Let Time

Part 1's

Nissa Muzzaki Azzara

Today my status has changed to that of a wife. Today I came to a family. I'm gonna start scraping pens in my new life sheet. Trying to string together every event even though I never knew what it would end up like.

I know the steps I take will not always be easy. The road I'm going on won't always be smooth. But I hope that my parents' and God's will always accompany me in my life with someone who is now my husband, my priest.

In this sacred bond, though, me and my husband ah it still feels too awkward to call him a husband because all I know in this sacred bond we are still the same in the process of trying to accept destiny has not been based on the usual sense of people more know him as love. Because the sacred sentence has been successfully spoken by him is not to blame if I hope that one day taste, that feeling, that love will grow by itself.

Let time answer.

Let time prove it.

Arkhan Rafka Khairy

Today the sacred sentence I have successfully spoken. The green and brown book with the Garuda symbol that we signed managed to be a silent witness where we were bound.

At the age of 25 years, my responsibility is not only limited to myself. My duty now is not just to divide my parents. Now there's someone I asked from his family who is now my responsibility. Although actually not entirely I ask because since the meeting until now we are bound is the result of arranged marriage.

I always try to convince myself that this is not bad. I'm sure the parents' choice is good. Although actually my heart is still worried, my ego is still high to be able to fully accept. Because honestly there is something I pray in my do'a every prayer. But what I want may not be the best and what I want may not be what I need.

Let the time that answers enable me to truly accept.

Allow time to answer can I really be the man in charge.

***

In a third of the night when most friends his age choose to sleep soundly under the covers. The 21-year-old girl was looking up on the prayer mats complaining all her complaints and worries begged to be given directions to His Lord so that he did not take the wrong step and did not make the wrong decision to happen some the past time has determined the direction of his life.

Whispering to the earth hoping to hear the heavens, Zara's memory returns at that time.

The flashback

The sun will soon return to the blue sky turned orange when the day turns to dusk, Zara just returned home after a day of completing her obligations as a student.

Just arriving in front of the house Zara was greeted by the sound of laughter coming from inside her house. Not to bother, Zara immediately said her greetings and entered the house. It was a warm welcome from some people who were in the living room besides their parents. Finished greeting and greeting his parents and guests Zara farewell to the room.

In the evening after the prayer isya the small family of Mr. Akbar consisting of Mr. Akbar, Rifa's mother and 3 children were having dinner together. As usual after dinner they took time to talk together for them this is quality time after a busy day with their activities each night their families always set aside at least 30 minutes for quality time. Like tonight's done eating Dad opened the conversation.

"What's the matter today at his office?" ask Dad to Ahkam who is none other than brother Zara.

"Hm Alhamdulillah well Abang also just signed a cooperation with Arkan." replied Ahkam.

"Alhamdulillah then."

"Yes yeah."

"What age is it now?" ask Dad to arrive.

"Age of 24 What's up? I want you to be patient, you are not ready" Ahkam said in a relaxed reply. Hearing Ahkam's reply, Father and mother just shook their heads.

"What if Zara's sister?" Ask Zara.

"Hm 21" said Zara.

"Mother time Zara's age already has Brother Ahkam loh son."

"Kat denger said mother. Instead of hanging out with him do not keep the same book haha" said Abizar mocked his brother.

"You won't help me if you have a job" Zara told Abizar.

"Biarin there's still Brother Wlee" Abizar said as he mocked Zara.

"Adeeekkk" said Zara annoyed.

"You've been this" said the mother.

"Sister, for the size of the age of the sister woman is suitable for marriage" said Father arrived.

"Why did you suddenly say that?" zara asked while looking at her father.

"Allright? Oh yes Zara has her own choice yet?" ask me softly. Zara simply replied with a headband.

"Sister this afternoon saw a guest coming home, right?" ask mother. Again Zara simply replied with a nodding movement of her head.

"They were friends ah maybe you could say Dad's best friend. His name is Mr. Zainal with Rani's mother" said Father.

"Keep the same relationship with Zara?" ask Zara.

"So gini. Back when Mom was pregnant with Zara, we were just as promised later that the father's son and the mother's daughter would match her with their first child."

Uhukk... Zara who was drinking became choked, her nose became flushed and the exact pain that Zara felt in her nose. Ahkam and Abizar were just as shocked to hear Dad's words.

"Dad.." said Zara whining with eyes that had glass. Ahkam who was beside him seemed to understand the surprise of his sister he stroked Zara's back gently.

"Can you go ahead?" said Father. Again Zara simply replied with a very weak nod.

"So here, they were here intending to make our agreement a reality first, because now their son is 25 years old and the father's daughter's age is also 21 father feels ready to get married" said Father explained.

"Dad Zara is still in college. Zara's age is also not too late to get married what should arrive at this match. Zara also does not know who Zara is betrothed Zara does not introduce who she is like" Zara said in a soft voice but slightly shook Zara held back her tears.

"Sister, Father and mother will not mean sister to agree. But at least brother do not immediately refuse Brother can think first" said mother calming.

Zara was silent. Zara did not want to be carried away by emotions to fight her parents.

"No, the family's plan is to come again later this week. They would come to ask Zara the answer directly. Son, the decision is in Zara's hands Father will not be meaningful but I just remind anything later Zara's decision must have a solid reason not to follow emotions."

"Oh yeah if Zara doesn't know I'm introducing you at a glance. The son of Zainal and Rani's mother is Arkan, 25 years old. Zara still has time until the weekend."

"Well, Zara will think. Anything else to say? If enough Zara excuse me to the room first yes. Assalamu'alaikum." said Zara immediately ran to the 2nd floor towards her room.

Flashback off

Remembering the incident made Zara unable to hold back her tears. It doesn't feel like their families are coming tonight. For several days Zara continued to pray for the best for herself so as not to make the wrong decision. But one of Zara's questions remains, Is the man named Arkan sincerely accepting this matchmaking?

The sound of the dawn marker returned Zara from her daydream.

Tok tok Zara's room door was knocked. It was definitely his mother to invite Zara to pray at dawn together because Father, Ahkam and Abizar went to pray together in the mosque.

After the morning prayers, Zara kissed her mother's hand.

"Sister.." Call mommy to Zara.

"Yes bun."

"Aren't you angry with Daddy and Mommy?"

"Honestly Zara was disappointed because this concerned Zara and Zara's life but Zara did not know what but Zari was required to give a decision. It feels so hard, Bun, Zara also don't know if she accepts all this? Is he sincere? But fortunately Zara always remembered the words Father Mother if as difficult as anything we still have God who will help us. No matter how weak Zara has a God who will always strengthen Zara."

"Honey.." mother stroked Zara's head and took Zara into her arms.

"Doesn't your sister have any answers to tell their family tonight?"

"Hm if Zara still doubts, can Zara ask for more time?"

"Later Zara asked both of their families yes" said mother.

"Sister, mother does not want to influence sister. As long as we know their families, they are indeed a good family, high social spirit, the same father, Zainal, used to work hand in hand and support for each other's efforts until now, Father and Zainal sir can be the same at this point. What you see from the outside is praying 5 times always run. Mother knows big brother must have his own criteria, right? But brother if brother is always looking for the perfect without gap brother looking where also will not be able to believe deh same mother. Because humans must have their own advantages and disadvantages" said mother.

"Bun, I'm sorry Zara. Zara sepet think like about Father and Mother Zara also sepet disappointed with Mother's Father. Sorry Zara."

"Yes son. Yaudah ah well be this way. Let the bride-to-be help your mother make breakfast."

"Mother Ih Zara has not answered what is the main thing said bride-to-be" said Zara whining while singing her lips.

"Haha ah come on. They will come home."

The clink of spoons and forks seemed to be a backsound in the morning at the family dining room of Mr. Akbar. They are not used to talking while eating, let their mouths focus on enjoying the sustenance that God gives this morning in the form of food. Thank God the word was said after they finished eating hope that what entered their bodies can be a blessing and provide positive energy.

"Sister, how? Do you have a definite answer?"

Zara seemed to take a deep breath and threw it away.

"Waduh take a deep breath is very heavy, brother?" ask Abidzar.

"Adeeker.. Don't keep teasing her brother." reprimand mother. Zara, who felt defended, immediately mocked Abizar by sticking her tongue out at Abizar.

"Dih. Look at this model already wants someone to sleep. Hahaha." Abizar said to Ahkam.

"Hmm really did not expect brother is also a boy like this time to be in the room ckckck" said Ahkam also tease Zara.

"Ihh bete, anyone who asks for a spit is not Zara who asks" said Zara as she left the dining table.

"Well." said Ahkam and Abizar looked at each other and was surprised by Zara's attitude because actually teasing and judging each other was common for the 3 brothers.

"Abang, Grandpa. Responsibility." said Dad.

Since finishing breakfast Ahkam and Abizar equally tried to persuade Zara who was sulking. It is not easy to persuade Zara, Zara can be a spoiled girl when with her brother and sister because maybe because she is the only woman. But also in a condition Zara can be a mature girl.

Almost 1 hour to persuade Zara finally want Zara to stop sulking with the lure of going to the free bookstore to buy the book that Zara wants.

***

Meanwhile, in a different house precisely in the family residence of Zainal sir. After dawn prayers congregate in a mosque not far from home. Arkan went straight into his room. Since approximately a week ago since his parents told about the problem of matchmaking himself with the son of his father's best friend Arkan became a little changed he became cold. Arkan was disappointed however he felt he was an adult entitled to be able to determine his own life path entitled to choose.

But on the one hand as a child he also wants to make his parents happy. Arkan saw clearly his parents were very hopeful with this matchmaking. His memory returned some time ago when his mother's eyes were very sparkling with happiness when she heard him declare he accepted this matchmaking.

Flashback.

When Arkan was enjoying his time off at home, finished exercising Arkan entered the house to clean his sticky body full of sweat.

"What's the new sport?" ask the father who is sitting quietly in the family room.

"Yes pa. Brother entered first yes want to clean clean." said Arkan to his papa.

"Bang.." call papa when just a few steps Arkan left the family room.

"Well, what's the matter, Pa?" ask Arkan to turn his body back to face his papa.

"Later finish clean here yes. Papa wants to talk to brother." said Papa.

"Oh yes Pa later brother down. Yaudah brother to the room first yes Pa." said Arkan again who answered a nod by his father.

15 Minutes Arkan is done with his activities. He approached Papa in the living room.

In the living room apparently there is already Mama, his sister and his nephew.

"Well, I collected. What's the matter?" ask Arkan who just sat himself next to his sister.

"What is the job in the office?" ask Papa.

"Alhamdulillah pa smoothly."

"Alhamdulillah then. This is how Papa meant to talk to the brother papa want to ask the brother, Do you already have a candidate who wants to know papa and family after the former?"

"Why did it arrive that way?"

"Come on and make it a lesson. Don't just be a hindrance to your step forward."

"Pa really mean papa what you don't understand."

"Okay papa to the point, after the incident when my brother asked me to propose to Almira but suddenly he left to decide everything unilaterally even before my brother came to propose to him. Since then, you never asked papa again to propose to girls, right? Have you been able to move on from Almira? Papa so inget Papa once promised the same temen papa ah maybe you could say papa's best friend. At that time papa promised to match brother with their child but it turns out their first son boy could not dong papa matein. Well, a few years later their families were given another child and thank God their daughter. That's where Papa and they agreed to prank you."

"So the point of this conversation papa just want to tell my brother that brother is already a mate?" ask Arkan.

"No, brother doesn't want to. You are old enough to be able to determine yourself to choose the best for yourself" Arkan said again.

"Papa tau. But where is the evidence until now brother still has not released from the shadow of the mass then brother. Bang papa is also not just to match the original brother married brother, not so. But look since brother was left so alone with someone in the past brother brother so closed. Especially women."

"Yes but that does not mean that papa can arbitrarily that brother has the right to determine his own life brother." explained Arkan firmly.

"If you want to force papa will not talk to your brother like this. Maybe papa'll make the wedding."

"But it's the same. Papa made a decision about my brother's life but I didn't ask my brother's opinion at all. My brother did not want to refuse. If indeed papa is not at will papa should understand and will not mean brother."

"Bang, Mama papa is not maksa. But there is no harm if you try to think first. My brother prayed for guidance from God no one knows who knows whether this path is the best for my brother" said Mama expectantly.

"If this is how papa's mom is maxain brother to accept" said Arkan.

"Bang, if mama papa wants maksa maybe brother has been married since some time ago. But reality isn't it, is it? Even mama papa follow her wishes brother when brother said he wanted to propose to people's children." said Mama.

"Since little brother papa mama would never ask what is the same brother since long ago papa always nurutin want brother ranging from brother to school anywhere, majors what papa does not maxain brother all in the hands of brother. Right said mama bang, try to think first think brother do'a so that later any decision you take brother involve God in it" said Father.

"Fines. I thought I thought first. But brother please whatever the decision later Brother Mama Papa must accept. Excuse me brother Assalamu'alaikum." said Arkan as he passed towards his room.

Three days already Arkan was in his retirement. One decision Arkan has made is a big decision that determines his life ahead. Consideration he did not until the heart refused when considering how his mother's efforts to persuade him also twinkle the eyes full of hope from his mother when persuading him and also did not Arkan understand what the reason but since a few days ago Arkan always included his name in his prayers as if believing to receive. I don't know maybe this is the way for Arkan to make his parents happy. Arkan also believes his parents must not have hit him.

"Alhamdulillah Brother is serious right? You're not kidding me anymore, are you?" mama said very enthusiastically.

"No God willing." replied Arkan.

"Thank God, thank you son" said the mother again who was greeted with a smile by Arkan.

"Yaudah then let papa sama sama afternoon go to the family home of Mr. Akbar to deliver this chat. Then later we agree to the proposal" said Papa decided.

Sorenya Papa and mama Arkan went to the Akbar family residence. A very pleasant conversation for the two families until the laughter sounded very happy.

The greeting from the girl who arrived at the door became inaudible. 

It has been determined this weekend there will be a cover event for Arkan and Zara. Two people who have never met face to face, two people who have not known each other but apparently not what has given happiness to both families.

Day after day passed, Arkan saw his mother always seemed to be the final spirit of this end also prepared this and that for Arkan's proposal event. Although honestly Arkan has not fully accepted but hopefully with time the doubt can be eroded. Because for Arkan the happiness of parents is an absolute requirement for the blessing of his life, especially Mama who Arkan believes Mama is his paradise.

"Yes very happy. Hopefully the doubt that is still in the heart will not hurt others later" said Arkan dialogue in his heart.

Today is the day agreed upon by both families. Tonight the Arkan family will go to Mr Akbar's family residence for an official application.

Some sort of speculation arose in Arkan. Will the girl accept his proposal? Or just refuse? If he refuses Arkan, he accepts it, but he cannot bear to remove the hope of his mother. Ah whatever will not feel good Arkan guessed hell let God know whatever will happen.

***

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