Loving Your Own Friend

MensahSen Episode 55

I just finished my S1 education, and I intend to open my own business because I want to be independent, I am always required to be the successor to the papa company, and honestly I am not interested.

But as usual, papa forced me to take the S2 and S3 Abroad, I was able to refuse for the biggest reason is that I do not want to be far from China, but what is the power, what is the power, papa kept insisting and I couldn't turn him down.

I thought about whether I would express my feelings now to China, and asked her to wait for me to return from LN. But again the bad idea that China will keep away from me when it knows the truth of my feelings is always the winner.

I love her so much, which is why I'm afraid if she hates me when she finds out if I love her, she'll think love will ruin a friendship that's been going well.

At the airport when I was leaving, I was so unwilling to take off my arms with her, I was afraid she had a lover, I was afraid she would forget me, and there were many other fears that always haunted me.

While in LN I spent the day uninspired, while we were there, I cut off my relationship with Rika without my parents' knowledge, and it was strange that Rika agreed, to be honest, I was so happy that I felt free from him. But he gave a condition that if the end of this relationship is only the two of us who know, I do not understand what the reason is but I do agree because it is not a big problem I thought.

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After I finished S2 and S3, I returned to Indonesia

When I returned to Indonesia, I just understood the reason Rika did not want anyone to know if we had broken up, because it turns out that she is pregnant and that child is the son of her boyfriend after she broke up with me, her Dutch boyfriend who is currently still finishing his studies.

She whines asking me to marry her only during her pregnancy and then divorce when her child is born, because her boyfriend won't marry her before finishing his studies. And to cover her pregnancy out of wedlock from her extended family.

At first I obviously refused because his request this time was very unreasonable, but he always had a way to keep me from picking up my parents. I finally agreed to his wish because my parents insisted, but I have a condition if this marriage should not let anyone know especially China. I intend to hide this only until Rika's child is born and we get divorced.

After the wedding drama that only the family attended, I finally started contacting China again.

I can't wait to meet him after all this time. I invited him to meet, but I waited a long time for him not to come.

I waited until I finished a few drinks. Impatient to wait any longer, I rushed to meet the Chinese at his house.

But when I knocked on the door, Ernan opened the door and immediately hit me with a harsh word, he also said I was not gentle because it was always toying with his brother and pulling a relationship. But I just silently received a blow from Ernan, because I was aware of the mistakes I made all this time.

When the atmosphere had started to subside, I invited China to come out, I wanted to explain everything to her.

But again I haven't had time to explain anything, the phone rang and I saw my mom calling, my mom telling me if Rika was bleeding. With a heavy heart I permit the Chinese to go home because there is an urgent matter.

Again I lost my chance to improve relations with China.

A few weeks went by and I had an idea, I sent a message to Cindy and Raya to hold a small reunion that would allow me to be alone with my Chinese.

They also agreed. As the reunion progressed, I waited for the right time to be able to invite her to a chat. I had painstakingly created my romantic moment with China, but when it was just starting, the Son b*doh suddenly came to destroy the moment I was waiting for. And in shame the Chinese ran to his room

But my desire to be with him was so burning, I knocked on the door of his room and soon the door opened.

Soon I went into his room and lay down, but I just remembered that I had to email papa tonight too.