love of kayla

preparation

all seemed happy with my engagement and rayhan, I saw from the face of mother and Kayra who had not stopped showing their sweetest smile oh.. god how happy I am to see them this happy but not in my little heart, even though I want to but I still can not obey my own heart please let me be god, I said in my heart

"kay, is this good no"? ask the mother while showing a navy dress with a combination of blue on the bottom and top

" good bun" I replied while showing my fake smile

"oiya kay, what about your dress? do you like it? " ask mom again

"kak kayla must like bun, it's a gift from a prospective priest" said Kayra interrupted my conversation with mother even though I did not deny I liked the dress that Rayhan gave me

"hus, you don't tease your brother and look at your brother's cheek is like a boiled tomato" said the mother while pointing at me

"what the hell bun, kayla just plain" said I lirih

"sister, what's in the letter" asked Kayra curiously

"what letter ra? " ask mom on kayra

"love letter kali bun" answered kayra teasing me

"not a letter of any kind kok bun, just a regular letter "my words evasive

"yes, do not discuss anymore" said mother made me a little relieved because it does not have to be at length looking for an excuse

"well.. mother ga exclamation" said kayra lethargic.

I could only smile sweetly at Kayra who seemed very curious about the contents of the letter from Rayhan

"kay, all your engagement preparations have been prepared by Rayhan and aunt dinda" said the mother

"i'm not asking for all their will" I said in self-defense

"you should be grateful, because Rayhan is very caring and caring for you" said mother

"iya bun" I said softly while looking at some of the dresses that Rayhan sent to mother and kayra

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today it is not only me who looks lethargic like the sun is also so because the light is not as bright as yesterday, maybe the sun also feels what I feel restless and hesitant, he said, how is it not that soon I will be bound to a person who has not come face to face with me at all, what is he like? is it okay? black or white? tall or short? I don't know if I can't imagine it because thinking about it makes my heart ache and wants to scream out loud but I can't.

the clock shows at 20:45 I am more anxious to think about my life because stay tonight I am free because from the next night I will already belong to a stranger who is still mysterious in my opinion, I saw the night sky with a blank look there were no stars there even the moon was reluctant to show its light as if they were also lamenting my fate

"kay, you haven't rested? " ask the mother who was walking up to me on the balcony of the house, yes the balcony is where I used to be alone and contemplating

"not yet sleepy bun" I replied

"you must quickly rest let you fress tomorrow" pinta mama to me

"yes bun, soon Kayla just want to enjoy the night breeze for a while" I replied

"do not long yes, the night wind is not good for your health" ordered mother

"get ready bun" said I reassured mother

"mom enter first yes" said mother while gently stroking my hair and went away leaving me alone to enjoy the night