Loving Your Own Friend

MensahSen Episode 35

Until the night I was in the room, even to eat mbok Lilis who deliver. My mind was only on Arka, so I didn't want to do anything.

When I sat in front of the window looking at the dark sky and the flow of water that had earlier come down to wet the ground, the arrival of my mother broke my daydream, whether when mama entered, when she entered, suddenly he was beside me.

"Darling, what's the matter? You don't usually lock yourself up like this!" say mama.

"There's nothing ma, Citra just wants to be alone" I replied, staring at the window.

"Actually how do you feel about Arka, honey?" ask mama.

Suddenly I couldn't help but cry when I looked at my mom. I hugged and cried in my mom's arms.

"Tell me, baby." said the mother by stroking my head.

I never told my mom about my feelings or anything. I thought, there's no harm in telling stories now.

Finally I told him everything, my feelings for Arka, Rika who told me to stay away from Arka, the terror of Rika long ago. Mama was obviously surprised.

"How can such an incident not be told to anyone Citra?" asked Mama by taking off the hug and giving some distance between mama and me.

I didn't answer, my crying became more and more. Then my mother hugged me again, and calmed me down.

"That is what often happens dear, because it is impossible for men and women to be friends without feeling more than one of them. And even worse if one of the people is not aware that he has been loved," said Mama.

"You have to be able to choose, staying with the feelings you know will be more painful than you feel now, if it turns out that Arka does not have the same feelings for you, or slowly throw away that feeling and try to love someone new" continued Mama.

"You think it's okay, now you just rest, kid, it's night!" mama kissed my forehead and then came out of the room.

I went back to pondering my mother's words, it was true, I had to make a quick decision. I chose to stay away from him and get rid of this feeling, but he's not here now, he's far away from me, it's not too difficult to get rid of this feeling.

This morning I woke up when the sun had not yet revealed its beautiful light. I cleaned myself and got dressed, and then I sat down at my dresser, I was surprised to see my swollen eyes. It must have been because I cried last night, I murmured.

"Ma ma'am," said I when I got to the table to eat. "Where's my uncle?" my many.

"It's also coming out of the room soon, baby" replied the mother.

Right what mama said, shortly after that Ernan came out of the room and headed for the dining table.

"Mr Princess is crying, yes, her eyes are swollen!" ernan said with a laugh when he saw my eyes.

I glared at him, and began to take bread for breakfast regardless of what he said.

"Good morning Mrs Citra and Mr. Ernan" said someone who had just arrived.

"That Ray came first?" my many.

Rayen did not have time to answer, Ernan first opened his voice. "Don't call Madam Sister, call her Princess!" he said with a laugh.

"Oh well, I came at the hour like usually the Princess." replied Rayen.

Ernan laughed when he heard it, and I just shook my head.

After finishing breakfast, we left for our respective destinations, Rayen and I to the restaurant, while Ernan to the campus.

"Is the Princess okay?" ask Rayen on the way.

"It looks so fat." she replied

I frowned when I heard the answer, "what is Tuput?"

"Oh sorry, Tuput is the Princess" he said.

I shook my head to hear Rayen.

After I got to the restaurant, I went inside and walked to my office. I got word that the day after tomorrow I had to go to the city where a branch would open for my restaurant. I will gladly leave, maybe if I am busy with work, I will be able to forget Arka faster.

When I got back to work, I received a message from Raya, she asked me to drive her to the boutique tomorrow morning for wedding dress fittings, and I immediately replied to her message that she agreed.

Before long, a new message came in again, I thought it was a reply from Raya, but when I opened the message, I was surprised to see the name of the contact of the sender of the message. And what surprised me even more was the content of the message, a photo of Arka and Rika, Rika was seen hugging Arka who was asleep on the bed.

My heart rages between anger, pain in the heart and hate. This is the one I'm afraid of, Rika must be more free to do whatever she wants. But, what disappointed me was, why did Arka become like that.

I don't want this to be sustainable, I've decided to forget about Arka. I quickly blocked Rika's number from my phone, so she couldn't send anything to me anymore, I thought.

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This morning, when the sun had begun to show its bright light, while I was still on the bed with dreams that made me not want to wake up, but the voice of the bully suddenly appeared.

"Say I want to go, but this hour hasn't woken up yet, wake up woy!"

After my life began to return, my memory was immediately focused on Arka, because Arka who often woke me when we were in High School. However, I realized immediately, Arka is not here, she is now far away from me.

I opened my eyes and saw the Kingdom standing facing me.

"Wake up, let's go, it's late!" whine by shaking my body.

"Yes yes I take a shower first" I replied slowly sitting down.

"Don't wait long, I'll wait here, so you can hurry!" he said walking towards the sofa.

"Hm, whatever." I replied by walking towards the bathroom.

There have not been a few minutes I was in the bathroom, but Raya had shouted telling me to hurry.

Finally we left with me who had not yet put on makeup, because she did not want to wait any longer. I haven't even had breakfast.

Arriving at the boutique, we both went down and went inside. When Raya started talking to a boutique mom, I sat on the sofa playing with my phone.

I was getting tired of waiting for him, because I had been here for hours, but not finished either. My stomach has been hungry ever since.

"It's still a long time, Ray?" much

"Please Cit, in a moment, okay" he replied

"Hey, he was the one who couldn't wait, now I'm told to be patient." I murmured softly.

Shortly after that Raya took me away because it was done. "I'm sorry, it's beautiful, it's long waiting" she said with a smile showing her teeth.