Mary the Concealed Soul

Good News

...Mary ...

...(.(.The trapped soul)...

...#10...

...*****...

It has been a few days since Maria last interacted with the ugly, incision-faced ghost that came to see her. Maria was so covered with her story, I wanted to comfort her but didn't know how.

"Hey, smile! If you're moody like that keep on, your face is so ugly you know?" I tried to make a joke but he still didn't flinch.

It would be boring if Mary kept quiet like that.

"What the hell is the matter exactly? Tell me, who was that ghostly figure that met us a few days ago?" I said to him, still he just silently looked at the lake with empty eyes.

Maria ... Where is the smile that always makes me feel at peace? A smile that always pours my heart .. Where does it go? Why has that cheerful face changed? What's wrong with her?

I was anxious to see him continue moody like that, like keeping a thousand wounds in the look in his eyes.

"Where are you going?" I asked Mary who was walking away from me.

"I just want to be alone, and you .. Learn to get used to it without me." He said slowly and went away and got away from me.

I don't know what that means? What wrong? Did I say the wrong thing? But it seems like Maria is not the irritable type?

"What's my fault, Maria? You can't be like that to me, tell me if I made a mistake I didn't realize, Maria!" yell at him.

Her eyes were so fragile, her tears had fallen out of nowhere. Why did you see her crying, my heart hurt? So many wounds were drawn when I saw the look in her eyes, as if I could feel her pain.

"Mary.." I said softly.

"Please .. never say anything like that to me again, Ak-me-" I can no longer continue my words.

My throat ached when I said a sentence, even swallowing my Saliva was painful. Mary kept walking, leaving Me glued to her disappearance.

My tongue feels faint, I feel pain in my heart. No, I've never even felt this before. What's wrong with me?

"Mary!" call me to stand still.

I didn't want Maria to leave me, my heart was so sad to see her getting away from me. It felt like crying, screaming and I don't know what else it felt like this was raging in my heart. What is this feeling? Do I love her? No, that's not possible.

I'm just afraid of losing her, because Maria is my only friend right now.

"God ... What's the matter with Mary? Why does my heart hurt, my esophagus is like something's stuck up, it hurts..." I kept wondering, why? What's wrong with her?

Maria ... Why do you keep all your bitters all by yourself? Did you never consider me a friend?

From that day on, I never saw Mary again. I miss his smile, I miss his laughter. The day I came back was like before I met him.

Three days without Mary present, time seemed so long to turn.

"Why do you look so moody these days?" della asked me in a whisper of course.

Della always sees me in her spare time.

I just kept quiet ignoring Della who was trying to cheer up.

"I haven't seen Maria lately?" Della asked back.

Will I really lose Maria? Really I can't take it yet, what's my fault for keeping him away?

"Mary, if you knew how much I miss you here." I whispered in my heart.

I looked at the lake from where I was, yes from my room this can see clearly towards the lake.

Today, the doctor checked me back. The doctor told Sister Vania, if I have any development even if only a little.

Today, for the first time in nearly seven months I saw a smile on my brother's face. I should have been happy to hear it, these are the moments I waited for from the beginning.

Surely this is good and happy news for me, but my heart is restless and disappointed .. and not so happy to hear the progress I am experiencing.

Whereas before I really wanted to recover from my long sleep, would I really part with Maria...?

"Hey, what's wrong with you!" Della.

"You'll recover soon, come to your senses and there's still a lot to take care of. Connect again.

"Who are you talking to, Del?" apparently from earlier Brother Vania noticed Della's movements.

"Ach, you're not just a dialogue exercise." Della approaches Vania's sister.

Why do I feel so doubtful about Della? Why do I feel like there is some hidden purpose to him? Is this just my feeling?

"About the liquid, who told Metta about Tino's whereabouts?" Vania's sister asked Della, just like me who was also curious who Metta called the other day.

All I know is Roni, the husband of my brother Della and sister Vania herself. Della I don't think it's possible, or maybe not even Roni? But what's he doing that for? Not even Roni knew Metta at all. I'm getting dizzy, what's the point of Metta killing me? What's in it for him after I die? Even Me and Metta are not married, even if I die ... Metta won't get any profit?

Who is behind all this? Who her?

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My soul is looking for you,

In the corner of my heart's space, there's a beautiful smile of yours.

Separates a tightness in the chest.

The pseudo-traces left behind, were able to make me fall into longing.

Maria...

Beautiful smile, able to make me forget my toughest problems.

Maria...

Will all this end?

Your presence has filled the empty space in my heart.

I want to be your shadow, which always accompanies you every step on foot.

Maria...

Stay by my side, present and accompany this lost soul.

...*****...

I will return these tears, hoping that all I wait for will come along.

"What are you doing right now?" I'm tired of looking for Maria.

Maybe it is true that I have to get used to it without him, even if only a few months are present to fill my days ... I felt a deep loss in him.

...*****...