
"Just sleep in Mas's room, Ra. The upper room has not been cleaned. Long time not used. You don't be afraid. You won't do anything. Mas promise will not bother you," said Adam stopped Haura steps that retraced on the first rung. Haura pulled a smile on her lips with a forced.
"Alright, Rara break Mas." Haura turned her body and was about to enter Adam's room.
"Oh yes, this is Rara's veil. Rara took it back," said the girl turned around and swept the veil that had been embraced by Adam. Adam gawk made it.
After Haura closed the door to her room, Adam sat alone. Staring at instant noodles in the bowl he just made. Adam laughed, how could his wife eat the food made by the man who had hurt her. He put the noodles on the table and Adam covered his face with both hands. He laughed and cried at the same time, like a man who had lost his mind.
The woman has now returned, not that the problem is over. It's all just beginning. The struggle may still be long to get a sincere apology from Haura. Although it's not easy, Adam won't give up. He should get an apology from that woman.
Adam remembered all the sins and mistakes he had made. Now his heart is very sad. "God how bad I was in the past. Living in the midst of sins. Bathed in sludge. I really don't deserve any of this. Forgive me, O God. You are Most Merciful, Most Merciful. After what I have done, the abundance of Your love and grace is always there for me."
"I am sorry, O Allah. Forgive me. This despicable servant of yours. Make me a better human being. Guide me. Make me a good husband and a good priest. Help me to change. Help me to remove the wound and replace it with happy days. Aaminn," Adam prayed in his heart.
He is determined to be a better person. More responsible person. He must atone for his sins to Haura. Adam wanted to heal the scratches he had inflicted on Haura's heart. Removing the painful pain that was ever created because of it.
Adam suddenly remembered Ray. He should call his papa. The most valuable person in his life. I don't know what's gonna happen to him if there's no Ray. He immediately dialed Ray's phone number. There are many things he wants to say to his father.
"Assalamualaikum," replied Ray from across the street.
"Waalaikumsalam Pa."
"What's up, Dam?"
"How are Papa and Mama?"
"We're fine, son. You're good too, right? Has Haura arrived home?" ray asked in a soft tone. There was no anger like a month ago. There was no rough tone like that time. Ray believes his daughter-in-law has arrived home. Moreover, seeing Adam who had not contacted him for a long time suddenly called.
"D-yes."
"Ehem, Papa, come on Haura. Watch him! Treat it well."
"Yes Pa, fine."
"If Papa hears you hurting him even if it's the end of his hair. Don't expect to see his face again. If that happens, Papa will really take him away from you."
"Yes, Pa. Adam promised never to hurt her. Adam will always make her happy."
"good. Yes, Papa wants to continue Papa's work."
"Eh, wait for Pa."
"Yes, what else?"
"Adam apologizes for always making trouble and distressing Papa. Forgive Adam for not being a filial son. And thank you for always being there for Adam. Thank you for taking care of Haura all this time."
"Forgive me your apologies and thanks origin .. from now on be a good and responsible man."
"Good Pa. Thank ye. If there's free time, let's have coffee together."
"Well, no problem. Yes, treat your wife well. And be patient, Dam. Remember Haura's psyche is still very fragile. Watch him! Don't let Papa really separate you."
"Yes Pa. Adam's gonna do his best."
"good. This is Papa's son."
"Assalamualaik."
"Getishalight." Adam breathed a sigh of relief, as if the large stone that was on his shoulders had now disappeared.
"Thank you Pa. Thanks for everything. Although Papa is not Adam's biological father. Papa always gives his best. Now Adam knows what Mama meant. Adam understood how Mama and Micah loved and respected Papa so much. After what happened. Not just once I made a mistake, but many times. Papa always forgives me. Always loved me. Mr. Perfect, may Adam be like you."
Adam threw himself on the couch. Ignoring instant noodles that have now expanded three times its original size. With his hands folded in front of his chest he looked up at the ceiling and pondered.
Adam thought about how he apologized to Haura in a good way. He was very confused, it would look insincere if he just invited him to dinner or gave something.
"Arggghhh, I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow. Let it! My head is too dizzy to think about it." Adam glanced towards the door of his room and stared unblinkingly. He wanted to come in and hug his wife. Saying sorry and asking for forgiveness. But Adam remembered, he had to be patient. He didn't want Haura to get scared and leave her again. He chose to sleep on the sofa, ignoring the longing that tormented his inner self. Not lust, but just looking at her smile. It felt like his heart was cold and cool, as if it was splashed with ice water.
***
"Mas, wake!" Adam opened his eyes to hear the soft voice greeting him again.
"Rara told you not to sleep here, right? Why is it still being done?" haura said with a fuss, as if nothing had ever happened.
"Sorry." Adam who had just regained his consciousness immediately sat down. His eyes were unceasingly looking at his beautiful looking wife.
"There's a bath, Mas. Rara's gonna make us breakfast." Adam nodded his head several times and rose to the bathroom in his room.
"Don't forget to shave!" haura's orders with doubt. Whether Adam heard it or not.
Adam went into the bathroom, he looked at his own face which looked very shabby. Very unkempt and irregular sideburns filled his face and chin. Makes Adam look ten years older than his age. Adam laughed at himself.
Adam had not yet closed the door, and Haura went into the bathroom. He looked at the teary eyes of the man. He approached Adam. Cream for shaving. He kneaded the cream tube slowly until the contents came out. He rubbed it on his chin and around Adam's lips. Deftly, he took out a razor. Without hesitation, the woman shaved off her husband's sideburns and mustaches. Adam could only shed tears. How loving of him. How sad is his life without Haura.