad.
“Iya uncle, it's okay. I am ready to accompany Yuri here.” Answer Jevan.
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“Jev, sorry? Because of me, you're following.” I said.
“Cause. I've been used to seeing events like that, my father and mother also often quarrel.” Answer Jevan.
“Oh yes, you should rest Yuri. You need that too.” Added Jevan.
“Yes already, I want to go to the room first huh? It's okay, right?” My toot.
“Iya. I'm going home too. Don't be too burdened by your brother's words huh?” Ask Jevan again.
“Iya, thanks ya.” I said.
“Iya.”
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