Loving Your Own Friend

MensahSen Episode 40

I live my days as usual, during the day I am busy with restaurants, when the night I am busy shadowed with Arka. I tried to contact her, but not the Arka voice I heard, but Rika, and again the humiliation I got from her.

As for Riza, still insisting on breaking my heart, but the result is the same, I can't love her.

Daytime at the cafe.

"Cit, try to open your heart just a little for me" said Riza with a face that was clear and hands that held my hand.

"Sorry Za, I've tried, but I still can't. Now is the time for you to look for someone who can love and love you sincerely." I said slowly releasing Riza's hand.

"It's been all this time, but you still can't accept me Cit, what's the problem, what's my lack?" ask Riza.

I took a deep breath.

"Nothing, it's just that I can't" I replied bowed.

"You can never accept me because Arka is Cit?" ask him by squinting his eyes.

"What do you mean?" I was panicking because Riza knew about my feelings for Arka.

"There is no need to cover up again Citra, I know for a long time if you love Arka, your friend" he said in a hostile tone.

"I'm sorry, but I can't lie about how I feel, Za." I said, still bowed.

"Conscious Image, aware. She already has a boyfriend, you knew that a long time ago!" riza said with a tone that began to rise, so that the people who were in the cafe began to look at us.

I shed tears, Riza's words were like a hard slap for me. True to his words, indeed Arka already has a lover, and I also know it a long time ago, but I am a fool still love him.

"I'm sorry, Za." I said slowly, then walked out of the cafe.

I stopped a taxi passing in front of the cafe. On the way, I was incessantly crying and cursing my stupidity. How can I still love Arka who is obviously happy with her lover, and foolishly I wasted someone who has always been with me.

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3 Years passed.

I heard the news that Arka has finished her S2, but I don't know the exact news.

This morning my mom and I were busy cooking, because now Mbok Lilis is no longer working in our house.

"Two angels are busy as it seems." said someone who surprised me and my mom.

"Mending help!" I said with my hands still playing the knife to cut the sausage.

"Oh yes brother, do you know if Arka's brother has returned to Indonesia?" ernan asked, walking towards me, standing between me and my mom.

"It seems like there is someone who does not care anymore about his childhood friends" said Ernan by nudging my arm.

"Is this a man, go away." I said.

"No ma, it was a bit strange that this Princess, she herself had told her sister to help, but now her sister was expelled" he told her.

"Try once Nayma you ask to check on him Nan, who knows there is a problem because it is too long alone" said the mother teased.

Nayma is Ernan's girlfriend, she is a psychologist doctor.

"Mama's the same as Ernan." I said annoyed, then left the kitchen.

I heard Mama and Ernan laughing after my departure.

Mama and Ernan did know about my feelings for Arka, which is why they often embarrassed me.

As I walked into the room, there was a knock from outside the door. I walked and opened it. It looked like a young man with a sturdy body and wearing a gray jaz, was standing at the door.

"Sorry, who are you looking for?" my many.

"Is that right, you Miss Citra Ilyas?" ask the man with a flat face.

"Yes, I'm alone." I replied.

"Here, there's an invitation for you, lady" said the man, giving him a wedding invitation.

I accepted the invitation, and the man left my house. Without reading the invitation, I rushed to the room.

I put the invitation on the dresser, and I went to the bathroom to clean myself up. After a few dozen minutes, I came out of the bathroom and put on clothes. Without putting on makeup or just combing my hair, I went out to the dinner table for breakfast.

"Who's coming, brother?" asked Ernan who was enjoying fried rice.

"So, he just gave me an invitation" I replied by taking the rice.

"From who?" ask again.

"Let's know, I haven't read the invitation yet" I replied by starting to bribe the rice.

"Why haven't you read?" ask again.

"Stop asking, Ernan!" I said, then bribe the rice that was delayed.

He laughed again at me who had started to bleed.