Love Poor Girl

Chapter.35 Rice Has Become a Porridge

According to grandfather let them finish his maslah, so that in the future there is no more problems that are tightening the chest.Let your mother can live a quiet life in her old age later.

''What's Mom storming, with Om Damian to?''I asked out of curiosity

''No Damian just spoke in a soft tone, '' said grandfather.

Damian kowtowing at your mother's feet, he's apologizing for his passing.

''Maira please forgive me, ''I really do not mean to die you.Maira I was tormented away from you, never passed in every day without you in my mind. In my years in Paris I have never forgotten you, so many women there, unable to divert my mind and heart to you.

Do you know, my four years there.In every breath I exhale, that is my regret towards you.Maira I am very sorry, can not get through a long day with you and Ayu.I want to see Ayu born, I have to see,watching him grow up.

All that I can not see, it will never be repeated again.It became a wound in my mind Maira, please forgive me.

Damian said in tears, Your mother remained silent without saying anything.Grandfather knows your mother's disappointment is very great to Damian, her need is too deep until she can't say anything.

Your mother let go of Damian's hand that touched her feet, she just went into the room and locked the door.So far Damian who was sitting weakly on the floor alone, she cried may also be disappointed.

Damian approached the grandfather who was sitting in this chair, he cried and apologized for his mistake.

''Father, please forgive my mistakes that have hurt maira.Damian does not mean that, I was weak at that time who was not able to fight my parents.I never forget Maira and the child in her womb, I was weak at that time, after four years in the land of people.I returned to look for Maira, but I did not find, even to the house in the village.But I found nothing there, you seemed to disappear and I could not find.'' Damian tried to explain to Grandpa, his state at that time.

''Damian,''if after you get to the land your people give you news or send letters.Maira might be able to accept you away from her,there is nothing you do to defend her.One sheet of letters that informs you and maira it will mean to her.You go indeed say goodbye to her,but the absence of news from you is a wound to her.

You can imagine how she is alone, holding back the sadness in a state of pregnancy. You told her to wait, with no certainty at all.How about if she waited for you for four years, but when you returned you were married to someone else because of the will of your parents.

''Damian, the rice has become porridge all that happened will never be able to return.If Maira forgives you I can also forgive you, but if she still can not accept it is also my decision.''

''Go home,!!''let Maira calm herself down, lest Ayu return she sees her parents' quarrel.

Damian went home, after hearing Grandpa's words.

''I bowed holding back my tears, No child who wants to grow up without an incomplete parent. So did I, sometimes I ask the god in my heart.Why should my parents be separated, why should they live such a complicated life,why not in a good way without having to torture them so deeply.

Hearing Grandfather's words, I must have been very sad.

I understand what your heart and mind are like now, I also understand how Om Damian feels now.All this is because the old Oma is heartless, he ruined my happiness and both my parents.

I wanted to go in and hug Mom, but I couldn't see the sadness in her eyes. Am I able to, hold back these tears in his presence.

''Mother..''

I hug my mother, these tears I can't hold anymore.I can't even say anything, only tears describe my heart.

''I'm already son..''Mother stroked my back gently, intending to strengthen it was precisely me that was strengthened by mother.

''Whatever happens in Mother's life, but Mother is proud to have you.You are Mother's happiness and strength all this time said while wiping my tears.

I wiped away her tears, and I couldn't see her grieving.

''Mom, I love you more than anyone.''Never be sad, I will never be willing for anyone to make you cry. Even Om Damian, it smiles Mom because of my happiness.

''So you don't love grandpa,??''Grandpa came and surprised me.

''Grandfather, surprise me only.Mana maybe so, of course Ayu really loves grandfather.The first man Ayu loves is grandfather will never be replaced.'' Grandfather smiled.

''So, is there a second one..?''I know Grandpa teased me.

''Aaaa grandfather, why tease me...?''my mom and dad laughed at my words.

Tonight we ate quietly, a sadness that still looms in our memories.But we will definitely be able to get through all this, not twenty-one years was long enough to undergo this test. I'm always optimistic that a storm will surely pass from my life, even if I don't know when.

A few days later I and Mr. Cakra, met with the Aditama Company.yes there I met with Om Damian, after not meeting in some time with him.Our relationship is actually fine as usual, he said,only I limit myself to having to keep my mother's feelings.

After the meeting was over, as usual Om Damian invited me to speak four eyes.Untung Pak Cakra never complained about this, like he did know my problem with Om Damian.certainly before him, he never complained about this,Mas Willi once told me.

''Come, how are you, your mother and grandfather..?'' I guess this is exactly what he's going to ask.

We are good Om, please be patient. Because it is not easy for Mother, seeing the presence of Om back in her life.Tell you know, Om's pigeon also understands the feelings of mother, so please do not force it.

''I do not want to see my mother sad, for many years she has been tormented.I do not want to see my mother again hurt.''I cried in front of Om Damian.

''Please forgive me for not being able to hold back

seeing your mother back.Dad misses her, Dad's mistakes are also very big on your mother.''