Love Does Not Come Too Late

I'm not his soul mate

...The proof of loving you is to let you go with him...

...But unfortunately it's a lie, rather I'm forced to accept the fact that I'm not with you anymore...

...ERIK SYAHPUTRA -...

POV Eric (flashback)

Although the time to go home from the office was thirty minutes and all the occupants of the room had disappeared since then, but as is my custom since five months ago I still feel at home in the office struggling with all my drawing equipment.

Don't you think I'm at home in the office because there's Ghea, not at all. In addition to the more projects that must be handled, I am also lazy to be alone in the boarding house.

Since separating from Lea, my life has been empty.

Home to the boarding house there is no spoiled whining reception from my beloved daughter, well .. although Maura is not my flesh and blood really I love her more than anything even my love for her mother.

There is no ignorant speech from my wife .. ex-wife, it hurts to pin the word ex in front of the word wife to Lea.

If you want to curse because of my mistakes and stupidity, please because I am so stupid. I am also very angry at myself.

Maybe you think once I'm off Lea I'll go after Ghea, wrong ... Leah will not be replaced.

If indeed Ghea is my partner later, he is a different special figure.

Even though Ghea and I had made a very inappropriate mistake, we decided to slowly go through this relationship.

Not recklessly making decisions that can lead to regret again.

Ghea was a modern woman, although being with me was a first for her, did not make her whine for me to marry immediately. Even he rejected me, wanting to start from the beginning naturally he said.

Maybe she knew Lea was still the queen in my heart.

Tianjin ...

There was no premonition today, but the message from Lea entered like lightning and thunder simultaneously above my head.

Red invitation photo with the name of the Star of Amalea and Raymond Sanjaya.

Many times I read the name listed there, I still do not believe.

Next message coming in,

'Good afternoon, brother, sorry if you can only invite by message. If Brother Erik has time and doesn't mind, I hope Brother can attend. Thank you'

My common sense was not running, I immediately contacted him wanting to hear from his own mouth what he sent and why?

"What is Leah?!" I said without trying to hide my anger.

"Marriage invitation" said Lea lirih. He seems very scared across the street.

"You're married to Raymond?, your boss??" Leah was silent, she could not answer.

Means right my guess, the boss has kept the taste since Lea was still my wife.

Very clearly visible from the look in his eyes, I am also a man so very well know how to look adoring men to women.

The heat suddenly spread in my heart, I felt cheated.

"Heh, it's not wrong that I call him a player first. It turned out that he had planned this from the beginning. I was wrong, I thought Nina was the one who influenced you but it turned out to be that br*hgsek man!"

"It's not that, brother, Mr. Raymond was just helping me."

"Help what??!, marrying a widow is that what you mean??" My emotions have become more and more, no matter if my words can hurt Lea.

"Listen first!, Mr. Beni wants to take Maura, because I am a single parent with a small income my position is weak. At times Maura's custody moves if I'm proven I can't properly take care of her."

"Then why do you have to ask her help Leaaaa?!!, I am her Papa!, Maura my son!... Or do you not recognize me as her father?" It hurts when I say this.

"It's not so, brother, but we're separated." He started crying across the street. I wanted to feel like this moment also ran to his place and hugged him.

"We can refer to Lea .. for Maura's sake, I'm her papa." My voice weakened, not because it was already emotionless but withstood the immense pain.

Parting with Lea alone has ruined half my life. Although it was hard for me to grant her wish to part, but I tried to let her go because I did not want to see her continue to grieve because of my actions.

Especially if he is married, it is certain that Lea can not be recaptured. There will be a clear line between me and him.

Unable to meet and come again at will, when longing is unbearable.

"We can't refer Kak, there's Ghea---"

"GHEA!, GHEA! that's always your excuse!"

"Sorry .. I'm sorry." Lea ended the phone call just like that.

Aaargghhh .. The table in front of me was the target of my disappointment. I decided to go home, free will not produce anything if forced to work with a situation like this.

"I .. I want to take the offer letter that was left behind, because tomorrow is the direct way." Ghea walked to her place looking for something.

I just stood where I was waiting until he found what he was looking for.

"Ghea, I know you heard," I said as he was about to leave the room.

"Yes I heard, please congratulate me for him. Sorry if you wanted me to accompany you to Lea's wedding, I couldn't. I still don't have a face in front of him."

"I understand, I still don't know whether or not to come."

...🔹️...

And here I am, in front of a very luxurious star hotel.

It has been through a very long inner war to decide whether or not to attend.

Now that the war is coming up again, decide I have to go home or stay in.

I chose to follow my heart, slowly I walked towards the ballroom with my head constantly bowed.

I am afraid and ashamed that anyone would recognize me.

If you've ever attended an ex's wedding, that's how I feel right now.

The footsteps brought me to the door of the vast ballroom.

My eyes grew so big to see this beautiful and luxurious wedding.

Pain, pain and jealousy. Ever since you married me, I have never given you this kind of happiness.

I give you pain and disappointment, what kind of love do I give you?

But there is also a sense of happiness and relief if you find a replacement that is so much better than me.

I walked in, my eyes looking for the little boy who always called me Papa, the spoiled call I always missed.

The boy I was looking for did not find, but my eyes caught the woman I missed among her friends.

You look so happy and.

"Erik." Someone called from behind. When I looked, it was the face I hated the most.

The source of all the problems, wanting to spit and strangle the neck of the person who smiled arrogantly in front of me.

...❤❤...

Excuse me for donating a song at Raymond and Lea's wedding to represent Erik's feelings, which we can sing together yuk 😁

It's my fault

Thinking too much about my ego

Can't make you comfortable with me

Until you leave me

It's too late already

Now you're gonna find him

Someone who can make you happy

I sincerely you go with him

I'm tucking him in

Continue my struggle 'tuknya

Happy for her, you love her

Like I love her

'Kan kuikhlaskan him

I don't deserve to be with him

'I received it with a chest

I'm not his soul mate

Song by Tri Asylum - I'm not her soul mate