Love Shabrina

Expressing Feelings

Shabrina rubbed the head of Nesya who had just fallen asleep. This girl looks exhausted and frightened after Devan's parents' house.

Devan's parents' treatment was pretty bad, and it's still the same as before. Especially when looking at her, the face of hate mistress Kartika is still so attached.

Sad, of course. Especially when they say if they only want to accept Devan's children, but not with him.

It was sad indeed, but Shabrina was quite grateful, she had a child who wanted to protect her, who was willing to defend her and was in the vanguard for her. Though inwardly, Shabrina was still afraid that they would take her child one day.

What would Shabrina be without these two children???

"Sha..."

Devan's voice made Shabrina turn her head. Devan has just come from Arsya's room and sees his great son.

He smiled at Shabrina who still looked sad.

"We're resting?" bring Devan.

Shabrina.

We???

He just remembered if they were married, does that mean tonight he and Devan should sleep together?

Shabrina turned her face away and looked back at Nesya.

It still feels so awkward. It felt like there was something that made Shabrina feel strange and different.

Although they used to be lovers, but still, separated for six years with painful circumstances made him no longer think about his feelings.

Not no love, she is sure her love is only for Devan. There's not even a day without remembering Devan. It's just, it feels different.

And now they are found again in these circumstances. Of course, it's not the same anymore. It felt like this was their first meeting, it felt like starting something from scratch again.

It felt very awkward, especially with the status that suddenly changed.

Looking at the heavy-looking Shabrina, Devan could only sigh. It seemed like he could indeed not force Shabrina to belong to him so quickly.

"If you want to sleep with Nesya again. It's okay what. I went to the room first" said Devan.

Shabrina turned to Devan again, there was a hint of disappointment on that handsome face.

"Mas .. is okay?" shabrina asked doubtfully.

Devan smiled and shook his head. He rubbed Shabrina's head gently.

"It's okay, I understand" Devan replied. Although in his heart he was very eager to let go of the longing that had been hidden. But apparently, everything can not be forced according to his wishes.

"I came out first" said Devan, who immediately turned his body and walked towards the exit.

Shabrina stared at Devan's departure. No, it can't be this, she's Devan's wife and she should be a good wife to him. Wasn't this what he had hoped for.

"Mas" call Shabrina

Devan who had arrived at the doorway immediately turned his head.

"I'm coming" said Shabrina

Devan immediately smiled and nodded. He waited for Shabrina who was justifying Nesya's blanket.

And after that Devan immediately extended his hand towards Sabrina.

Shabrina's face flushed slightly as she grabbed that hand. The burly hand that used to be was as a place he spoiled.

Devan brought Shabrina into his room. The room is not far from their child's room.

While walking, Shabrina kept watching Devan from behind.

Why does it feel so awkward like this. Even his heartbeats are really erratic right now. Especially when Devan brought him into the room.

Oh my... They are no longer newlyweds. They've done that before. The forbidden thing that makes them accidentally have Arsya and Nesya.

"Why is your face like that?" ask Devan. Making Shabrina instantly gasp

"Nothing" replied Shabrina with her headband.

"About the talk of mom and dad, don't think about it anymore" Devan pinta as she pulls Shabrina to sit on their bed.

Shabrina nodded slowly, although if she remembered that she was sad again.

"What if the old man took Nesya and Arsya from me?" tanya Shabrina looked at Devan with a soft look.

Devan smiled and shook his head. Her hands were still grasping Shabrina's hands gently.

"Will not Sha. I'm not gonna let that happen. You can also see how Arsya defended you earlier. He will definitely be at the forefront of the parade" Devan replied as he rubbed Shabrina's face gently.

Shabrina sighed softly and nodded.

"If they still force you to marry Adinda how?" ask Shabrina again.

"It's up to them. I don't care" Devan replied.

"All kinds of ways they will definitely do as they used to" said Shabrina with her head bowed bitterly.

"Are you afraid that I'll leave you?" devan asked as he lifted Shabrina's chin

Shabrina doesn't seem to like hearing that.

"Don't reason for Sha's son. But I just want to hear your own feelings. Not for the reasons of our children. I want to know how you feel about me after six years" Devan said.

Shabrina was stunned to hear that. Their eyes now looked at each other closely.

"When you meet, you always keep your distance from me. You are no longer as spoiled as before, even to smile you no longer want to. And I miss all of it. Everything that is with you is like before" Devan said.

Shabrina's eyes immediately watery hearing that.

"I know your wounds are still so great, the pain must still be embedded in your heart. But can't be my old Shasa" Devan asked again.

This time his tone sounded so sad.

Shasa lowered his head and sighed deeply.

"Do you doubt my feelings?" ask Shasa.

"I don't doubt you. It's just, it all feels so different" Devan replied.

Shabrina smiled bitterly and immediately turned her face away.

"I don't even know how I used to be. I never thought about my own feelings again. All I think about is how children grow up well" Shabrina said.

"If you ask me why I changed, I don't even know what to answer" Shabrina said again as tears fell down her face.

"And if you ask about my feelings, from the past until now those feelings never change. Although I have decided to go away from you" Shabrina said with sobs that began to sound from her lips.

Devan immediately pulled Shabrina into his arms.

"I'm sorry Sha" Devan said

"How can I erase that feeling, if my happiness and hurt are because of that feeling. Even your face and nature are with Arsya. How could I forget about you and this feeling?" lirih Shabrina with Isak weeping increasingly stronger, along with her hands that hugged Devan's body tightly.

"I'm sorry" Devan murmured.

"Please don't add to that wound again. Shasa couldn't stand it. It hurts... it hurts so much" Shabrina pinta in Devan's arms.

Devan immediately cried softly hearing the language.

"No dear ..no. mas promise will not let you get hurt again. Mas promise" Devan replied with all his feelings.

And their first wedding night. It was the night that they expressed their feelings for the six years they had been separated. All the pain and longing that they have been feeling. Immediately poured in each other's arms and cries.