Karma Love

I Like You, Brother !

I came home with a heart that was not okay. What power though my lips say it's okay turns out the other side of my heart is so weird.

After this lecture, Fanya invited me to go around, she brought my vespaku, I just sat sweetly while enjoying the streets. I don't know where he walked, turned right and then left occasionally turning, circling the roundabout in the middle of the road. Hah he is wasting my time, my mind protests, but I do not refuse with his actions.

He said, if ever since I was appointed as an assistant lecturer and my shop grew, my life became very rigid and monotonous. He felt sorry for me because he didn't have time to just refresh his brain. It's true that I also sometimes feel that way, just that I don't want to complain. Isn't this a process towards what I want ?

Fanya stopped the vespanya. Stop right at the edge of the park, ''Syila look, it looks like here is an event, the decoration is very luxurious.'' I followed the direction pointed by Fanya. Yes Fanya is right, luxurious decoration indeed, a simple garden looks elegant by the creative hands of the event organizer.

I watched the writing on stage.

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'Dika Vishaka & Laura Yunanda's Happy engagement.'

'This is where they're going to do her engagement ?' I ask myself.

Then I held my chest, right in my heart, the beat getting louder accompanied by my painful heart. Why is this, I want to end our relationship, but why do I feel so unwilling. Even fate supported me, making Dika forget me in a very short way, but that was not what I wanted. I feel in campakan, after being double-headed from me, they are happy, while I still crawl wake up from the slump.

''Can we just go home ?'' I was tired, tired of a heart that was again not as strong as a coral, still like tofu, mushy, if it was related to Dika.

We went home, Fanya did not protest much even though she looked very curious about me who was suddenly clouded.

***

Arriving at the shophouse I have the arrival of sweet brondong, Rayhan.

I changed my face as cheerfully as I could, trying to cover up my sadness.

''Ray.'' My broom.

''Brother, you just got home ? I waited for you for an hour more.'' His report.

''Oh yes ? Have you been bored waiting for me ?'' My god. Ray seems to be misbehaving.

''I was, but seeing Brother back my boredom disappeared.'' I laughed when I heard him say that. I never took it seriously, just a joke. He is funny, can bring laughter to me, I consider him as a little brother, because he is younger than me.

''What's up Ray ? You waited for me for a long time ?'' I go back to the initial topic.

''I'd like to take you for coffee, will Brother have time ?'' Ray looks nervous, what's wrong when just asking for coffee.

''I'm really tired, if you want, we'll have coffee here, yes, I'll make it for you.'' My chest is in a bad mood. Rayhan nodded in agreement.

I went to the kitchen to make some coffee, and I brought some cake. I chose ice chocolate myself.

We sat next to the shophouse, a small garden with two chairs and a small table.

There was no chatter, I was still trying to stir up my mood. And Ray ? I don't know why ? He looks different and strange.

''Ray, why are you ? You are sick ?'' My toot. Rayhan looked surprised, because his mind seemed not to be with his body.

''Emm Brother I want to talk.'' Said doubtful.

''Sir..'' I'm waiting for the next sentence.

''A.. A.. I'm...'' Still patient.

''Emm... I'm..'' Started to thin my patience.

''Say Ray, why did you suddenly become a gagu so ?''

''I love you !'' Ray said spontaneously.

''I know that, if you don't like me, you won't come here often to buy cakes and want to be friends with me.'' Syila was not connected to Ray.

''Not like that, brother, but like men like women, I was interested in Brother since the first time I saw you. Until I can't forget you even though I'm sleeping.'' Syila is in disbelief. This half-baked man is overhauling Syilakah.

''Heiii boy, the school used to graduate, just said like as the opposite sex to me.''

''Brother but instead of love it does not look at what age is status anymore ? As I feel right now, I don't see a difference in age or status between us.'' Syila breathed heavily.

''Rayhan, I'm too busy to think about love-love issues, you're right love is blind can't see a difference. But sorry. I really have no taste for you other than as a friend. Or as a Brother to His Sister.'' Syila.

''If yes, I like you as a woman to her man, then we go out, I'm sure you won't be able to face me. What else with my time so dense.''

'You will also vent your loneliness to other women, just like Dika did to me back then.'

'Why is this complicated, this is a boy !'

''I'm heartbroken now.'' His face was made as sad as possible. Syila laughed to see it.

''You're funny, I'll bring you a cake, give it to your mom. After that go home and study hard, you know the woman wants to have an established companion, and towards the establishment you have to fight starting from your education. If it's a handsome matter, you already have it without being asked.'' Syila's advice to the Bronis.

Rayhan is now stunned, 'He's an adult, he must want a man who is not just able to say good night and I love you every day.'

Feeling unworthy to be with Syila, Ray finally chose to go home first, retreat to improve himself, and will return when he is well established as Syila was talking about earlier.

Syila has brought a plastic box of cookies, ''This bring, for you also your Mammu.''

Ray was still silent, but his eyes did not blink staring at the face wrapped in a hijab.

''Ray...!''

''Oh yes thank you, my sister, Mami would have liked it.''

Rayhan had gone to go home, before a word stopped him.

''Fight for yourself Ray, to live better, never expect something that looks impossible for you to achieve. You will definitely find a woman who is more worthy of you, to be with you someday than me.''

Ray stopped, I will fight for what I want, including Brother's love, someday I will come back for it. So Big Brother just needs to wait for that time to arrive. I'll make sure Big Brother likes me too.'' He said without turning his head, after that passed leaving Syila and her cake shop.

'Based on men, you don't even understand what it's like to miss but not be able to reach it. I told you not to expect me. Because I'm a taboo to you, Ray.' Syila went into the store, joined his employees working, as much as he could because he was the boss.