Little Monster

A letter to Sasa

"Wake up, dear .." whispered Mas Indra lirih.

"Aaa ... still sleepy .." I replied spoiled.

"Yaudah, sleep again ...."

"Bag!!!"

"What's wrong?"

"Haishn ...."

I don't know why I wanted that this morning so much.

I pulled Mas Indra's arm and made him lie down again, then started my prank act.

"I want to run in the morning, honey ...."

"Exercise here .." my god looked at my husband spoiled.

Mas Indra did not want to lose, he deliberately made me angry and seemed to sell expensive when he wanted to too.

Haha.

Finally we both exercised this morning and took a shower and enjoyed breakfast together.

It has been 3 months since our religious wedding, the plan is for 2 more months we will hold a reception. Mas Indra's parents will also come here.

Ahh, I can't wait to meet my mother-in-law. All this time we only talked by phone and text only because he did not live in Indonesia.

Towards the reception, Mas Indra and I even got into a fight very often just because of trivial problems. We often fuss over small things like buildings, dresses and so on.

Actually I don't want to celebrate our wedding reception too lavishly, but Mas Indra wants it.

People say it may be a marriage test. But Mas Indra and I have actually become husband and wife, just not recorded in the civil record.

We both often disagree on many things. It also affected our emotions every weekend, Lea came to our house to play, which made me even more upset.

My hatred for that little monster is becoming more and more. I really can't stand it anymore with the spoiled attitude, the whiny, the lashing and all the shitty stuff that sucks him!

Even when there was that boy in our apartment, I was always looking for an excuse to go shopping or something.

I was still in college, too, so I often looked for excuses to go out even though I sometimes lied just to not meet my stepdaughter.

Mas Indra already knew my movements, so often he contacted Maria or Fani if I had to go out on the weekend.

But of course my two best friends are on my side.

Huh, the arrival of that little monster always managed to ruin my mood.

Mas Indra and I fought over it a lot.

Not only that, Mas Indra was also friends with Roni. I don't like him even though they have been friends for a long time since Mas Indra first came to this city.

Once upon a time Roni accused me of poison and bad influence on Mas Indra.

Roni even accused me of doing 'black magic' or black magic to get Mas Indra.

Unfortunately my husband rarely defended me when it came to his best friend. The reason was of course because they had been friends for a long time and understood each other.

Since knowing me, Mas Indra has changed a lot. He knew very well I did not like cigarette smoke because it had coughed violently due to inhaled cigarette smoke.

Slowly he began to reduce his smoking portion from one pack per day to three quarters, half, one quarter to none.

Although sometimes when meeting with colleagues, Mas Indra still smokes occasionally.

He also began a healthy life by diligently exercising such as running routine morning, playing futsal with his friends, eating healthy food and no longer consume alcohol like a few years ago when before finally with me.

I didn't know Mas Indra was changing because he wanted to attract my attention. I only told him to take care of his health.

At that time, I was joking like this :

"You must take care of your health, do not eat late, you will get sick later. If you're sick, then who am I?"

Hearing my joke, it might sound romantic to him. I just want to talk.

Ohya, Mas Indra had written a letter to me in very standard Indonesian.

It is more or less like this :

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"Your love has taught me so much. Good things come to those who wait. Your love has also shown me real happiness in My life. I've never felt the joy of spending time with you. Every single thing I've been through with you is a real joy. No wonder, I believe You were created for Me. I swear I will love you as long as I live.

I'm sorry I dropped you. I'm sorry for making you sad. I'd like to treat you like a queen and enjoy the time we have.

I promise to try to be wiser and learn from my mistakes. I Hope You Can Forgive Me. I love you so much.

My handwriting is so bad!

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The time was not moved, I laughed amusedly reading the contents of the letter from Mas Indra.

The words and sentences contained in the letter I believe he translated it into Indonesian, because the writing seemed very raw. I thought where is the romantic?

Mas Indra wrote the letter as an apology after making a mistake.

I don't know where he got the idea from to bother writing letters like that.

However, I was also touched to read the heartfelt letter from him.

Unbeknownst to Mas Indra, I still kept the letter and occasionally read it when we had a fight.

I also learned a lot that basically, men fall in love and women learn to love.

With Randy, maybe I'm the one who fell in love with him, I love Randy more and maybe I'm the one who's after him?

While with Mas Indra, at first I did not like him but in the end I also began to fall in love with his figure.

In Roni's eyes, I was the cause of all the drastic changes of Mas Indra. Every time Roni invites my husband to go to a nightclub or go somewhere I disagree with, Mas Indra finally did not leave so Roni hated me and thought I had brainwashed and poisoned my husband's mind.

Argh, I really want to use black magic to get rid of Roni. Why would I do all that? after me all this time is also Mas Indra.

I have indeed fallen in love and truly loved her, but it does not rule out the possibility that if we split up, yes I am okay.

Love comes and goes to everyone. I have even felt some pain and heartbreak. With Randy is the most painful of my exes. That is why I do not want to give up my heart completely even to Mas Indra. I just don't want to get hurt anymore.

No one would understand the pain of heartbreak if they had never felt themselves.

So, if I was not a match with Mas Indra, what would I say?

Although I know I do not like Roni, but every time we fight or there is a difference of understanding, Mas Indra will go to see Roni, because Roni is a friend who is trusted by Mas Indra.

Often after returning from Roni's place, Mas Indra so slightly changed.

She didn't realize that Roni was the one who poisoned her brain because of Roni's hatred for me.

Already know so, Mas Indra still always comes to Roni. Of course to get a defense from his best friend.

Like any other couple out there, small and ordinary things can always be disastrous if we are selfish and do not want to lose.

Moreover, I was quite whiny in the face of some things.

My college assignment was also a little disturbed by a lot of problems that occurred.

Preparation for our reception was also very draining of mind and energy.

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During the preparation of our wedding reception, it turned out that Mama Mas Indra had informed her that she would first visit here for a few days. He wanted to get to know the girl who made his favorite child fall closer.

That day also coincided with the business of Mas Indra which was dim but kept secret from Mama.

Mas Indra and I agreed not to tell anyone.

About a week of visiting here, Mama Mas Indra also returned and will come again at our wedding reception which was postponed at an unknown time.

During Mama Mas Indra here, Lea came to our residence. Although at first did not agree with the marriage of Mas Indra with Mbak Dewi, but as a woman, Mother and also Grandma, let alone see Lea who had grown up, but as a woman, His mother Mas Indra began to accept Leah's presence.

Unfortunately, that kid is really very naughty!

His mother Mas Indra even to the point of crying with Lea's attitude towards him.

However, Mama Mas Indra felt guilty for Lea because as a Grandma, she had not been beside Lea all this time.

After Mama's return, Mas Indra's business fell and fell. We're really in an unpleasant position. Mas Indra and I had to move into the apartment we had been living in. Not to mention Madam Dewi who always asks for monthly allowance Lea rations routinely filled.

Although I was just about to start my thesis, I decided to take a leave of absence from college.

One of Mas Indra's ugliness is that he is a wasteful person and always spends his money on things that sometimes make no sense.

Even when our conditions were down, Mas Indra had absolutely no savings!

I who had interned at college and worked part-time before finally meeting Mas Indra and often help Mom and get money from him, I used all my savings for our living expenses both.

From a luxury apartment we occupied before, now Mas Indra and I rented a contract that can at least be a shelter for both of us.

Actually Mother had offered to stay with him only, but Mas Indra refused because as a husband, he was the one who had to take responsibility for me.

We are going through a difficult time and are at zero. We don't even have any money at all. Mas Indra actually let me if I wanted to leave him now. Mas Indra's friends were also no one to help. He was also embarrassed if he had to ask his mother for help, even if he wanted to, Mas Indra only needed to call his mother and surely he would help and help Mas Indra.

All that he did not do because he wanted to fight alone and prove to his Papa that Mas Indra could live without help from him.

Mas Indra's relationship with his Papa was not good, Mas Indra's decision to return to this city and look for me was also very in about by the family, especially his Papa.

So, the fall of Mas Indra's business is also suspected of his own Papa even though there is no evidence.

Mas Indra was not too open to tell about his extended family and I never forced Mas Indra to tell a story.

Randy came to me again offering me all the luxury and comfort and asked me to come back to him.

Randy just realized that I'm better than the other guy.

Without a second thought, I prefer to stay with Mas Indra.

Under these conditions, it would be foolish to leave Mas Indra.

How could I leave my fallen husband and go with a man who has broken my heart over and over again?

I decided to fight together with Mas Indra. All remaining savings are used for business capital. I also borrowed Mom's money without Mas Indra's knowledge.

Now I go to Mom's house more often to help her cook and order food to earn money.

While Mas Indra was rebuilding his business from scratch, we both got tighter, I let go of my ego and my potent nature.

I have to help Mas Indra get up again. Not just for him, but the future for both of us.

By being in this kind of falling economic condition, we finally realized that everything is not eternal. Even Mas Indra's friends also stayed away.

I didn't tell Fani or Maria. I just don't want to suck out the family's problems.

I complain to God, Mother and Sister Vera.

It turns out that in the current condition, I am even more in love with Mas Indra.