Little Monster

Raining

Mas Indra had left for Bali this afternoon, now I was only at home alone with Lea.

Just a few hours apart, I missed my husband. Even if we are together, often small and trivial things we always make a fuss.

But under these circumstances, I really miss my husband.

And like married couples in general out there, there are indeed many unimportant checks that we often question, especially lately the problem or thing that we often make a fuss about is the Mother Goddess and Lea. That little monster business always succeeds in getting me emotional and ruining my 'mood' every time we talk about it. I'm really sick of all this.

As on Friday night in the second week ago when I made Lea cry because I forced her to do all the PR work, our fight was not over with just an apology.

In fact, that night we clashed and spent the whole night full of emotions, even I packed my clothes into a suitcase and prepared to go home to Mom but Mas Indra managed to persuade and prevent me from leaving.

Mas Indra did not accept my son to cry just because of PR problems alone. That night, I also expressed my frustration and also objection to Lea's presence in this house.

Moreover, Mas Indra intends to keep Lea here and stay with us even if his Grandmother has come again later, which of course makes me angry!

It's good to invite Lea to stay here while Madam Dewi will freely spend time and enjoy her life, while I have to take care of children who are not born from my womb? Just-there!

My emotions also overflowed when we discussed the money that Mas Indra routinely sent to Mbak Dewi every two weeks. Actually I have no problem with money, anyway I also get my own ration. But what I do not accept is, why is that much money used by Mother Goddess all this time?

Fulfilling the style of 'hedonism' and the 'upper class' life with his social friends?

Given that Lea only ate rice and eggs every day, the clothes brought here and the state of the boy every time we took him to go for a walk on the weekend. Not to mention the problems at school that Miss Rachel always told me about.

I also discovered new facts about the supposed misuse of money for Lea's extra tutoring.

The cost of tutoring per hour Lea is 150 thousand per five days a week. This means that in one month the total cost of tutoring is three million rupiah, but Mbak Dewi asks four million each month for tutoring only. Surely he ate Lea's million?

Okay, I did not bother about money and nominal, but saw Lea who could not write and read and info from Miss Rachel who said Lea was the slowest student in the class, makes me wonder if it's true that Lea got extra tutoring and has a private teacher? is it just the subterfuge Mother Goddess to get more money from her ex-husband?

I get annoyed every time I see the social media line Mbak Dewi with posts and photos filled with his 'hedon' style.

Well, it's none of my business but seeing the attitude and behavior of Lea so far who is so naughty and has no manners especially like to hit, especially, I wonder if Madam Dewi really takes good care of and educates Lea?

I did some 'stalking' and peeking at Madam Dewi's social media profile, but of course I used a 'clone' account aka a fake account and not my personal account.

It's crazy that if I use my main account, I can be caught if I 'cock' with his life. Wkwkwk.

Several times I staked out the social media profile of Madam Dewi also aims to find out who she is currently dating?

I really hope that Madam Dewi will soon be reunited with her soul mate and live happily with her partner so that her mother Mbak Dewi also does not continue to hate me and accuse me as a destroyer of happiness for her child.

Actually I was very curious and suspicious of the parenting pattern of Mother Mother Mother Mother Goddess. If I look, he's a bit 'fuck' that he should be, I don't think he's burdened with taking care of and caring for Lea. In addition to claiming to be able to take care of Lea herself, said Mas Indra, Mbak Dewi also does not believe in others to take care of her child, for example 'baby sitter' or child nurse. So from the beginning was indeed Mother Mother Mother Goddess who took care of Lea all this time.

If I noticed, when Lea was angry and sulking, her eyes would bulge like she was about to take off just like her Grandma when she scolded me first. Lea also did not hesitate to hit and slam the door when her 'mood' changed. The boy often shows a 'moody' attitude or a very contrasting change of attitude from minute to minute.

Sometimes, suddenly Lea would smile to herself and laugh out loud for no reason.

I used to be scared when the boy suddenly laughed when he was crying or sniffing.

I've even worried that Lea has a disorder or mental illness or something.

But of course, I did not tell Mas Indra.

Is it okay for Grandma Lea to treat her granddaughter casually? did Mother Mother Mother Goddess ever hit Lea or did physical violence against the boy?

I can't accuse you without proof. But how am I supposed to know what's been going on all this time?

Indeed Lea had admitted that his grandmother was 'falak'. I said, 'Momie isn't it fierce?' but the boy replied, "but I like Momi."

Pffttt .. how can I know Mother Mother Mother Mother Goddess babysit Leah every day huh? I never went into that house.

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Ahh, Mas Indra has also not replied to my chat, has he not 'landed' (landed)? or maybe just get to the hotel and rest?

Outside, the sky looks cloudy and dark. Do you want rain?

Hwaa .. in the rain and cold so it should be more beautiful if Indra mas is beside me.

*Jeduweeerrrr .. jeduweeerrrr, glodakkk!! bresss!!

The sound of lightning sounded very loud outside and then a moment later millions of grains of water fell to the earth, very fast.

I love the rain, for in the rain, the grace of the Lord comes down to the earth and soaks the arid soil.

But heavy rain for Mas Indra even always reminds him of my attitude that did not care about him.

I even feel good to sleep while he's wet outside the fence of Mom's house.

I approached the window and looked out. I loved the rain so much, even with my madness, I started counting every drop. Usually from behind, Mas Indra would hug me and we both dissolved in this madness, 'counting the rain drops'.

"Hufff .. I miss you, Mas, 'right here, right now' (here, now)." Batinku.

"Yahoo, hwaaa!!"

*Dubrraaaka!!

It seems I heard Lea's voice outside, was she afraid of the lightning and the sound of heavy rain? then what was that noise again? was the door slammed? who did it?

I immediately ran out and I didn't find Lea in the front room. Where is the kid? I saw the door of his room closed, was he inside? was Leah the one who slammed the door?

"Lea, where are you, son?!" I asked as I opened the door of the room and I found my little monster crying in the corner of the room while covering its ears with both hands.

I approached Lea and wanted to take her to my room. But, suddenly the boy shouted and his eyes bulged. The eyes I last saw on the fifth day of the first week.

What's wrong with this kid?

Leah continued to cry and scream, both tiny hands still covering her two ears.

Is Lea afraid of rain?

I kept coming closer to ask her to stand up, then,

"Babbuuukkkk!!"

"Ouucchhh!!" I reflexively shouted as the little monster's hand hit the hand I held out. What is this??!!

"Lea?! how did you hit Momi?"

"Hwaaa .. hwaa .. 'go away!' (go)!"

"Lea? it's Momi, son .." I kept coming closer and clutching the child's body, I felt his breath so fast with tears flowing and his voice getting hoarse.

I hugged Lea's body even though she refused and revolted, but of course I was stronger and could control the body of the Kindergarten boy.

"I hate you! go away! (I hate you! go)!"

"Lea, look, son, what's wrong with you?!"

"No!! go away! (No!! go)!"

I don't know what happened just now. Yes, I was wrong to leave Lea playing alone up front and enjoying the rain, but wasn't Lea okay? why did he suddenly yell and tell me to leave and even say hate to me? is it true that Lea actually hates me because I'm too hard on her?

"Momi? Momi, I'm afraid momi, hiks ... hiks ...."