Knitting Wounds Extreme

54. Decisions.

A blur of grief enveloped the Darmadji family residence. Many of the neighbors, treated with a typical fashion dominated by black. The coffin had just been taken down, with Sherly's body lying comfortably in the arms of the earth's belly.

Sobs cry, so accompanied the departure of the beautiful woman Aditya's sister. Although Sherly's sharp mouth, and also accompanied by a rough curse that he often throws, but Aditya is still a brother who loves his sister very much.

The sharp tongue as sharp as a machete, now lying comfortably in the bed of eternity. There will be no more fuss, and a cheerful spoiled greeting from Sherly. There's only Sherla, who's left as Ditya's younger sister.

Maya is also present, although Nyah is not so clearly seen. However, when Maya comes to offer her condolences, Nyah immediately prostrates herself at Maya's feet. The woman hugged Maya's legs tightly, though she was unwilling and surprised by the woman's spontaneous actions.

"I'm sorry, my son, Maya. Forgive Sherly for making you suffer in the past. I, I have lost because I could not educate my son, "for how many times, whispers of forgiveness from Nyah continue to be spoken. Maya's heart is slashed, although she also does not deny that she is still heartbroken over Sherly's treatment in the past.

"I will try to be sincere in forgiving, Madam," Maya replied softly.

Maya should have laughed. But look at now. The woman was heartless and more sorry for Nyah. Anyway, Nyah is a mother. Watching Nyah receive a painful punishment, makes Maya also feel pity.

"I was wrong. I was a sinner from the beginning. Maybe this is the punishment that Sherly and I deserve" said Nyah. His two old hands were adorned with wrinkles, grabbing and grasping Maya's hands tightly.

"I'm sorry, I'll still forgive you and Sherly. No, don't think about it anymore. Life must go on, just pray that Sherly can sleep peacefully in the lap of God," answered Maya trying to strengthen.

And following, Maya's embrace for Nyah, made Nyah a little relieved. Maya is not as low as she thought. My father should have realized that long ago.

"Be my daughter-in-law, Maya. With Ditya alive, I promise to make you happy, and to guarantee Ditya to love you forever" whispered Nyah suddenly.

Maya could only close her eyes.

"Your heart still covers your family, Mrs Nyah. Please don't talk about it" replied Nyah.

Spontaneously, Nyah divorced her embrace and said, "don't let guilt and sin further bind our hearts, Maya. I beg. Should I bow at your feet for a willingness to sincerely accept Ditya back?"

Maya doesn't know, she has to accept it or not. But a nod from Fatma, managed to make Maya resigned.

There was a long breath of Maya's lips.

"I want to talk to Ditya one eye, of course if he is no longer in a mourning mood," Maya said after thinking about some considerations.

In the sorrow that still enveloped Ditya's heart, there was a happy speck that began to appear, in the future.

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The night mood was quietly adorning. Darmadji's residence looks more deserted, after the tahlil event about two hours ago, now Ditya and Maya are sitting together in the backyard. Sitting down to speak from heart to heart, was Maya's request.

It's been almost half an hour, but Maya hasn't spoken. Likewise with Ditya who is faithful to silence a thousand languages. Suppose, what Maya will say, she will wait even a thousand years. Maya's silence, like a dark night in a night sky without stars.

Until Ditya waited long enough, Maya finally opened her voice for the first time.

"I don't know how guilty you are, Ditya. All I know is, you want me to accept your proposal, just out of sheer guilt," Maya first said.

The woman's gaze was straight forward, empty and soulless. His body might be beside Ditya at the moment, however, his mind branched off wandering in the past, and in other places.

"I loved you a long time ago" Ditya replied later.

"Strue. You left me after all you could enjoy. Can it be called love? It's bullshit!" maya said with calm. His facial water was flat, but the look in his eyes held a lot of emotional ripples.

"I forced Mom to leave for the capital with the intention of continuing school, Maya. He went to college a few years abroad, and ended up working as a doctor the way I wanted. Say, I'm nothing more than a mother doll. But I did it all, on my mother's wishes, not my pure desires. Marry Citra, also for the arranged marriage held by Mother," replied Aditya honestly.

"Was it really, you were looking for me after you found out everything from your sister, Sherla?" ask Maya to come back.

"Yes, I'm sorry, even if I'm sorry you can't take it. But really, Maya. I never stopped hoping for your forgiveness. For Gavin's sake," Ditya said as he slowly grabbed and clasped Maya's hand, "I beg for Gavin's sake, give me the punishment as long as you can take me back afterwards. That kid, even looking at the look in his eyes I can't bear, he keeps hoping that we can be together."

"I'm afraid to accept you, Ditya. Besides being poor and having nothing of value that I can be proud of, I am also a former prostitute. Many men have tasted my body just for rupiah, am I worthy of a man as honorable as you?" ask Maya with a clean sliver. The tone sounds sore.

"Esteemed men won't impregnate a girl as well as you, and leave you after. You know, I look even more dilapidated than you. You fight for the child, I can never judge you. Regarding that moment, sorry for my disrespectful words, again rude to you, but believe me, the fire of jealousy is burning my senses to make me feel lost," said Ditya at length.

Maya closed her eyes, recalling the painful moment some time ago. Her heart was completely gnawed at hatred, yet, her little heart left such a sincere love for Ditya.

Oh my God, is receiving Ditya the right decision?

Inner Maya shouted.

"I'll take you back, Ditya, of course if you really change and fix everything you've broken. It's just that I have a request for you, so that you never bring up my past filled with the mud of sin and humiliation" Maya later broke up.

With all her faith, Maya tried to expand her heart, to accept Ditya. All that so that Ditya can improve himself and atone for his sins.

The beginning of happiness, is a broad heart apologizing in sincerity.

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