Me, Him, And God

3. Caffe Farmala

My class is now over, I called Mr. Gusdur not to pick me up.

I was deliberately waiting for someone I wanted to meet in the campus parking lot.

I wiggled indistinctly, the heat of the sun was able to make my blonde hair become limp and feel a bit hot.

Faintly from a distance, I saw someone who was none other than my Lecturer, Mr. Tio.

I immediately ran up to him and stopped his steps.

"Sorry sir, I want to see you now, do you have time?" ask me hesitantly while covering my head with a book.

I looked up a little while talking to him, because his body was tall and athletic in my opinion.

"Mmm actually I will go out for lunch, and after this I will follow closely with the other Lecturers," he replied with narrowed eyes due to the heat of the sun whose color is quite deep yellow.

"I can come, right?" ask me again without shame.

"Alright, come!" reply is short.

The first time I got in Tio's car, and sat next to him.

In my heart, I feel so happy when I'm around him.

I don't know why, and because what.

When near you

My heart is always smiling

I don't know why

And because of what

I could be so.

The feeling that arises in the chest

I want to feel that I revealed

actually was.

"Why can I be like this!" my mind's upset.

I tried to shake off my furry thoughts that were starting to get out of control.

Suana in this car was so quiet, only the sound of the engine was heard.

The conversation did not start, I wanted to feel like I greeted him.

However, I was afraid that I would say anything disrespectful to him.

Moreover, he is my English Lecturer in college, he always reminds me that Atitude is number one at the time every time he teaches, he never tired of reminding it to all students and students.

With that, I chose to be quiet, and to drive away my boredom, I pulled out the apple-branded phone from inside the pocket of the black blazer I was wearing.

"Have you eaten?" ask her.

With reflexes, I immediately turned my head towards her.

"Ahh sir was in the cafeteria" I lied back.

Mr. Tio just nodded his head and his eyes were back focused on driving his car.

Grrrllluuuukkkkkk

Suddenly, the sound of my stomach was heard indicating the worms in it were protesting.

I just swallowed my saliva deeply.

Mr. Tio turned his head towards me while slightly holding back his laughter.

He shook his head while smiling.

I was so upset, my mouth and stomach were so out of discussion.

I try to control my anger.

The shame of course that I am feeling right now for lying to my own Lecturer.

But to be honest, I was a little enamored with the charm of her smile that was visible from the side.

Especially with his nose pointed, ahhh really makes my heart restless.

After a few minutes we were in the car, finally Mr. Tio parked it in a cafe parking lot.

There is written FARMALA CAFE whose writing is quite clearly displayed on the top wall

The cafe itself.

Me and Mr. Tio walked into the cafe, Mr. Tio allowed me to walk in front of him. But I refused, I felt it was disrespectful to me.

So he walked in front of me, while I followed him from behind.

The cafe was dominated by light brown wall paint and cream.

Bright lights that hang and neatly lined up become the attraction of cafe farmala.

Do not forget to also provide a place for photo spots. Which is where, the space is quite small. However, the lights and special chairs that make the room look more beautiful.

The space provided is quite insagrable.

Tables and chairs are neatly arranged and the floor is quite shiny, the waiters are busy delivering orders to each table into one view in the cafe.

Tio and I sat at table no.14

We sat in positions facing each other.

I was nervous enough to make it, I just looked around the cafe to avoid the gaze of Mr. Tio.

He tidied up his shirt collar and turned his sitting position into more comfortable.

"Please sir, buk!" said one of the waiters at the cafe while handing the menu list book to Mr. Tio.

I suddenly rounded my eyes and stared intently at the cafe waiter in annoyance.

How not? my age is quite young, still said buk?.

Oh no, I was out of luck today.

Mr. Tio who looked at me was upset at the cafe waiter, he just smiled.

He continued to choose the menu that would be his lunch meal today.

He chose the seafood fried rice menu with lemon tea. He asked me what menu I would choose.

I just pointed at the ramen mashroom and his drinks were the same as the one Mr. Tio ordered.

"Sorry, I'm still young.

Time called Mom!" my protest at the cafe waiter pursed my lips and folded my hands in front of my chest.

"Oh sorry ma'am, I think the mas and mbak this husband and wife," replied the cafe waiter politely and looked somewhat guilty. Yet I was astonished to see her face that looked like it was satisfied to have humiliated me. Huh!

Me and Tio just stared at each other, and

Of course I was surprised.

I smiled forcefully when I heard the cafe waiter's answer.

I was so ashamed of it, the more my heart would not be able to accommodate my nervousness today.

"He's my student.

it's mas, mas can continue his work," said Mr. Tio casually while allowing the cafe waiter to leave our table.

I really hope that damn cafe waitress gets out of my side.

I was getting clunky with this atmosphere, until I almost forgot my goal to meet Mr. Tio.

I picked up a novel book from inside my backpack which was located under the side of the chair.

"Sorry sir.

My goal is to meet you, I want to return this book of your novel, Father,"

I thrust a book at Mr. Tio, then Mr. Tio took it while looking at me confused.

He asked why his book could be on me.

I just explained that the book had fallen yesterday when Mr. Tio was about to go home in a hurry.

He just nodded and said thank you to me.

I smiled to return his gratitude.

"Indeed..

Do you mind if people think you and I are lovers?"

My blood suddenly rippled

Like being struck by lightning in broad daylight.

I was very surprised to hear that question and it confused me enough. I didn't know what to answer, I was made clumsy again and felt helpless by it.

I pretended to be correct in my sitting position.

"Ma... "

I haven't been able to answer yet, back to interrupting my words.

"Forget over.

Do you like the novel?" her question diverted my conversation.

I just shook my head.

Then he raised his left eyebrow.

"Why?" ask her while raising next to her eyebrows that are not too thick, but look neatly decorate her face.

"Surely.the content is about God,"

"Aren't you going to find information about that?"

I'm a little silent about the question he just asked, is it possible that Mr. Tio knew that I was an atheist? but how is it possible? while only my family and Dela know this about me.

I was confused to give an answer to complete Mr. Tio's question.

"Do you know this?"

"Yes,"

I round my eyes with a gaping mouth.

I was shocked and could not believe what he said just now.

"Where do you know that?"

"I gave biodata paper to all my students and students, right?"

I put my palms on my forehead and occasionally rubbed my face slowly.

I sighed for a moment, then I was forced to tell the truth about myself.

Say the thief who has been caught, I just resigned and told him honestly.

Strangely, he seemed so ordinary.

Let alone saying 'AH' a surprised expression did not appear on his face.

I think he's the kind of guy who doesn't talk too much. When he speaks, it is only as necessary.

"So..during this time you often eat foods and drinks such as pork, beer, or others?"

Why is he asking me this?

What a ridiculous question I thought.

"While this time, I have never consumed a food that at least does not harm my health"

"Awhile, a while?

That means you still wish you could find something, right?"

He is not a fortune-teller, nor is he a shaman.

But why is his speech such as can predict the state of my heart and feelings?

How come?

The waiter came back to the table with a tray containing the menu of dishes that I and Mr. Tio ordered.

I slightly glanced at him because of the incident earlier, the cafe waitress was enough to embarrass me in front of Mr. Tio.

Luckily the waiter arrived on time, so I didn't have to answer Mr. Tio's question.

I exhaled as my hands slightly rubbed my chest.

Mr. Tio invited me to immediately eat the food on our table.

I nodded with a smile, then twirled my fork on the ramen noodles and then devoured it into my mouth.

I saw Mr. Tio not immediately eat his food, his eyes closed while his mouth muttered like chanting something.

He rubbed both palms on his face.

Then, only then did he eat it slowly.

I went back to eating and didn't want to think about anything further.

"I'm sorry, sir.had read a sentence on the last page of the novel.

'It would be a great loss for those out there who do not know their god, for me it is the greatest loss in life'

That sentence..what do you mean?"

Mr. Tio momentarily stopped his meal, he stared confusedly at me.

He put his spoon and fork on a plate containing seafood fried rice.

He sighed for a moment, and leaned his back on the chair.

"like this

It is like a weed embedded in the ground.

Without anyone to take care of him, he will grow up in a place. And without proper care, he'll just die,"

I felt so slapped with my Lecturer's answer that it was quite profound in its meaning.

It is only described by a landing, but I understand it enough and do not need to ask him to explain further.

My feelings became troubled. And sometimes, regret is always the main thing in my heart.

I always think about my life so irregular.

Problems are increasingly endless, and happy who do not quickly come to say hello.

"A person far from his god, he will always have the misfortune of life. Especially those who don't believe it at all,"

I don't feel like my watch is showing at 02:37.

Mr. Tio has resigned to return to campus to conduct his meeting with other lecturers.

While here, I'm so lonely.

'Is this what is called life?

Bitter sweet has always been the main spice.

The increasingly complicated storyline becomes a lesson for us to live better'

"Lin?"

The voice of a man who quite disperse my daydream.

I immediately looked back and found Fikri standing behind me.

He was wearing a black hodie clad in cream-colored trousers.

Her body was above my height, and her skin was yellow with neat hair that was combed to the left.

Her sensual lips and sharp nose as well as her slightly thin eyebrows, became the center of the male's beauty.

He then sat in the chair that Mr. Tio had occupied. He just ordered a cup of ice cofe without ordering another meal.

He also offered to offer me, but I politely declined.

"Eh lin, have you heard the task of Mr Ferdian yet?" tanyanya opened the conversation.

"Ehh...eee already, you?" ask me back

Fikri just shook his head while looking a little lethargic.

He just explained that the task given by Mr. Ferdian, enough to drain his brain, he prefers not to do it immediately.

I just chuckle at hearing every story that I think is quite funny.

"Mmm Fik, actually..

How precious is God in your eyes?"

My question was enough to make Fikri who was drinking his coffee become choked.

I got him a tissue.

To be honest, asking this to the fikri was the key to unlocking my true personality.

But I just wish I could get the right answer from him.

"Make me..

God is all of it.

He was the focal point of my life all along. He was the only one who never left me in a bad state.

I was free to ask anything of him, crying in my prostration to convey my wishes.

He was the scenario that set the course of my life.

Well even confide, right?

Why the hell?"

"Ahh no, this would be an idea for a novel that I want to publish next month,"

"Ohh.

Wahh lin's great

Could dong later her novel one,"

Fortunately, my answer was able to distract Fikri and not suspect me at all.

"Okay, when it comes up I'll give you one,"

"Yesss,"

My conversation with Fikri, my college friend was quite exciting as it turned out.

He's a man I think...

Simple, but every word that his mouth spoke, was able to bewitch the listener.

I got more excited as he told me about his life problems and the conditions he is in now.

"The point is, never look for something that you have not intended.

Find your desire first, then tell the maker of life.

Ask your permission to be able to feel the atmosphere you expect it,"

After a long time we told him, he offered to send me home.

I agreed and didn't forget to thank him.

"I saw you with Mr Tio at the cafe?"

I immediately looked at Fikri.

I just answered honestly and said that I just happened to meet her.

Fikri accepted my answer and didn't seem so suspicious of me.

He refocused on his steering wheel.

Shortly after, we arrived in the front yard of my house that was terraced and so majestic in white.

The house was designed by a Dutch architect named Mr. Lee, a high school friend of my father's, used to work as an architect.

A small but very neat garden located on the front side of my house, with flowers and plants dominated by green.

The green grass is neatly spread like a rug that adorns the garden.

As well as a pond for koi fish located on the right front of my house.

Starting from the arrangement, all of it was arranged by Mr. Lee's.

He used to visit my house often.

However, after these past few years, he very rarely met my father.

In fact, his arrival to my house could be counted by the fingers.

Fikri was stunned by the condition of my yard and house which was quite magnificent and luxurious.

From the main door, Brother Fian observed me and Fikri from a distance.

He approached both of us.

"Ficily?"

Brother Fian turned out to recognize Fikri, he invited to talk briefly to Fikri and had set me aside.

I then say goodbye to them both to enter the house first.

While they are, just look busy with his chatter that looks so exciting.

I stomped my feet and went straight into the house with a slight slam of the door.

I'm pissed, but thankfully

Brother Fian did not scold me who had come home late.

I've changed my shirt with just a short white T-shirt with the words UNDERSTAND and knee-short jeans.

I enjoyed a cup of lemon tea and a pastry on the front desk while watching my favorite cartoons on the channel.

Brother Fian is back, apparently...

He's done talking to Fikri, my college friend.

He sat next to me and sipped his cold coffee.

"Sister Fian knows Fikri?" ask me without looking at Fian's face.

Apparently, Fikri Indra Gunawan is an employee of my father's WESTERN GROUP company.

He worked while in college to meet the needs of his life during his stay in Jakarta to study.

I turned my dual position to face him, I felt interested in my brother's story about Fikri.

According to my brother, he is an employee who is quite persistent and efficient at work.

Sometimes, he always comes home the other night just to finish his job as an employee of the company.

I'm more interested in hearing the story. But strangely, Fikri did not tell this when we met last afternoon at the cafe.

Honestly, I was embarrassed by Fikri's concern as a student who was willing to go to college while working.

While me? just stay in college without thinking about the cost for me to live.

A person who does not know God is like a weed growing in any place.

When no one takes care, then he will die just like a`).