Knitting Wounds Extreme

45. Keep his heart.

The night was late, with many stars scattered tonight. Unlike last night which was covered in an occasional cloudy fog, this time the sky was brighter.

The boy who was present from the drops of Ditya, sat pensively on the bed. The boy's eyes stared at the clear night sky, and looked up at the sky that shaded the earth.

After meeting with Aditya and his family, Gavin ended up just silent without being able to react anything, making Gavin filled with anger, which mingled with longing in his heart. Wanting to be angry, but he also misses the embrace of the figure of the father.

Maya herself is also still in shock about the incident an hour ago. Gavin's mother chose to settle on her old sofa in the living room. Let go of Aditya, with thousands of wounds that are no longer helped. Luckily, his instincts were still running and remaining.

"Gavin hasn't slept? Go sleep. Grandma's gonna put Gavin to bed. Want to read a fairy tale?" fatma asked suddenly, which surprised Gavin a little.

"No, Grandma. Gavin wants to be alone" Gavin replied, with no interest at all.

"Thinking Father?" tanya Fatma then, while sitting on the edge of the bed, stared intensely at Gavin who was sitting at the end of the bed attached to the window.

"Yes, he and his family. From now on, don't call Ditya my father. I don't have a Dad. I only have Grandma and Mother" Gavin replied haughtily.

Fatma could only smile.

To be honest, his heart was also engulfed in nestapa. Various ways he tried to persuade Gavin, to keep smiling in a cheerful as ever.

"Don't do that, Grandma and Mom always teach you good things. As much as you hate him, the world will not deny that Gavin is Aditya's biological son" Fatma said, patting his thigh, so that Gavin would sleep on his lap.

"Gavin is happy to meet him, Grandma. Gavin also longed, wanting to hug Mr. Aditya. But no, she made me cry every night. Gavin wouldn't consider him Gavin's father, because he's the source of Mom's wounds. Let it go, Gavin just wants to be like this" replied Gavin.

Before long, the only son of Maya puppet with Ditya spread his body, with his head supporting the thigh of the Grandmother. It feels cool and soothing.

"But Mother said, this time you and Dad only met. Isn't that not something that's difficult?" fatma asked in a soft voice.

"I don't know what your problems were in the past. What Gavin knows, Gavin was born without Gavin asking. If Gavin could ask, Gavin only wanted to be born from a complete parent despite being simple" the boy said.

Believe me, there is nothing more painful than Gavin's sentence on this one for Fatma.

"Patience, dear. Grandma will always try her best for your happiness. Listen Grandma, just this time. From now on, may Grandma ask Gavin to treat Mr Aditya like a neighbor? No hate, no anger. Grandma just wants Gavin to calm down. If Gavin is still uncomfortable with the situation, forget that Mr. Ditya is Gavin's father. Just act as usual as Gavin facing the neighbors, if in the future Gavin met with Mr. Aditya," said Fatma at length.

Gavin's smile became a sign of approval. Only, no one could understand the child's heartache.

"To be honest, Gavin is very affectionate and wants to feel the warm embrace of a father, Grandma. Like earlier. It's just, it seems like Gavin has to resist that urge. Gavin didn't want to hurt Mom" Gavin said later.

"Grandmother understands. Now sleep. The night is late. Grandma's going to meet your mother to talk something" Fatma told Gavin.

There was something that made Gavin's heart rustle, as he recalled Ditya's face towards his sleep this time. Gavin hopes that he can truly make Mother happy, even though he himself is so tormented because he does not have Ditya as a father.

Fatma's steps swayed, towards the living room where Maya was still sitting pensive. The hot cup of coffee that Maya had made, was toilet. The woman also did not want to sleep, because many things disturbed her mind.

Maya should understand, that self-torture is not a good idea just because Ditya is not worth thinking about. But whatever the power, heart and mind of Maya can not be switched one bit from Ditya.

That vibration, that sense, even the blind love that Maya feels for Ditya, is enough to make Maya tormented until now. Although Maya no longer wants to live with Ditya as her dream once was, however, Ditya still does not go from her mind.

"Thinking of Dita and her family?" tanya Fatma who suddenly appeared without cue.

Maya's Attention is distracted. The woman smiled, pretending to be firm even though her heart was bleeding endlessly. The woman's face still looked pale, with her hair still falling apart.

"Yes. Refuting even, I will never believe in Maya," said Maya smiling motherly.

"You're sure of your decision to forgive Ditya and Nyah?" fatma asked as she sat down on the sofa, right in front of Maya. Gavin's grandmother's tone was light, like she was joking with Maya.

"Yes. I want to make peace with reality, Mom. Anger that has never been, makes me tired and want to give up. Although I feel unwilling, but I have to learn for it. Let it be, the most important thing is that I do not accept Ditya and am willing to be a replacement for young mistress Darmadji. I did it, just so that Ditya wouldn't press me for an apology" Maya replied.

"If you want to make peace with the past, destiny and reality, then you have to accept the consequences. Ditya's gonna be closer to Gavin, and you're gonna have to be willing to. I asked, are you ready for the risks in the future?" ask Fatma then.

Maya is silent, seemingly thinking by commenting on a bitter smile.

"How to deal with it, Mom?" ask Maya, to her mother.

"Because you have decided to accept reality, then you have to accept many things and also changes. It's just that, please, please, please once Mother asks for help, don't be too overstretched Gavin to establish closeness with Ditya. Nyah, we know very well how Nyah. I'm afraid he took Gavin in a slow and subtle way" Fatma said.

"Then Ditya will be the growth, Mom. Believe me, Maya will not forgive anyone if one of them makes a fatal mistake" Maya replied.

"Maya, I don't know why, I'm not sure about Nyah's apology. Maybe you are too carried away by your feelings for past trauma" added Fatma again.

"I could be even crazier than the past, if they dared to take Gavin away from me. I swear!" maya exclaimed, recalling how Nyah cried a few hours ago.

Hearing her mother's words, I don't know why Maya suddenly disturbed her heart.

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