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Homehouse

"Strash"

The noise woke me up. I looked at the clock in my room at 3am. I took my glasses and I started to check what was going on.

"Go from my house, you useless man. "

"Brani you are....."

Ahhhhhh!!!!!

The voice was heard from my parents' room. I closed my room again, I put on my earphones and I set the song from my phone as loud as possible.

Well, yes my parents often quarrel, and there is often violence and harsh words in my family. As one child, there was no place to complain or share stories. Even the story to my friends is disinclined. Because of my hell-like home, my parents' bad habits and frequent cursing at me I grew up to be a quiet child. I often hide my feelings.

When I was a kid, I was never allowed to cry. My parents always punish me if I cry. That's why I always try to look strong even though my heart hurts.

I woke up this morning with a slightly dizzy head. I just realized today is the day of my graduation announcement. I rushed to the bathroom and prepared to go to school.

When I was ready to open the door, I saw that my mother was sitting down to prepare breakfast.

"Ran, are you ready? it's mom making you fried rice and tea " exclaimed my mom

I also rushed for breakfast

"Mom, where's Dad? " said

"Mom doesn't know. Your father's bias whenever there's trouble is always blurred. "

I fell silent and finished my breakfast. I didn't ask any further because I knew it would make my mother angry.

After breakfast I rushed to book an ojek online and immediately left for school.

At school

I put down my bag and I started reading books while waiting for the school bell.

"Ran, how your eyes are getting minus.every day read a mute book" seduced Mayang my dear friend.

"Abis confused to do again. "flat rattles

"Ah ga asik lo Ran. Eh Ran abis this graduation you want to go on where? "

"Hmmm, I also know. I think I work directly. "

"What??? lo ga college? "

"Ga May's. Ortu I don't have that much money for college. I also want a burden for them. "

"Well, what burden? You're the only child."

"Gw is self-conscious, May. "

The conversation ended as the class bell rang.

That morning the graduation announcement was announced. All the students in my school graduated 100%.

Many children come home with happy smiles.

I also went home. In the living room I saw my mom and dad sitting together. I told them I graduated.

Their faces are flat. Without any expression, it was just "good" I heard from my father.

Unlike other parents who are proud if their children graduate with satisfactory grades.

"Ran, Mom and Dad can't afford you college. So you go looking for work in a big city" said my father indifferently while watching television.

"Part of doing college girls. The end of it you will just be housewife Ran." exclaimed my mother

Honestly, I'm disappointed. I wanted to get a little attention and congratulations from my parents.

"Yes Ran tau. Ran also did not ask at the lecture of father and mother. Ran knows himself. Thank you for attending Ran until you graduate. Ran's just trying to be a good boy, mom. But are there no words and hugs from father and mother for Ran who has tried? Ran ga asked what. Ran just wants to be watched a little. "

I said with a trembling voice while holding back the cry.

"YOU THINK SCHOOLING YOU UNTIL NOW ISN'T ATTENTION??!!! "

BRakkkkkk

my dad slammed a tivi remote into me and

PLAKKKK

Slapped my cheek

I just stood there again and again.

in this house I cannot protest at all.

I must always accept. Whatever it is, I'm back in my room.

I change my clothes and I get into bed.

I looked up at the sky in my room.

I thought about how and what I should do after this. Where I'm going. Because I'm sure that after this incident my parents will certainly consider me just a burden to them.

Sometimes I wonder what my fault is? where is my sin? all this time I always try to be the best. all this time the homework I always do. My value never once disappointed. While contemplating I did not feel my tears coming out. I cry in silence. I covered my face with a blanket. Put all my emotions in tears.

After crying, I rushed to get my laptop. I started looking for a job. I also have a cv ready to send. I'm sure with my value there must be a company that accepts me. I don't care how big or small my salary will be. My only goal is one, I want to leave this place. A place where all the pressure is on me, a place where no one appreciates me at all. All this time I was silent. I don't know why my heart hurts today. Everything I've been holding I can't hold anymore.

I just stayed in my room all day looking for opportunities. Even my mom and dad weren't worried about me in the room all day. But I don't think I'm gonna want to bother about that. Right now I'm just focusing on getting a job. I was tired and fell asleep in front of my laptop....

Days change, weeks change. It turns out that everything is not as easy as my mind. I'm starting to stress. I have sent hundreds of cvs via email to many companies. But there has been no reply from them.

I was beginning to despair, my parents said. I'm useless. I'm just trash and a burden.

"Crowing"

the email notification on my phone reads

I open it immediately and I see

"FR. Mighty Anugrah

to Yth Raniya Carissa on the spot

in connection with the cv you provide to our company, we invite you to interview in the city of Z on Thursday 15th May 2022. We are waiting for your presence. Thanks though. "

I was stunned to see my phone.

My heart is so happy. I ran out of my room and showed my mother that email

"Mom, Ran get the job done ma'am" I said excitedly

"Oh, great" said my mother flatly.

I'm speechless. Instantly my happiness was lost seeing the coldness of my mother's response.

Not wanting to spark a debate. I slowly went into the room.

I encouraged myself. While looking at the glass.

"Ran you can. You definitely can. Vibrancy"

I hurried to prepare all my equipment. The things I brought were not much. I just brought a few pieces of my shirt, my file, my phone and my laptop.

I also broke my piggy bank that I kept under my bed. I know Father and Mother will definitely not want to spend a dime of their money for my departure to the city.

Brakkkk...

I broke my piggy bank.. I counted the money one by one.

I think all this is enough for me to survive.

I immediately booked a train ticket from hpku.the cheapest of course.

Luckily there was an empty seat for me.

I breathed a sigh of relief. I wish I could be free of all of this soon. My dream is not too high. I just want to live alone, without the abuse, my father and my mother.