Marriage With A Narcissistic Man

Chapter 04: Forgivable Mistakes

My silence made my mother even more furious, she turned to look at me who was trying to avoid her gaze.

"Who's the boy's father?!" mom snapped rudely, my name was no longer mentioned, I could even feel emotion and disappointment in this room.

"I .., mother ak ..., I'm sorry!" I said getting out of bed, prostrating to beg for mercy.

Mother was silent, I could feel the drops of clear water flowing profusely wet the earth we were on, I kept begging her for forgiveness hoping she would no longer be angry. I slowly looked up at the mother who was trying to wipe away her tears.

"Ruhi .., is this how you avenge us poor? This is how you humiliate the upbringing I've been teaching you all this time?!" he said crying while grumbling at me who was still sitting begging for mercy. 

"No mom, Aruhi is wrong. Aruhi did this because it was dark in the eyes, Aruhi was already unable to think of any other way!" I said twitching with the sound of broken cries. Shaking and fear certainly disturbed me, the anger that my mother showed unusual made my little heart very guilty.

"Shut up?! You have no right to defend yourself with dark eyes. You've put this mother to shame, Ruhi ..., in two like this? Who would accept a dirty woman like you!" his hardship with emotion lifted my body, with both hands until I stood straight looking at him. 

I tried to take my eyes off of my mother, ashamed and afraid of gnawing at my soul, I lost my mind looking back at her with my eyes dimmed.

"A …. Aruhi a..., will abort this baby, Aruhi also does not want this child, nor will I make mother ashamed!" reveal me with blunt wits, with a psychopathic smile.

PLACARDS….

"Are you not sane? This is 'And what you did, why did you have to abort an unborn baby?!" said mother yelled again by slapping my right cheek. 

"Mom at all, I won't let a child that even I don't know what kind of darkness, should you just throw away?!" the hardship came back crying. 

He who stood back up sat hitting himself hard, I who saw it immediately put a hug on my mother, we cried so completely without me ignoring the pain in my stomach. 

"I'm sorry mom, I was wrong, Aruhi promised there wouldn't be a second time!" I said crying with a tight hug mother who had wet my clothes due to our tears getting broken. 

When the incident at the hospital, I began to rarely leave the house, my stomach was getting bigger, the flower shop that I used to go through was now taken over by my mother, of course my grandmother helped her. 

Grandma's reaction when she heard I was two-bodied, even worse than my mother, she almost took a machete on the wall, lucky my mother drove the machete with teary eyes to look at the grandmother who had gone up in black.

With that incident I learned many things, my decision has made my family ashamed, whether until when I will continue to hide from the people I used to call every morning in the store or on the streets. 

I just hide with my stomach growing! staring at children behind a window with no weight when playing soccer.

I heard a lot of people started looking for me, because the location of our shop and house was not far away, only I heard my mother trying to shift the subject, she just fell silent when a young man wanted to propose to me, because I'm famous as a friendly flower-seller woman. 

Mother tried to resist with a bitter smile, until the men began not to like to stop by the store again, fewer and fewer customers, of course impacting our economy, he said, the money left in the bank was used up because of the store business. 

I hope this misstep experience becomes an afterthought of my sinful heart. For making my family bear the shame of my filthy deeds. 

Seriate....