
The cries and cheers of joy were no longer heard, changing with heart-shackling silence, making several pairs of eyes look reddened by the tears that continued to flow. So touching in the heart precisely at the bottom of the heart of the deepest when Kim Ja Won rapper x-cool boy band from South Korea was singing a song of his creation that became his solo single. Who is not stunned to hear the sad song that was performed by the super handsome man with the misty hair.

The sadness is clearly read from the sad music that accompanies it, which I wonder if those who cry know the meaning of this song? not the language of Korea. But do not need to know the meaning of tears Kim ja won who sang it became their main reason for the x-cool fans to cry. I also feel even sadder than those who actually seem to live the song, I keep my sorrow right in the deepest heart, no tears necessary to show that this heart is slashed by sharp knives and thorns.
Kim ja won, you actually managed to leave a big question mark in this song, the upward curvature of the lips is always the same answer when you are asked about the message you really want to convey through this song. Did you create it because? I like to shake my head quickly when the question starts to cross, to get back to clearing my mind. I look at my legs with a smile, who wants to have disabled fans like me?
Michige mandeureo niga (you drive me crazy). Wae jakku naegesoe domangchinayo (why do you keep running away from me?). Nal ulge mandeureo niga (you made me cry)
Wae jakku naegesoe meoreojinayo (why do you keep getting further away from me?). Eonjenga uri dashi mannaneun geunal (one day when we meet again). Geuttae uri he eoji jimayo (do not say goodbye). gaseumi haneun mal mianhe.. mianhe.
I really liked the lyrics in the ref, which reminded me of a story I had three years ago. Although this song has nothing to do with that incident, but because of the incident three years ago I became very fond of your songs. Jakarta that afternoon was wracked by extreme heat exceeding the heat in the usual day. I walked while enjoying a piece of ice cream cup that I bought to relieve the throat that seemed to dry because of the sun.
As soon as a tall young man wearing a black jacket with a head covering smashed into me from the front, my ice cream splattered over in the gray white uniform I was wearing, there was no anger or resentment I was trying to help him stand up and pick up his dropped wallet, then he was running at super speed maybe my mind was wrong about who was the culprit of the collision I think I was the one who paid less attention to the road but it turns out he was more not paying attention anymore.
“Bla-bla-bla-bla.” only that word was heard in my ear when you who I thought were so handsome appeared to be scolding me while pointing sharply at me. I'm confused as to what I've actually done to you? as soon as it appeared with bare feet immediately angry at me who suddenly invited attention among the pedestrians who passed by that afternoon. “Korea? The korean? seoul?” I said while clapping, finally after thinking about some possibilities about the language you use I got one answer that must be true. But you didn't pay any heed to what I said, shaking your hands and then walking down a very hot pavement barefoot.
Sometimes I laugh funny to see your behavior which at that time seemed like playing a gaplek, can not be imagined by me how suffering your legs are. “Hufht...” I took a deep breath while occasionally wiping away the sweat that swarmed my forehead. Along the way I smiled to myself considering the incident just now, I could not understand why there was such a handsome madman? which hospital has lost a patient? hehs.
“Gosh!” I turned around and saw you back, you were running around with the big black dog behind you chasing after you as you howled. I could see you trying to remind me by waving my hand to run or maybe get out of the way and not get in your way on this little sidewalk, but it was too soon that I was confused what to do, until you're the one I thought was a mental hospital patient grabbing my hand and taking me on the run with you. The black dog was getting closer I tried to wake myself up to do something.
Without thinking long at the intersection when the traffic light is still green I take you to run through. Some driver stopped suddenly and cursed us, you fool! I thought I kept running now it was my turn to be a guide down the hallway to a narrow alley that was even smaller than the sidewalk, our steps stopped when there was nothing else to go through aka a dead end. Our hands no longer hold together. I clenched my knees holding my knees together, trying to catch my breath and heart rate faster than usual. All my life I ran so fast.
“You... You release a thief, you stupid girl!” you said gasping.
I thought you didn't know Indonesian because you were scolding me in a language I didn't understand at all.
“Which thief?”
“The thief who spilled your ice cream! You don't see me chasing him? if only you were a little smarter, of course, I wouldn't lose my wallet and be chased by a dog just for not wearing footwear and sneaking around. Aishh.. huh!! “your now rubbing foot rub.
“Aish! you don't know who I am?” you yelled at me, what I was thinking at the time was just a handsome mental hospital patient who lost his wallet, running in the hot sun barefoot.
“I'm Kim ja won, the rapper is x-cool you must know right? Or maybe your concert time comes?” you enthusiastically introduce yourself while styling like a jokey disc twisting your hand. I'm stunned. The x-cool? of course I knew in school all the students talked about it even the face of the five personnel became headlines in the mading, but unfortunately at that time I was not one of the fans, he said, I still prefer domestic bands whose lyrics I can easily understand.
“Heh you must know right?” you laugh with satisfaction until your eyes are closed, for doubt I reach for my smartphone from my pocket and immediately type Kim ja won the x-cool rapper, and true again all your photos immediately appear on the screen with various poses complete with a summary of the story about your life history.
“Your mother is Indonesian? Worth your Indonesian fluent!” I asked who was still stunned in disbelief at what I saw, Kim ja won with sweat all over his body and barefoot.
“Yes..” you answered briefly, for pity I took a pair of shoes from inside my backpack, luckily there was a sports lesson so I brought a pair of sports shoes even though I was not sure the size would fit. “you are lucky to help me, I will definitely reply to him wait until my management comes.” So arrogant! I said slowly so you wouldn't hear it instead you're the lucky one I can help?
“Can I borrow?” your door pointed at the smartphone in my hand, I immediately gave it to you and then you typed and put the phone in your ear, not so long ago you spoke in Korean which of course I do not understand, you seem to be nodding your head, as if your interlocutor is scolding you. As soon as you're done looking at my old smartphone and saying with a laugh.
“Eliana thank you, I'm not used to praising people but for me you're kind and have beautiful eyes you know in my country it takes millions of won to get eyes like you. Annyeonghi Kyeseyo,” clearly remembered the last word you said to me, but I did not really listen to me instead turned my eyes across the main street someone had caught my attention, he said, someone who took your wallet and dropped my ice cream. Maybe this is my last chance to do good to you before you go back to Korea, without a second thought I ran through the top of the traffic crowd, I think this time can escape easily because I have tried it with Kim ja won earlier.“Your name's Eliana?” I just remembered that the wallpaper is my photo and I wrote the word “my name is Eliana”. I quickly grabbed my phone from your hand, instead of saying thank you instead of laughing at my picture and nothing funny with my picture, because it is the best photo I have. “this time only, I will not be happy, take me to the main road because my manager is waiting there.” your door again, of course I do not refuse, my manager is waiting there, I could not deny that there was a sense of happiness that approached me I could not wait to tell my friends at school. Arriving at the main road you slightly dived, I followed him awkwardly.
But I was wrong, everything didn't go as easy as my mind a mini bus couldn't function the brakes well because my presence was too sudden for him, I crashed very far away, but I still saw Kim ja won who ran away from the road. The carving of my short story that formed a sturdy inscription in that heart, I can only keep to myself, though, who would believe that the day I lost my walking ability I met top singer Kim ja won, those who heard it would probably assume that it was some delusion that might have caused my accident heh.
Like that day, today's story has also ended when the entire x-cool personnel said, “Annyeonghi Kyeseyo” I again walked limped with both sticks in my groin along the crowded night atmosphere of the capital, the capital, one advantage I got from my situation at least I don't need to be afraid of thugs even though I have to go home late.
“Eliana sshi..”
“Elianassi?” I muttered slowly with a hint of hesitation I turned around.
Who calls me that? or maybe not me? because there is no harm in finding out.
I feel like I've seen it, it's like it's happened before and I'm sure it's not dejavu. I gulped as the figure who was running was now standing right in front of me, I knew the sound of ngos - ngosan it “Kkim ja won” muttered me with quivering lips, still with unstable breaths both hands embrace my small body which was experiencing a heavy loss after the accident, my wand fell I stood on the support of the body ja won.
“Eliana. Why did you just leave without seeing me? Did you know I was trying to find you? do you know how I lived my life with a huge burden of sin on my shoulders? I feel like a turtle always taking refuge in its shell. Today I found you, please don't run away again, stop making me feel like I want to go crazy half dead, and don't forgive me Eliana Sshi I want to apologize but I beg you not to forgive me, never forgive me, just let me forever be the turtle that always hides I will live it as an unforgivable punishment.” I can feel your tears wetting my shoulders.
“Kim ja won's. Who said I was punishing you? I'm happy enough you remember me, that's all I can hope for now as a fan.” I looked up at the sky smiling at the expanse of stars, and said, “You witnessed my story today.”