MAN_KU

You Where?

I never knew what pain was, if only physical pain maybe my body had often felt it from my childhood. But this time, for the first time I felt pain even though I was not bleeding. For the first time a sense of disappointment slapped the defenses of the body right in my heart.

The many hopes that I asked for long ago, none of God has been granted. Sometimes I shut up, am I someone who doesn't deserve to be happy? Am I too bad for a happy person?.

Whether I should be happy or sad, the person I waited for a week to attend did not come either. People who can make me miss are no longer visible in the eye. And the man who made me fall in love is now disappearing like the earth.

It's the fourth day I'm waiting for him in front of the school gate. I never knew that in the end my race was in vain. I never realized that behind everything there was a wound in my heart.

"Tha, yuk, come in and bell again." Pekik Shova from inside the gate not far from me.

"A little while." I answered the screech too.

"Not to hide ! The first hour of economic studies, Bu Nur ntar was angry that you were late in class." Shova said to warn me.

'Right as well, it could be my law ntar.' inwardly.

"Okey."

My footsteps seemed to be directionless, appearing light as unsteady. My heart is lonely, my days feel empty even in the crowd I feel alone. Is this the effect of people saying?.

I approached Shova and asked her to walk to class. Shova told me a lot but, baby, it was like the wind and then in my ears. I couldn't focus on hearing what my best friend said.

"Tha? Do you know I'm talking about it?" Shova said upset because I didn't rub it at all.

"Sorry va, I'm not focused anymore. What was Loe telling you?" I was not happy because I ignored it.

"Well, how come you still know where Bayu is?"

I shook my head, if only I knew I might have walked up to him from yesterday.

"Where is that child? What moved?" Guess Shova.

I shook my head again and shrugged my shoulders at the sign of not knowing.

"Gue doesn't know where he is? His house is deserted va, I honestly miss him. I'm afraid there's nothing about him, because until now there's still no news from him." I said with teary eyes.

Shova rubbed my shoulders to calm my heartbreak. "Hopefully, maybe Bayu took his bokap out of town and he did not have time to tell you about loe."

"Gue hope so, only my heart is restless from yesterday-yesterday. I'm afraid something happened to him, I...

"Udah, you have to be positive thinking. He must be fine, praying a lot. Dah yuk came in," Shova interrupted me and invited me into the classroom.

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Week pass...

Still no news about Bayu, frustrating me to think about it myself. Maybe, in front of the parents I can put on a normal face. Without them knowing how I locked myself in my room. Everything's falling apart, there's no more passion in my life that I feel. Everything was quiet, quiet, and silent. No laughter and just flat accompanies.

I tried to live my day as usual, but still could not. Every night, I dream of Bayu. Every morning I would think about where it went, and during the day I would always remember how when I was with him.

That afternoon my house looked lonely, Abah went from the morning because he had to go to the cottage. Umi' to Bu RT's house to help prepare for the study later tonight and of course Dila joined. Meanwhile, Mynul began to register with his target campus.

I myself do not want to go anywhere, just want to watch television at home. Before long there was a knock on the door of the house, I who was curious then peeked out of the living room window. I saw Toni standing in front of the fence with a cardboard box. I don't know what it is I don't know either.

I opened my door and walked over to the gate, "Ngapain woy?" I asked while opening a little bit of my gate.

"Get in first the cake, love that drink so soon. Very hot cuy," replied Toni while wagging his shirt because of rage.

"No one's home, sitting on the porch. I'll grab a drink first" I said and told Toni to sit on the porch.

"That's cake." Then Toni came in while lifting the cardboard.

I put two glasses of iced syrup on the table, which Toni immediately grabbed a glass and held until the remaining half.

"So soon" said Toni.

"Was he drinking? Why are you here?" I asked to the point.

"Right of heart, patient of what Tha. I brought equipment for art work." Then Toni opened the cardboard she was carrying earlier and took out some of the contents.

"Loe just buy canvas aja ntar, watercolor and his friends from me." Further.

"The others? Can too?" I took one of the water cars that looked new because the contents were still full.

"There can be, after all, one group of 4 people. So one for my group, one for your group." Toni.

"It's like it's new, you buy it?"

"It's new, so it's leftovers from my sister's store. I was cleaning up, my brother said the paint shelf tell me to take it because it wants to change the paint cans." Obviously Toni

"Snake really, but I don't need to buy that." My chirps.

"Ho'oh, I'm back." Toni got up from her seat after taking care of the cardboard.

"Thanks" I said in front of the fence.

"Together, btw... Bayu will go to school again tomorrow. I heard from Om Haris this morning when I stopped by my sister's shop." Toni said slowly.

"Really??" I was quite surprised to hear that news. Toni nodded her head a sign confirming his words.

"Gue wants to go to his house first. Back sono, thanks for the info again. Loe is my best friend" I said sincerely.

"Hm, I'm back" Toni turned on her Vespa motorbike and drove away from my house.

'Gue hope after this you're happy, Tha. Sorry I can't be honest about what really happened to you.' Toni's inner.

What secrets is Toni hiding?🤔