JANUARY AND MAHENDRA

33. Need a Home to Just Settle.

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The day has changed, Mahendra became fever due to the rains yesterday. Upon returning from Nathan's funeral, Mahendra fell unconscious, which immediately made all family members and friends panic.

Mahendra getting outpatient at Pakle Tejo's. Gantari takes good care of Mahendra, the girl painstakingly looks after Mahendra even though the man is not yet aware even though Keshwari has given first aid.

Gantari let out a sigh looking at the man who was now lying weakly with his hands infused. The man's eyes had not opened yet, his lips were still pale. Gantari started to worry, Mahendra is fine right?.

Then the door of Mahendra's room opened showing Keshwari coming with a new infusion bottle, including Mahendra had spent about 4 bottles of infusion and this was Mahendra's 5th bottle.

"Kesh, Mahendra's okay, right?" Tanya Gantari to Keshwari who was changing the infusion bottle then turned to check on Mahendra's condition.

"It's okay mbak, he's just so exhausted so feverish. I hope tomorrow Mahen is dead." Keshwari.

The same sentence as last afternoon, he said that Mahendra will soon be awakened but in fact until now this man has not been aware.

"He was whimpering, I was so worried" said Gantari, because Mahendra had earlier moaned the name of his parents and Nathan but the man had not realized, but still closed. Is he dreaming?.

Keshwari who saw Gantari daydreaming like he was thinking about something was immediately giving attention, "Mas Mahen was like this mbak, when Aunt Wira died Mas Mahen fever up to 2 weeks."

"It was also time on the anniversary of the death of Aunt Wira Mas Mahen was sick again, it seems that mas Mahen was used to being sick that day. And now he felt pain again on the day Nathan died" Keshwari's gaze turned to Mahendra with a welt.

Gantari suddenly remembered the incident when Mahendra had a very long and very severe fever, in his sleep he never calmed down, he was looking for his mother.

"Mak Gantari wants to sleep in the guest room or come home?" Tanya Keshwari immediately disperse the daydreams of Gantari.

"In the guest room, Kesh"

"Okay, let me clean up first huh"

"No Kesh, you're so tired. Let me clean up myself"

"That's it, yeah I've decided to go home first. Later if Mas Mahen wakes up tell him to drink the medicine on the table. If there's anything tell me, yeah mba." Keshwari's message pointed to the medicine lying on the nightstand.

Gantari then nodded to accept Keshwari's advice. Then after everything was understood by Gantari, the beautiful girl began to leave Gantari and Mahendra.

After Keshwari's departure, Gantari again turned his attention to Mahendra, the man why sleep so long. Gantari was very longing.

The girl's hand grabbed Mahendra's hand and then cupped and held it.

"Mahendra, you know that as long as I live your life I'm most worried about right now. I've been worrying too much about myself and now this worry has moved to lo"

"Lo emang ngeselin even for the time being you're still a ngeselin!."

Gantari sighed, her gaze became sad just by looking at Mahendra's face that was still pale. The man's lips were slightly open, occasionally he groaned softly.

Mahendra has been like this several times, but his eyes are not open at all.

Did Gantari just call Keshwari to get Mahendra taken to the hospital?.  But the girl had just left this house about 15 minutes ago and it was impossible for Gantari to disturb Keshwari, she was also exhausted from going back and forth to check on Mahendra's condition.

"Gue also want to anger you again Mahendra, I'm so confused what to do if you like this."

After looking at Mahendra for a long time, Gantari decided to leave Mahendra's room. But just as he reached the doorway, the man's groaning sound again made Gantari run low and did not have the heart to leave him.

Gantari returned again, then with a sense of doubt, the girl also spread her body right next to Mahendra, hugging him with warmth.

"Bund..."

"Nath..."

Mahendra's moaning voice was heartbreaking, the man continued to search for the whereabouts of two people who had left him, unknowingly Gantari's tears fell.

Gantari's hand moved around caressing Mahendra's chest, rubbing him very gently before he finally patted slowly hoping the man could fall asleep quietly. Along with that, Gantari closer his body hardened on Mahendra. He hid his tears that were still flowing. Why is he so crowded? It feels like Gantari felt the pain, he was also overwhelmed to make Mahendra's body warm because in fact the man's body still feels cold even though it has been helped by a thick blanket.

"Mahendra, however deep your heart falls, should no one be willing to catch the heart so that it is not hit directly and then become destroyed?. I'll be that guy, Mahendra. I will capture your heart so as not to be broken and damaged. I will always be here with your pain, I know it may not be my expertise but my permission to disguise all your wounds. I promise, after this you can live happily".

Shortly after the sentence ended, Gantari could feel Mahendra's breath begin to regularize. He hopes Mahendra can be calmer now even though he never knew what kind of dream became his sleeping flower this time.

Gantari's hand still stroked gently even though Mahendra no longer snarled or whimpered.

"Gue love you, Mahendra." Said Gantari increasingly drown his face in between the shoulder Mahendra. For now he only wants Mahendra to answer him directly and make his heart and feelings become relieved.

The girl is now falling asleep in a beautiful dream, and hopefully this dream also becomes a dream embedded in the sleep of a Mahendra. Because basically Gantari just wants Mahendra to be able to feel the beautiful dream as well.

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The next day it was very pronounced that the Sun was shining after a night of rain. A little light enters through the horden gap that is scattered by the wind makes the room become dim.

Mahendra's eyes narrowed slightly, his forehead shriveled feeling the rest of the dizziness that still made him dizzy.

He finally tried to open his eyes slowly. He wriggled until he finally felt a moving hand rub his chest.

He realized that there was a girl sleeping next to him. Mahendra smiled minimally, he wanted to chuckle but it felt very heavy because his head was still dizzy.

Mahendra moved out his hand which was squeezed between him and Gantari then moved his arm to chop the girl's head. Gantari who felt Mahendra's movement then wriggled increasingly tightened his embrace. Mahendra who did not want to chuckle also became chuckled just because of Gantari's behavior while asleep.

Mahendra closed his eyes again and his hand moved rubbing Gantari's shoulder until the girl woke up. Gantari slightly narrowed her eyes then looked at Mahendra who was still closing his eyes but the man's hand moved gently rubbing his shoulder.

"Mahen?" Call the girl doubtfully.

As the minutes went unanswered by Mahendra, Gantari called out to him once more ensuring that he felt Mahendra's hand move until it moved.

"Mahendra?"

"Eum ..." Mahendra stood up very softly.

Hearing Mahendra speak, Gantari immediately rose up so surprised.

Mahendra's puffy eyes slowly opened and Gantari was the first person he saw when he opened his eyes.

Gantari heaved a sigh of relief, it was a relief to see Mahendra awaken.

"Still dizzy?" Gantari asked while sticking the back of her hand on Mahendra's forehead.

Mahendra nodded weakly, indicating that the feeling of dizziness was still slipping into his head.

"Now take medicine first yes, later I make porridge for lo breakfast"

Gantari got out of bed and helped Mahendra to sit in a leaning posture. The girl grabbed the medicine that was given last night by Keshwari, Mahendra said and immediately took the medicine that was served by Gantari.

After seeing Mahendra take his medicine well, Gantari immediately went to make porridge for Mahendra.

But he had not had time to step, his hand held by Mahendra made it become a hedge to leave the man.

"Gan, I don't want you to go too" Mahendra said.

Gantari looked again at those sad eyes, the eyes that could pull her heart felt that pain. But just as Gantari was trying to smile.

"Gue just want to make porridge, later also come back here".

"Gue is afraid, Gan.- I am afraid that I will eventually be alone".

"Mahendra, I will never leave you. I'll stay here too, in the same place as you. "

The man tightened his grip on Gantari as if he did not want to let the girl go.

"In the meantime, Mahendra, I promise you there are no 15 minutes" Gantari told Mahendra who was still hesitant to release him.

At Mahendra's last glance, he observed the girl in front of him so deeply that he found a path that helped him to approach the belief.

The dream will get worse if Mahendra stays there.

Gantari sighed for the umpteenth time, he cupped the cheeks of Mahendra who felt still hot in his hands. In his eyes it was no less clingy.

"Mahendra, no matter how much you worry about me who will leave you. I am more worried about losing you! I beg you to come out Mahendra, out of all your wounds and sadness. I know it won't be easy, but you have to try it! Your life must go on, don't try to hurt him again Mahendra." Urai Gantari, his eyes are still staring at Mahendra's bead.

Mahendra too, the man was very deep in his gaze, looking at the whole corner of the eye full of confidence.

In this life, there may be many things that make Mahendra think that he is the most unlucky human being. But, this time Mahendra has been very grateful to God for wanting to give at least one person to Mahendra complained as the most comfortable and safest place.

Now Mahendra only needs a house, a house that will accommodate himself with all his wounds and pain. When it rains, he knows where he is going to shade and when he is tired, he knows where he is going to rest.

"Gan, when I feel unsafe outside the house and when I go home, now I know where to go. Although sometimes you don't respond that well, but I'm grateful you still have you worried about me."

Mahendra's outstretched hand grabbed the cold hand of Gantari who cupped his cheek, "Gue will also always be a crowd in every quiet lo, because it is what we need now just to take off each other lonely. Please love me Gan, love me as you love yourself."

"My house has long been destroyed Gan, you want to help me build it again? I can't do it alone, it's exhausting and it's never going to finish."

Gantari nodded confidently and made Mahendra slightly comment on the smile. Such a beautiful smile now radiated back through the corner of the pale lips.

Gantari's hand that was still cupping Mahendra's cheek was moved gently rubbing the warm surface.

"Udah yes, I want to make porridge first to make you breakfast"

And in the end Mahendra nodded making Gantari's hand away from his face. Really he really did not want the rubbing on his cheek to end just like that. Mahendra poked his lips in disappointment.

Presumably Gantari knows Mahendra's disappointment that does not want him far.

Gantari advanced her face to kiss the pale lips that were pinched briefly and managed to make Mahendra round his eyes.

"Morning kiss" gantari chirped with a smile review before the girl finally moved and left Mahendra who was still sitting leaning with mixed feelings.

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Gantari led to the kitchen and saw Bi Mina who was busy, the woman was making porridge and all making breakfast for the house.

Feeling that someone was approaching her, Bi Mina was slightly furthered due to the existence of Gantari who was already beside her.

"Oh yeah, I'm Gantari." Bi Mina turned her head for a while to Gantari who was smiling awkwardly. The woman was still stirring the porridge that was in the pot.

"Shock it bi? Sorry" said Gantari is not good because its existence has surprised bi Mina.

"A little mbak, hehe"

"Porridge for Mahendra ya bi?" Tanya Gantari still watched bi Mina who was stirring it.

"Yes, is Mahendra awake?"

Gantari answered with a nod.

"I intend to make porridge for Mahen, but because it has been made the same bi Mina so it does not become deh. Sorry bi, I should have helped bi Mina. Eh even bi Mina bothered herself like this."

Bi Mina was seen smiling in response to Gantari who felt awkward while serving her homemade porridge on a bowl that had been placed on a tray with one glass of clear water.

"Do not hesitate mbak, if you need what just say aja mbak. I also do not feel repotin at all because this is my obligation. Precisely I have to thank the same mbak Gantari because it wants to keep mas Mahen. Must be tired, huh mbak?"

"Not bi". Gantari smiled awkwardly again.

"Here let me take the bi"

Then Gantari grabbed the tray that was on the table that Bi Mina had almost brought.

"Ber loh mbak, if mbak Gantari need anything do not hesitate to call me" message bi Mina until finally responded nod by Gantari.

"Thank you bi"

After that, Gantari returned to Mahendra's room after he fell silent and stared briefly at the room directly across from Mahendra's room. The room marked with the initial plate 'N' on the door was completely closed just like the first time Gantari saw it.

Gantari's gaze was over, he chose to enter Mahendra's room and saw the man sitting in a leaner looking directly at him even though he had focused on observing the glass window with a horden that was slightly moved by the wind.

The man smiled and it obviously made Gantari very relieved, Mahendra was able to smile again.

"Breakfast first" said Gantari, the girl put a tray on the nightstand and then took a bowl of porridge and stirred it.

Sometimes the girl blew the porridge that was already on her spoon before she put it in Mahendra's mouth.

Mahendra said, even though he was not appetite. But somehow he melted when he saw carefully how Gantari took care of him. He remembered once like this.

"Gan, it's been" said Mahendra, slightly distancing his head to refuse a bribe from Gantari. His stomach feels nauseous.

"It's just been a little bit too, just one more time?" Said Gantari, his hand still forward as if asking Mahendra to open his mouth again.

Mahendra remained shaking weakly making the girl stumble disappointed.

"My stomach is so nauseous with Gan. Yes" he lamented.

"That's because you didn't eat from yesterday." Gantari pulled his hand then stirred the original porridge. "Gue doesn't want you to be sick anymore Mahendra"

Gantari's voice was heard decays in between the scenes. Mahendra smiled shadyly, then grabbed the bowl that was in Gantari's hands put it on the nightstand.

Suddenly the girl was astonished and looked at Mahendra with confusion. Mahendra clasped Gantari's hand and then rubbed it slowly.

The man smiled again and then breathed his breath. His gaze was already attached to both of Gantari's beautiful eye beads.

"Gue is no longer sick Gan, your existence is enough for me to heal." Mahendra said very gently, his hands turned to rub the side of Gantari's head occasionally pulled over the hair that was not tied properly and looked very messy.

Whether Mahendra had been asleep for many days and did not see Gantari well, Mahendra really missed him, longing for all the warm and upset gazes at the same time. Mahendra had been stuck in the dream for a long time until he finally forgot someone waiting for him to wake up.

Mahendra rubbed the head again, "Thank you very much Gan, has been willing to be a medicine for all my injuries. You're my only hope for happiness, and at all times I can be myself."

For too long they looked at him, and Gantari felt Mahendra's swipe was too lacking as he pulled his hand to end all his movements.

"Gue does not need to spell if I love you too, right Gan? Because I think you already understand how I feel." said Mahendra while reviewing a smile. Presumably this man is indeed answering Gantari's feelings last night.

Gantari smiled even though she seemed a little embarrassed to accept the answer to her feelings.

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Mahendra, you no longer need to feel anxious and you also do not have to worry about your sleep that never calms down. Worries every night are now disguised.

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