
On a silent night, I greet the moon with the chant of love, I reveal my feast to Him.. Remembering all the twists and turns of love that come and turns, my tears are soaked in the holy white..
I'm sober.. God has always guarded with a touch of doubt, lest I choose the wrong love..
Alyas
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As Mas Abi suggested, I prayed Istikharah, to ask the truth about my heart to Robbi, I want to see if I love Arif or maybe it's just a test from Him to complete the winding love story..
I should be able to choose to wait for him to express the feelings he has, or..
Back to doubt touch the heart, like there is an answer that has been written... I have to stay strong this time...
I spent the night in constant dhikr.., until unconscious, I fell asleep in the embrace...
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Arunika greeted me.., I woke up immediately from sleep, I swung a step towards the bathroom to immediately take the water.. Hah.., I'm late for morning prayers..
With a little run, I headed back to my room, and I put on my face.. Then I performed two rakaat prayers..
After the greeting, I pray to Him, not to be restless again..
I decided I would only accept someone who loves me because of God.. Suddenly I wish there would be a man who would pronounce β β β β β β β β Ana uhibbuki fillah...
I set my heart, to wait with iklas and be patient.., the figure of a righteous man2 wants to make me his eternal lover, not a lover who is only given hope without a clear bond...
Bismillah.., I give everything to You God...
ting.
05.40] Assalammu'allaikum Al, today so accompany me refreshing?
05.55] Wa'allaikumsalam Ref... Yes, In shaa Allah so.
06.05] Okay Al, what time do I pick up?
06.13] It's up to you Rif.
06.23] All right, it's 09.00wib?
06.28] Ready to Rif
06.35] Assalammu'allaikum Al..
06.40] Allaicum....
I took off my face, and folded it. I put it in a hangar, then hang it on the wall of the room.
I set my feet towards the bathroom, to immediately flutter my body with the freshness of the water in the morning.
After the shower, as usual, I helped my mother prepare breakfast. My two sisters are in charge of sweeping and cleaning the yard.
Vegetable cha spinach, my favorite tomato sauce, tempe garit, crackers and warm tea have filled the dining table.
I called Asti and Hana to clean her hands, and rushed to breakfast. The four of us sat in a circle, beginning to enjoy the fortune God gave us this morning...
"Mom.., Alya will let...., go with Arif.." I said as I chewed the rice that was still in my mouth.
"Yes Al.., I let you. Take care of yourself, Ndhuk..!" Reply to me by looking at me.
"Express.. Thank you, Mom.." I smiled and returned his gaze.
"Yes Ndhuk.." Reply to mother by showing her shady smile.
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Not felt clock on the wall showing exactly at 09.00wib.. I'm ready to wait for Arif in the living room.
tok.tok.tok.
"Assalammua'llaikum Al..." Someone's voice from behind the door.
"Wa'allaikumsalam.." Reply, by opening the door...
kreKKkkk...
"Arif...., would you like to enter first...?"
"Are you ready, Al..?"
"Had..."
"We're just leaving Al.."
"Huum.., I want to say goodbye to mom first, Rif.."
"All right, come on in..! Mom was chatting in the living room with my two sisters..."
Arif replied to me by nodding...
Arif and I walked into the living room to meet my mother. We moved closer to him.
"Mom, Alya left first huh..." I kissed the back of my mother's hand. It was followed by Arif..
"Mom.... I borrowed Alya a day, yes, we said ma'am..."
"Yes, son, pick Alya up..! Take care of yourself...!" Reply to mom with a smile.
"Yes Ma'am, Assallammu'alaikum.." I then stepped out of the house with Arif.
Arif took the bike, then we shook hands. Along the way this time, we were silent. It's like our tongues are the same.
"That's up to Al.. Yuk down..!" Arif said, while stopping the bike.
"Yes Rif.." I got off the bike too...
Seen familiar scenery, the expanse of rice fields.., towering coconut trees.., two fish ponds that bear silent witness to my togetherness with Arif at that time...
"Hi Sob.., so come also you guys..." Rudy approached, and shook our hands in turn.
"Yes Bro.., I'm going fishing again this time, but just for a second... After that I want to take Alya down the rice fields.., the night I take her to South Square. Like when I was going to Germany first, hhhehe..." Arif seemed to laugh out loud...
"Wahh.., romantic donkk.., hhhaha..." Rudy replied with a laugh. I just sat down, speechless as I cast a glance towards the scattered rice field.
"Hei Al. Have fun today.. Cie who wants to be alone continues..." Rudy teased and twitched his eyes.
I smiled back at him..."You're coming along too, Rud..."
"Not Al... It'll bother you..."
"Of course not Rud, come with us..! Let's get more exciting..." Arrived2 Arif said before I replied to Rudy.
"Huum Rud, we're even glad that you're coming along...." Imbuhku with a reassuring look.
"Hmmm.... I'll get the fishing line ready for a second, yeah, I'll make a drink.."
"Okay Rud, we're going to the pool right away.."
"Okay Big Boss.., wait for my arrival.there..."
Me and Arif, walking towards the pool. We sat next to each other, waiting for Rudy to arrive...
"Al.." Arif's voice rang out, breaking the silence.
"Yes Rif.." I replied in a slightly hoarse voice.
"I'm sorry to make you so misinterpret my attention to you.. I'm sorry this coward... I'm just afraid, you'll be waiting too long for me Al.." He said with a sad look.
"There are still many tasks that papa gave me, I have to complete them in a time that may be long enough... Sorry, yes Al... I hope you can understand what I mean..."
"Yes Rif.., I understand what you mean. Maybe we will feel more comfortable with this friendship.. Without any more ties, and thoughts that make our feelings hurt.."
"Heem Al.., leave everything to God, only time will tell what our relationship will change..."
"Yes Rif. Let's just enjoy this togetherness.. We are grateful for the beautiful friendship...
We love as friends..." I said with a smile.
For some reason, after the two prayers last night, my heart felt more peaceful, without any anxiety, and feeling sad....
"Al.., Rif.., I brought the fishing line..." Rudy shouted out in a hurry towards us.
"Your drink, I put it on the table..."
"Yes Rud.., thank you, Sob.." I said with a smile towards him.
"Yukkk..., sob we go fishing together....!" Arif's smile expanded, his hand reaching for the fishing rod from Rudy's hand...
"Here al..! Want to learn to fish again...?" Take Arif, his lips adorned with a smile.
"Yes Rif.., I want..., teach me yes...!" I said with sparkling eyes and approached him...
I, Arif, Rudy, spent half a day fishing......
Today, it will be scratched on the memory sheet that will not be erased by time...
I love you as a friend.........
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