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Disappeared

Radit took me inside the tv room. He made me a cup of tea.I heard Grandma come out of his room. Grandma seemed very worried about my situation.

"Ran Where have you been? Grandma and Radit can't reach Ran. "

"Ran lembur nek. Ran was directly invited to Ran's birthday. Sorry, grandma, sorry dit. Hp Ran ran out of battery. So Ran did not give word. " I said I lied.

This is all I had to do. I don't want my videos to be spread. Those junk videos are gonna ruin my life. I don't want everything to be destroyed.

"Next time don't forget to tell us Ran. Grandma see it's been two weeks Ran always overtime. If Ran has a story problem with us, son. Grandma and Radit must have helped Ran. "

My glassy eyes held back tears. I really feel like I'm trash.

"Yes, yeah dit. Ran promised to give you news." I said.

I finally decided to take a break. I was willing to enter the room. I take off my shirt and look at the glass in my room. The bruises on my chest, abdomen and thighs were very clear. I'll get my towel right away. I rushed to the bathroom.

With slow steps I looked around, grateful that grandma and Radit had entered the room. Immediately I locked the bathroom door and then doused myself with water. This whole body I rubbed with all my might. I held myself so I wouldn't cry. My hands and some parts of my body bleed so hard I rub. After being satisfied I went back to the room. I lock the door. I put my face in the pillow. I was crying so it happened.

I was trying hard earlier. I try hard to make everything look good.

Why should I? What wrong? I asked God. Why do I always get in trouble. This burden is heavy.

The next day....

I woke up with an incredibly sick body. I decided not to go to work that day. I can't work under these conditions.

There was no message on my phone from an unknown number.

📞 How is it baby? you were satisfied last night? So satisfied you can't go to work?

I can immediately guess who it is. It must be Umar's asshole.

📞 Why not be baled? Remember our video? if the whole office knows how?

He's got the courage to drive me now. Hunt me to return it.

☎ Yes I know. Please do not act recklessly for the sake of your career as well.

My reply

📞 Hahahaha... Take it easy, beautiful. As long as you follow my game, everything will be safe.

I really wanted to end my life at that time.

I'm out of the room. Grandma was ready to leave. He kissed my head and Radit. It's just me and Radit in that house.

It just so happens that today the handyman that Radit assigned to build the clinic did not come. Radit approached me.

"How do your eyes swell? "

"Mmmmmmm, I miss my parents. " I'm back to lying.

"Gw wants to anterin lo to the place of your parents Ran. Sorry yes Ran a few weeks ago I ga anter pick you up to the office. I was busy myself. "

" Not that dit. Anter pick me up is not your responsibility. I'm just another guy in. I just hitchhiked in your place. Don't feel burdened. "

"Don't talk about it, Ran. Since you've been here everything has changed. My life, grandma's life all gets better when there are lo. "

" Grandma's life is good because you came here. Not because of gw. "

" Why dit?? why do you diem? "

"Ngga papa Ran's. I just want to rush the clinic. You know there are many who need me Ran. "

I know Radit's trying to divert the conversation.

I was allowed to rest in the room that day. When I opened it I saw a lot of wa from Mr. Umar. He sent me pictures of my clothes without clothes. Photos of when I was tied, and when she fucked me. My body is shaking violently. I was so scared.

Mr. Umar is really mentally ill. He pressured me this way so I would follow his orders.

📞 How is it baby? Are you horny? you want to see our video?

I read wa from him. Honestly, I don't enjoy it. There was only pain when Mr. Umar fucked me.

These tears flowed non-stop. I can only reflect on my fate without knowing what to do. No one can help me at this moment. Only I myself can help me.

I saw a cutter on top of my closet. I'll take that cutter. I swiped slowly into my veins. Slowly fresh blood was pouring out. I don't feel any pain at all. I actually felt a great sense of relief.

Suddenly my sight blurred..

***

The little boy came again. Yes, the little boy with the face looks a lot like me. We're in a very beautiful place. A vast desert filled with flowers. Lots of pretty butterflies there.

"Mbak Ran's... Ayok here. "

He took me somewhere

I clasped his hand..

we flew far and far away..

I heard Radit's voice. At first the sound was slow and long getting closer and closer. Finally a very bright light came.

I opened my eyes slowly. I see my surroundings. I saw Grandma and Radit crying while holding my hand.

I can see my hands on the bandage. I used oxygen and a lot of tools attached to my body and my head.Also I saw a lot of infusion tubes. There were also some blood bags there.

I tried to get up but I couldn't. I can't feel my body. It feels like it's floating.

I sayup I hear Radit crying, and also I hear Grandma's voice trying to calm Radit down.

I heard their conversation.

"Radit doesn't want to lose Ran Nek. Radit can't. "

" The patient. Grandma knows it's heavy. Grandma's sure Ran's cured."

"Ran why is Grandma? Why would you commit suicide? Is it all because of Radit nek??? "

I want to think I told her it wasn't her fault. But these lips are locked tightly.

I didn't expect Radit to blame himself for what happened to me. All this because of my mistake. Because of my stupidity. Radit shouldn't be involved in this disgusting drama of my life.

I forced myself to wake up. But absolutely can't. The shadow of the little boy always accompanied me. Every kid took me away. It was always Radit's voice that built me up.

I don't know how long I've been lying in this bed. My feeling was like I was floating in the air. Walk away in a long, dark hallway that has no end to it. Am I dead? Thought me. But I always go back to this bed. To the place where my body lay stiff.