Let Time

Part 9's

Hearing what Arkan said just now, Zara felt like she had been dropped after Zara thought her relationship with Arkan would be getting closer, but in fact now Zara was just destroyed by Arkan. Until Arkan's heart after getting his rights from Zara but he instead thanked and thought of other women.

Zara turned her back to Arkan, as if she had been defeated by the invisible wound Arkan had made in Zara's heart.

"Sleep. You must be tired, there are still two hours before dawn" Arkan said as he wrapped his hands around Zara's waist and kissed Zara's head from behind.

"It's Zara. Zara knows I'm doing this because I think Zara is Almira, right? Stop mas." said Zara with a voice shaking Zara's tears surfing beautifully on Zara's white cheeks.

"What do you mean?" ask Arkan unaware of what happened.

"Just ask yourself" said Zara. Arkan was honest he was confused what he had said? Why did Zara seem so disappointed in him. And Almira?  Why did Zara bring Almira when they were just as trying to build their household. The Arkan brain thinks fast.  Wait, did he just say a word that hurt Zara without her noticing? What should Arkan do now?

"Zara.." call Arkan close his body to Zara's. Zara got up and walked to the bathroom without caring for Arkan's call. Arkan looked at Zara, he saw Zara walking in limp. Arkan thinks if there's really a word that Arkan said and hurt Zara he feels very guilty.

About 30 minutes later, Zara came out of the bathroom. Zara forgot to bring clothes so she came out only using bathrobe only. Ah bodo is very with Arkan because Arkan now has Zara completely. Arkan was quite shocked when he saw Zara coming out of the bathroom using only a bathrobe. But his mind immediately turned to focus on Zara who was walking around like she was holding back pain.

"illness?" ask Arkan while approaching Zara and want to help Zara.  But Zara immediately shook Arkan's hand.

"Zara can be alone." replied Zara sharply. Arkan just took a breath. Arkan set foot in the bathroom. When Arkan came out of the bathroom he saw Zara sitting on the prayer mat clearly it seemed like Zara had just finished the evening prayer. Arkan stood on the side of the bed doing nothing. He watched Zara closely and saw tears flowing from Zara's eyes. As consciously being noticed, Zara immediately ended her prayer and left the room without removing the face she was wearing.

Until a week after the incident Arkan asked for his rights. Their relationship is not the better it is even more stretched. Zara avoids Arkan they will only meet if in the room before bed and at the dining table when they want to eat together with others as well.

Finished dinner with Zara chose to accompany Sabiya to play because Alisya happened to be going with her mother. Zara accompanied Sabiya drawing while making meruroja'ah for children the age of Sabiya mermuroja'ah while playing was more interesting.

"Assalamu'alaikum is beautiful" Arkan said while sitting next to Sabiya.

"Alaikumsalam." answered Sabiya although not perfect answer greetings but it is always taught to say and answer greetings so Sabiya was quite accustomed.

"Bi, aunt Zara was there first." said Zara to Sabiya.

"Let's not be long" said Sabiya.

Arkan tau Zara went not for a purpose but just to avoid Arkan. This week has always been so.

"What's so beautiful about not being bobo?" ask Arkan.

"Om not yet. Biya is not sleepy yet." replied Sabiya as she continued drawing it.

"But Biya's eyes are already red, Biya has also been lashing out. Bobo yes, yuk om temenin." take Arkan while lifting Sabiya to his carrier.

"Biya wants to be the same ateu Zara" Sabiya said.

"Sabiya. He wants to be cemented bobo same ateu Zara" Arkan said when he was in front of Zara.

"Ateu bobo" Sabiya said as she rubbed her eyes.

"Jaudah yuk kita bobo. But Biya rubs her teeth, washes her hands and feet first" Zara said as she took Sabiya from Arkan's sling. Sabiya just nodded. Zara stepped out of the room towards Sabiya's room. Arkan breathed a little, hoping that tonight he could really solve his problems with Zara. Not that Arkan wouldn't finish before. Arkan felt he had to muster up the courage to discuss this with Zara because Arkan honestly did not really know the reason Zara silenced him. Arkan only guessed something because Zara changed after previously giving the one Zara had been guarding for Arkan.  Arkan had thought if Zara regretted it until Zara had to silence her? 

The sound of the door opening showed Zara entering her room.

"Sabiya is asleep?" ask Arkan when Zara enters the room. Zara just nodded.

"I need to talk to you" Arkan said. Zara looks at Arkan for a moment and leaves Arkan for the bathroom. Out of the bathroom Zara immediately laid her body on the bed. Zara sleeps behind Arkan's back. Arkan who was initially sitting on the sofa when he saw Zara lying down and closed his eyes he got up and headed for the bed. Arkan lay facing Zara's back. A second later, Zara, who had not really slept, felt a round, burly hand on her waist. Zara looks surprised he tried to release Arkan's hand from his waist but instead of releasing Arkan's hand it is getting tighter and his body is getting stuck to Zara's back.

"Don't I tell you we need to talk? You didn't hear? Or do you want to talk another way?" ask Arkan while tightening his embrace.

"Speak what you want to talk about, but please take your hands off Zara's body." Pinta Zara. Zara thought her request was not difficult for Arkan to follow but in fact Arkan did not at all let go of his embrace.

"Why are you avoiding me?" ask Arkan without following Zara's request. Zara did not answer.

"Don't we agree to try to start everything and build this family?" ask Arkan again. Zara did not answer.

Arkan breathed his breath rough. Arkan thought it seemed like it was necessary in another way for Zara to make a sound. Arkan is closing his body to Zara. He started to kiss Zara's hair. Since then, Arkan has strictly prohibited Zara from wearing a hijab in the room and only the two. Arkan initially kissed and sniffed Zara's hair but now turned to Zara's shoulders. Zara moved her head trying to get away from Arkan.

"Stop mas. What you want to talk about right now Zara will answer quickly" Zara said, trying to stop Arkan.

"I want you." whispered Arkan in Zara's ear.

"Then I mentioned another woman's name and said I love her that way?" zara sarcasm.

"What do you mean?" ask Arkan.

"If that's the way to hurt Zara to get Zara away from mending mas stop. Zara will retreat in Zara's own way." replied Zara with a trembling voice as if the painful moment was again greeting Zara.

"Zara wants to let Zara go. We are just as backward from this marriage. Zara doesn't want to live as a shadow." replied Zara her tears just flowed out of pain as she said that. But how does Zara know now that Arkan has another woman. Zara doesn't want to live as someone else in Arkan's life. When Arkan can't accept him as Zara, he's better off stepping down. Although Zara knows this is stupid for having to give up before the war.

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**To be continued...

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