Me, Him, And God

8. Painful test 2

(Airina)

I observed the two hospital beds that were quite heartbreaking to my heart. Remembering what happened the other day, which was the worst day for me. Two very meaningful people in my life, now just lying weak. Her body is with me, but her tribe? I can't find his whereabouts. The two hands that were piled on the stomach, as well as the several hoses that stuck to his hands and nose, were enough to make my heart even more sliced. My eyes were glazed over, I could not help but hold back the tears that often approached me every second of my time.

I leaned my back against the back of the chair as my head looked up at the sky.

"I won't let that man survive!" My parents were full of revenge on the three robbers who had injured both of my parents.

I walked over and approached my parents in the hospital bed. I shifted the chair between the two beds.

"Well, Mama must wake up" I said with a faint smile while holding her white hand and sticking a hose infusion.

I turned my chair to face my father, and of course turned my back to my mother.

"Bah, Papah has to wake up. He said. Would you like to see Alina pray?" I wiped my tears for a moment.

"Father still want not when little Alina, Papa often buyin Alina bubble toy.

Later if Papa has healed, Alina wants to play bubbles again Papah.

Alina will keep Alina's promise that time."

I was still observing his stomach that kept going up and down in turns.

Cclack

The door of this room was open, but I ignored it.

"De. eat first well," the voice of a man who was none other than my brother.

I turned my body for a moment, I saw in his left hand a white crackle bag.

I turned my eyes back, and immediately turned my body.

Brother Fian just sighed heavily, he then walked towards the sofa which was located not far from the hospital bed.

He put a bag of crackles next to his seat, I could feel that he was watching me.

I just came up to Fian on the couch. I have to respect his actions, whatever they are. Then I sat down next to him.

"Sister? It seems.. Brother Fian looks okay to see Mama and Papa with the current condition?" I asked without looking at his face.

"Who said?" Ask her ketus

"Yes..."

"Denger yes de. Brother kayak gini, it does not mean Brother can not cry like you. Brother is trying to dampen Brother's emotions. And it's not easy de. If you keep crying, and you cry too, who will calm one of them?"

His words were indeed true, but I was so adamant to know his current state of heart.

"The cry of a woman, does not signify her heart is weak, her heart is fragile. But all because his heart is soft and still hearty.

And a strong man, one day he will cry. Men and women are not opponents worth fighting. Each type, has a different spirit. You should know it's Lin!" His voice raised his voice.

My heart praises his fortitude for facing such a test that I cannot pass. I was quite amazed at the explanation, but I pretended not to understand.

"There is no perfect life. When someone says it, he's on top of success,"

"God! That's the caption in my novel: my protest is upset. How come? The words he said just now, I already used them in one of my novel books titled 'SUCCESS'.

"Ahahhaha," he just laughed softly looking at the look on my upset face looking at him.

"Udah already, this is eating," he took a box of food in his bag of crackles, then thrust it to me.

I opened the food box I was holding. From the aroma alone, it has made my stomach increasingly rumbling.

I felt the hospital bed that I was sleeping in, resting on the pedestal of both my hands suddenly as if shaken. I saw my mother feel something that made her move her whole body and with a very fast and audible breath. My mother woke up from her coma after two days. But in terrible conditions.

"Mahs.. Mama why? Brother Fiannnnn!" I was so panicked that I unintentionally raised my voice and made Brother Fian, who was sleeping soundly on the hospital couch, wake up from my screams.

He came straight to me.

Brother Fian was the same as me, from the look on his face was described as an extraordinary panic. My mother is like someone who is short of breath, her chest goes up and down with a very fast duration.

Brother Fian did not stay for long, he immediately came out to call the Doctor.

Shortly after, Fian came with a male Doctor whose age was quite twilight and his assistant who was a Nurse.

The doctor immediately checked my mother's condition, then he asked me and Brother Fian to wait outside.

I can only obey her and wait with my brother outside the ward.

My heart was pounding, my legs were shaking violently, and my cold sweat had started to drench the area of my face.

Likewise with Brother Fian, he was just pacing around with the same severed breath as me.

"Sasmita's Mother's Family?" A nurse came out of my Mom and Dad's room.

"Where's sus?" Asked Brother Fian with great worry.

"Sorry, I.. Mother.." Every sentence that came out of her mouth was often cut off, making me very irritated.

"Ohhhhhh!" Brother Fian ignored the nurse's words earlier, he went straight into the ward and I followed him from behind.

"Mamaaaaaaaaaa"

I immediately hugged my mother who was still in a terrible condition.

He opened his eyes and wanted to say something.

I grabbed her hand and held her tight.

"A..Alina, meet Mama in heaven, son" she said in a very weak tone.

I just shook my head, my heart was getting worse.

"Kratso,.. Mama tipped Alina," she said again as she coughed holding her breath which became more and more heavy.

Brother Fian did not say anything, he only dripped a few times clear liquid from both of his eye fertilizers.

"Ashha-du an laa-ilaaha illallaahu, wa asyhadunna muhammadar rasuulullah," my mother had thrown a few sentences from her mouth with a voice cut off and very weak. And also helped by Doctor and Brother Fian to say that sentence. I don't understand what he said just now. I just kept holding her hand tightly, her eyes often staring blankly.

Her lips were pale, certainly adding to my worries.

Then after my mother said that sentence, her eyes slowly closed, and her breath was no longer heard. I saw a heart detector called ECG was flat and did not look bumpy anymore.

"Sister Fian? Mama's not papa, is she?" Ask me who really hopes that this is just my sleeping flower.

I saw Doctor, Nurse, and Brother Fian just looking down while sighing softly.

"Maaaaa wake up Ma.. Mama why stay in Alina, Mama does not love Alina!" My tears broke, I could not hold my tears anymore. A few times my tears were dripping over her hand that was folded over my mother's belly.

Brother Fian just held his forehead and there was a sound of sobs coming out of his mouth.

"Sorry Mas, maybe we have to pull out the hoses attached to the body of Ms. Sasmita. Fear, it will make it more difficult for him," said the Doctor with a very concerned face.

I don't care what he says, I just keep crying over what's going on right now.

Brother Fian immediately grabbed me on the chest of his field, he gently rubbed my hair with his two burly hands.

Rabbana atina fiddunya hasanah wa fil endoti hasanah waqina 'adzabannar

Now the people who were at my mother's funeral have left her one by one. I just sat down beside my mother's headstone shrouded in deep sorrow.

Brother Fian just grabbed my shoulder while slightly rubbing it.

"Sir Andi?!" Call me to a bespectacled man standing next to Brother Fian.

"Yes non?"

"I don't want this to end here" I said, wiping tears violently.

Pak Andi and Kak Fian just stared at each other.

"None good,"

a short-haired woman, entered the ward of both my parents.

Brother Fian immediately greeted her, then invited the woman to sit beside me.

"Lin." she said softly while hugging me tightly. I didn't return her arms, my tears spilled, even though I tried to hold her back.

"Lin. I'm sorry well, I didn't come after aunt Sasmita's funeral,"

"Dad,"

"Sister? Keep going, where are you sleeping?"

"In the meantime, I'm the same Alina sleeps here. Nemenin Papa La's. Because the police are looking for evidence around TKP," said Kak Fian.

I got off the couch.

"Actually, the evidence doesn't need to be searched for,"

Brother Fian and Dela just looked at me confused

Tok tok tok tok

Mr. Andi opened the door of the ward, and walked in haste.

Sontak Kak Fian and Dela immediately stood up to witness the arrival of Pak Andi.

"Den.. The police have found some evidence" he said with a breath of breath.

"That's a knife?" I asked in a cynical tone. Brother Fian, Dela, and Pak Andi suddenly turned their bodies to face me simultaneously.

"I-iya non, non already know?"

"Ck, I think they're too stupid,"

I left all three of them.

I looked for a moment at my father's bed, then back up my legs. Several times Dela called out to me, but Brother Fian tried to prevent it.

When sad, I always go to the bridge near the cafe farmala. Because that's where I can feel the calm.

The wind blew away a few strands of my blonde hair. Some of them hit my sad face.

"When I jump in there, all this will end?" I muttered while staring at the sparkle of water down there while sighing heavily.

The cold air tonight is able to puncture the joints of my bones. Moreover, my body is only wrapped in lavender-colored knee-length dres, with long hands but made of thin, even very transfaran. I rubbed my arms so I could warm my body a little more.

"Alina," the voice of a man broke my daydream. I immediately looked back.

I saw Mr. Tio standing behind me.

He thrust a flat object at me, then I immediately accepted and without touching his arm.

"Thank you, sir" I said as I smiled a faint smile. I turned back to face Mr. Tio.

I have always met my Lecturer when I am sad. I don't know what that means.

Mr. Tio put his navy blue suit on my body without putting my arm in his sleeve.

Now my hair that had been long, became a little hindered by the suit given by Mr. Tio.

"Sir, it has been. do not increase the quantity of the suit of the Father in my house," I wrote to Mr. Tio while turning my body to face him. Mr. Tio just chuckled watching my angry facial expression.

"I also have not returned the father's suit at that time," I connect, then I straighten my body again facing the span of the bridge I was sitting on.

"Are you not feeling cold?" She asked with a flat face and slightly raised her thick eyebrows.

"Didn't you miss your house?"

"You kicked me out?"

"Bu-not like that sir, but.."

"How are your parents doing?" Ask her to divert the conversation.

"My father is still in a coma, and my mother is already dead" I shed my tears when I remembered my mother.

Mr. Tio immediately turned to face me, he felt guilty for having offended me earlier. His intention was only to question.

"Inallahi. A-Alina.I'm sorry I don't know," she said with a little hesitation.

"But why didn't you call me?" Connect it with a slightly raised voice.

I was just confused while putting my two eyebrows together.

"With this incident, I am increasingly convinced that God is just an illustration,"

"Alina, God (God) always gives tests according to the abilities of his creatures

God always gives a speck of light when you are in darkness."

"Already Sir, you don't need to explain anything to me anymore. Let me be that weed until I die" I said desperately.

"Well, that's okay" he replied, exhaling.

"Then your house?"

"The police have handled it, and this afternoon, the police have found some evidence in the form of knives and knives.

Does he not know, he has already taken away my life force? Does he not know, he has already taken my weak spot?

And does he have no heart, has he hurt or even killed my mother? Does he not feel his sense of being a child? Ap-" I haven't had time to continue my babbling, Mr. Tio immediately put me into his sturdy and tall body. I was so surprised and just rounded my eyes. Smelled his distinctive body scent.

It's just a dream, it's a dream! Awake Alina.

You're just with your sleeping flowers, and the one who's hugging you, he's just my dream friend.

But I didn't wake up soon, I'm sure it wasn't a dream. It's real!

I just cried in her sincere embrace without me replying to her.

"Astagfirullah," cried Mr. Tio and immediately released his embrace and slightly moved away from me. His face looked a little panicked.

"Alina. ma.forgive me. I accidentally," he said then immediately left me without caring about his suit that I was wearing. I just stared at his disappearance. He was walking so fast that it disappeared from my sight.

God, don't get worse

my heart is to trust you.

I doubt you will ever be present in

my life. Convince me of something

who can prove your presence

in destiny.

There is no perfect life. When someone says it, he's on top of his success`).