Loving Your Own Friend

MensahSen Episode 23

Two months have passed since Papa's day in Operation, and each day is only passed with tears flowing because until this moment Papa never realized. The doctor had advised to remove the tool in Papa's body since a week after the operation at that time because there was no change at all, but Mama always refused, Mama still maintained it. Mama still believes that Papa will be aware.

Every week I go back and forth from the house to the hospital. Exhausting indeed, especially as long as Papa was unconscious Mama always accompanied Papa at the Hospital, so I took care of the Restaurant accompanied by Kak Sari.

All Papa and Mama Restaurants outside the City were closed because they could not afford to pay the salaries of Employees. The cost of Papa while in the Hospital that can be said to be quite expensive every day makes our family unable to pay Employee salaries if the Restaurant remains open.

Large family, friends and some of Papa's coworkers had helped pay Papa's fee at the Hospital, but still the nominal is nothing compared to the total cost.

Do you know how Mom is doing now? My heart is like a dagger when I see it, thin body, messy hair, pale face. Mama was very hit with the situation experienced by Papa. Even Mama often does not respond when invited to talk.

While Ernan continued his schooling in LA even though he refused at the beginning because he did not want to leave the family in this situation, but I assured him that we would be fine here. In fact, I'm not sure of my own words. I often cry when the night comes, what mistakes have my family made until God made my family like this, that is what is always on my mind.

These few weeks I avoided Arka because I didn't want my problems to get worse, Rika would have continued to terrorize me if she knew I was still close to Arka.

I'm sorry Arka, for a while I couldn't be close to you. I hope it's over soon.

This morning before I went to college, I took the time to stop by the restaurant.

The employee greeted me kindly, I went to Kak Sari's room. I saw Kak Sari was busy struggling in front of the Laptop so that I did not realize if I was in front of him.

"Sister" call me.

"Oh Cit, when did you get in I don't know?" ask after seeing me.

"Nobody doing what? Seriously so." My toot.

Sari threw a rough breath and said "Just the doctor informed me if today would not want all the medical devices on Mr. Han's body to be removed, because the doctor has been very risky to this day"

"But what about Mama?" ask me with a soft voice.

"We need to have a good talk with Monic!" said Kak Sari

Then I said goodbye to go to the Campus and promised to go back to the Restaurant later that day to pick up Kak Sari and we will go to the Hospital. I told Ernan and Opa that later the tools in Papa's body would be removed.

"Partner wait!" yelled someone behind me.

I stopped my steps and turned around. Sister Riza ran up to me and asked "do you have time? I want to talk."

We looked for a seat and Brother Riza started asking.

"Why are you so hard to call?" tanyakanya.

Indeed these few weeks I have not only avoided Arka, but also Sister Riza. I don't know why I feel like I would only trouble Riza if she stayed with me.

I took a deep breath and said "sorry, sister, I don't think we can continue this relationship, now I just want to focus on the family first especially Mama" I said without daring to look at her.

Sister Riza refused my request, she did not want our relationship to stop until here, she promised not to demand to be able to meet me or contact me.

But I am still committed to my decision. "Sorry, but I can't. Excuse me I have class." I said and left.

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After returning from the Campus I went straight to the Restaurant, after which Kak Sari and I left for the Hospital.

"Ah shit, why it's stuck" I said while hitting the steering wheel.

"Propay Citra, you are thinking a lot better I just drive" said Kak Sari.

We arrived at the hospital last night, but the Doctor was waiting for us. After we were in Papa's room, I hugged and kissed Mama. My tears trickled as I kissed her cheeks, how could the man who had introduced me to the world with only a smile of laughter every day, but now he could not smile happily anymore.

I slowly spoke to Mama.

"Ma, Papa already does not need all these tools, Papa will certainly be happy if you do not feel pain again, surely Papa is also happy if you see Mama can smile again like before" I said.

"No image no. Papa will soon realize, we just have to wait a little more time!" mama said with a loud voice.

Mama is always like this if I talk about the tools that exist in Papa's body.

Long time we persuaded Mama to be willing to release Papa, finally Mama resigned. One by one the medical devices in Papa's body were released by several Doctors, I could only cry hugging Mama when I saw the incident took place.

It took up to several tens of minutes for the doctor to remove all the tools in Papa's body. When finished, Papa was pronounced dead by the Doctor. I knew this was going to happen, but it still felt like a lightning bolt. I can't believe all this is going to happen to me.

I hugged Papa one last time, I kissed Papa's forehead, cheeks and hands. I felt something was missing from inside me, something very meaningful in my life. The one who always made me strong, always encouraging, is gone.

Pa, who else would I complain to if Ernan pricks me, who I ask if I have a hard time making a choice, who will be next to me when I get married, didn't Papa promise me that when I found out the man who asked me to marry Papa would be the number one person who interrogated me how he could choose this spoiled me to be his future wife. Didn't Papa ever say that Papa will be the front man when Papa's Princess is in trouble.

Mama was no less hysterical, Mama was crying so much, then Mama was unconscious. After Mama woke up, she cried and was unconscious again. The incident repeated several times even when Papa will be returned home even Mama is still unconscious.

I can't imagine what our life would be like without Papa.