Life After Forty's
Episode 20 again and again
Within each
farewell, night is hell. Loneliness, loneliness and regret always come in that moment. Amanda was really tormented at night
arriving. Crying alone without any
someone who knows and tries hard to sleep. That's not easy either. It's been more than a month, but torture
solitude is really painful and not yet willing to leave. He's felt this way before, but
the time with Fauzan was indeed a long process, but with Monrue the one incident
night solved everything. Whatever
the process of losing is never easy. In Amanda's determined heart, there is no need for new love in the
hearts. Too tired to be a person
wasted like this.
Fauzan's name on his phone,
what was Fauzan calling him at night. He immediately picked it up, afraid there was
what matters.
“What's up?”
“No papa, Just want to make sure
you okay?”
“Oh... How do you ask?”
“Since Monrue came home
much silence. You still sad Man?”
Amanda smile. “Sad yes, but
I'm doing fine. Thank you for asking.”
“Hm..
this?” Tanya Fauzan hesitated.
Amanda laughed and glanced at the clock
wall, 1 p.m. “Not so much either. Thanks yes I'm fine.”
“Man, I love you. Always love you. I'm sad to see you sad like this.”
“Still.”
“There can I help?”
“Support me to strong yes!” Pinta
Amanda sincere.
“Pasti.”
“I slept ya.”
“Ok.
Good night.”
The connection is closed. Amanda was a little calm
fauzan's attention to him. Attempt to
sleep and he succeeded.
Time indeed
the most effective medicine. When it has two
moon, slowly the wound improved as time went on. Amanda's crying no longer happens in
nightly. Only occasionally did he remember Monrue
again if Monrue is on television. Yes, it can not be avoided profession singer. If forbidden wara-wiri on TV mah just the same
not allowing him to live. Slowly
even Amanda can tell you what really happened. But Fauzan is not emotional, look
how Monrue also regrets what she did, and Amanda's way
solving the problem, it seems clear Amanda is able to overcome the problem without
fauzan's Intervention. Currently the
it takes Amanda only Fauzan's support as a friend. The image also tried hard to comfort the
mother. Sometimes Bimo even video calls with him just asking
it is reported. Support from a small family
it means a lot to Amanda. Him
very appreciative of that. Make Amanda already
enough time for him to love himself. He should be able to return to normal for the sake of those around him and for the sake of
himself too.
Midway
October, Fauzan comes to Monrue. Monrue was actually somewhat wondering the purpose Fauzan was meeting
himself. When Fauzan called him, he,
Monrue is willing to meet in the region close to his studio. Finally they agreed to meet at one
restaurants in Tebet.
They came almost simultaneously. Meeting at the parking lot, they entered
restaurants together. They're just the two of them. After ordering their food later
light-hearted talk.
“How are you doing?” Fauzans
pleasantries.
Monrue smiled. “News Amanda
how's mas?” he wanted to know more about the woman.
Fauzan smiled faintly. “Live, already
rarely cry again now.”
Monrue was serious. “Then sad
really mas?”
“In front of strong people, but I like
see anyway, often bengong continue to cry secretly. But now it is no longer.”
Monrue between sad and happy
hear that testimony. Sad because
it turns out he hurt the woman he loves. Happy he wasn't easy
forgettable. For a moment Monrue became pensive.
“Mon, I'm here to talk. I'll take Amanda to refer.”
“Ya mas, don't dong!” Monrue is so
truthfully. “Gue how if you refer.”
Fauzan was shocked by the honest request
Monrue. “Gue wait is six years Mon,
less patient what am I?” Fauzan so ask
understanding Monrue. “Gue at all
not involving yourself with your relationship, elo who is not grateful with
that.”
Monrue quiet. It's all his fault. But he couldn't. “Gue was wrong, but
I love Manda.”
“According to elo I don't?”
Monrue quiet. “We leave it to
Amanda yes mas, if indeed he wants to return with elo, I promise I do not
will bother you like you used to appreciate me. But if Amanda prefers I should
sincere yes mas.”
“Ok.” Fauzan agrees.
“When will elo propose to him?”
“After three months you split.”
“Late this month?”
Fauzan nodded.
Monrue sighed. She's terrified.
“Ok. I went back to the office. Just want to say it's the same elo.”
Monrue nodded. “Please mas, elo
already told you.”
Fauzan nodded and passed.
Leaving the pensive Monrue
terrified.
At the end
in October, Fauzan had prepared his mentality for a serious talk
Amanda, about her wish to be together again. Sunday afternoon, when they are
just the two, because Citra was busy in her own room. Fauzan gets a chance to
revealing his heart. Amanda
surprised to hear Fauzan's request. Not his real request, but his time was too
quick one.
I'm Manda.” Fauzan. “Six years I've been waiting for you. Can't you
considering it?”
Amanda thought. Yes too
yep. Tear him never asked
fauzan to wait for him. He could have been
looking for another woman.
“I just want you Manda, I miss
you.” Fauzan continued to beg.
Amanda knew that
Fauzan never stopped loving her. But still it's too soon. The shadow of Monrue still existed clearly in his heart. It's not fair to everyone. She was with a man but
his heart was still left for the other man. Oh that's not her at all.
“What is there is no residual love for you
me?”
Amanda dizzy. Hadeuh.
this rush anyway? At the time when he had
determined to live without love, even love comes and turns
like this. Wh-wh-what for? to hurt him
any more? Cape deh's. But look at the face
The hopeful Fauzan, and how this man is so loyal
accompany him even though it is not the love of his life Amanda so not
tega. He still loves Fauzan.
“Let me one month to be ready
accept you yes. I'm asking for one month for myself.” Amanda's trying to buy time. It's really too fast for him.
Fauzan nodded in understanding. It was my hope that Amanda would take it back.
During one
amanda's moon did not allow either Fauzan or Monrue to go to her house. If Fauzan misses Citra, Amanda will
ask for an image to Fauzan's house. Only
a few dozen meters away, still in the same complex. He really wants to be alone. To see if he really needed
companion in his life. She became
often crying recollects how Fauzan treated her and how
Monrue betrayed him. The nights are spent with prayer. Give in to the power, put his life forward. Day by day Fauzan's shadow was strong,
but even the shadow of Monrue was still there. Still in doubt, he finally called Fauzan to talk.
“Is there another woman you
sleep besides Elly when we were together?”
Fauzan was really shocked by
that question. He really isn't
ready. Doubtful, if he's lying, time
start a new life with a lie. But if he's honest, he's afraid Amanda will undo his intention to
back together. Finally Fauzan nodded.
Amanda curious. “Who? Somebody
who I know?”
“Aura.”
Amanda shocked. “You're in touch again
with Aura?”
“We're just best friends now
Mandaic. He is the place I pour out
my sorrow is losing you. I also
place confided because the marriage is not happy.”
“You are in touch until
now?”
Fauzan nodded. “We just
friends Manda.”
“Friend but sleep?”
Fauzan.
“Create what you ask me
revert. If you still have love
another?”
“I don't love him Manda.”
Amanda nodded in understanding.
I mean to end this conversation. “Ok, I get it.” He's very disappointed.
“Manda I promise, whatever you
ask me to fill it. You want me not
see him again, I want.” Fauzan is still
endeavoured.
Amanda frustration. “I totally understand
with a promise of men. Would not
possible fixed.”
“I'm not Monrue Manda.”
Amanda was angry. “Do not bring
someone else is in this conversation! He has nothing to do with the problem
we.”
Fauzan. Almost desperate. “I just love you Manda, I beg you.”
Fauzan is really wailing.
Amanda really isn't
concerned with Fauzan's request. But
he remembered his days, how Fauzan really was in his life
unsolicited. How about six years
fauzan did not give space to other women. “What frequent
you met him?”
Fauzan was silent for a moment. “Every three months he goes to Jakarta,
must meet at head office.”
Fauzan sighed. “That's it if he calls me, I never
find out when he'll be here.” Fauzan defended himself.
“Where does he live?”
“Bali.”
“Running his parents' business?”
Fauzan shook his head, “Usaha people
his parents had been bankrupt for a long time before his parents died. He works in leasing company now.”
Amanda silence.
“I'll stop meeting him. I'll ignore her calls, phone
she, whatever about her I wouldn't care about Manda. I-i promise. “
Amanda silence. “I want to say the same
dia.” Fauzan's promise wasn't enough for him.
“Now?” Fauzan's confused.
“Can video call right?”
Fauzan contacted Aura by phone
hold it, ask the possibility of being able to talk long. Aura also supported him. Then connect the two women.
Amanda spoke well with
Aura, about the possibility of him returning with Fauzan, and hoping Aura can
accepting and agreeing not to see Fauzan again. As Fauzan's wife, she will not
maybe accept that strange friendship. Aura was silent for a moment. But he finally accepted it. Any way back with Amanda is
fauzan's dream, there's no way he's holding it back. Aura promised not to contact Fauzan no matter what. The conversation ended. Amanda felt like she was the most selfish woman
the world's. But he was too tired when
the house must be destroyed again. When his conversation with Aura was over. Amanda took a deep breath. He also accepted Fauzan back.
Fauzan is very relieved. The burden has gone. Many times he thanked me
to Amanda. Now stay
planning how the wedding was done. A real marriage, of course. Marriage is legal in the eyes of the state and religion.
Hundreds of miles from them
there, a woman was crying. Failed his plans to be with Fauzan. After all Aura was able to come happily with
the dream of Fauzan. His heart was crying and started to miss Fauzan.
